My Journey with My Twin Flame(from my experience) (Page 2)

Could not have said it much better than that!

What is/are Evil intention/s anyway?

I will be clear about one thing I have intentions of destruction in all its forms, however this is not Evil intentions so I am unsure as to what is Evil intentions?

Posted by pisceanpisces
So, this is about:

" I love you, but I can't be with you now, but don't leave me" lol

Lol....there is nothing that says you can't let go and move on. You still have free will and if you feel there is abuse(emotional manipulation, and so forth) then walk away.

I decided once to let go. And it helped me a lot; to see clearly. If it gets to be too much for either party, then they should let go and move on.

I will soon post about letting go. I read another forum asking about cutting the cord. In all honesty I haven't heard of it; what I have heard of is the letting go process. I'll give my own insight from my experience on this subject. It will got back to the discussion about letting go of pain and forgiving oneself as well as your twin flame; which isn't as easy; trust me I know. But hopefully I can help. Feel free to PM if you want to just talk about your experience or you can post it here.


I do wonder if a Twin Flame can be more than one; or is there a Mirror Twin Flame(one who prepares you for your actual twin flame). Will research this(to be continued) will try to post by tonight.

Posted by Sagittarius2315
I will soon post about letting go. I read another forum asking about cutting the cord. In all honesty I haven't heard of it; what I have heard of is the letting go process. I'll give my own insight from my experience on this subject. It will got back to the discussion about letting go of pain and forgiving oneself as well as your twin flame; which isn't as easy; trust me I know. But hopefully I can help. Feel free to PM if you want to just talk about your experience or you can post it here.


I do wonder if a Twin Flame can be more than one; or is there a Mirror Twin Flame(one who prepares you for your actual twin flame). Will research this(to be continued) will try to post by tonight.

Like I was wondering that too...I am as you can probably read in a situation with a Taurus/Gem...it was pretty intense and as much as I try to let go its incredibly hard to. There is something there that will not go away. I wish so much to cut the chords and let go...ugh I feel like i am losing it most of the time...egos are huge and it turned physical last night...I know its time to let go my soul literally hurts...I love this man and my little girl is super scared...I see him and his scared little boy..I know that we are not meant to be forever I think I am preparing him for the next relationship as well as he is for me..there have been other very important relationships but this one has seemed to last the ages...I can't really imagine my life without him and neither can he imagine his life with me...I have to trust my gut and believe that it was real believe that we will be friends once again when we heal...its going to be hard however I think its a must...

I have anxiety last night and this morning when i wake up and fear that he is gone forever..i constantly push him away and vice versa only to pull him back..I believe that we are learning something here..ugh so hard when the feelings just won't go away..

Posted by Impulsv
Letting go / Surrender it to the hands of god. It's about trust in the devine.

So true! Yet so hard to do 😢

How to Let Go( Part one)-

The process of letting go; it's the hardest thing to do in any relationship; but hardest when it comes to romantic relationships. Why is this? This happens because we give our all at a higher level to a potential romantic interest. So it hurts greatly to lose this person; to feel betrayal from this person, to have to let go of a part of ourselves, because that's exactly what they become a part of us. So when you part ;that part of you goes missing. However; is this entirely true? Lets take a look at what happens with romantic relationships and TF romantic relationships.
Because we set predetermined expectations; in our minds we begin to play out our whole relationship; and when these expectations aren't met for what ever reason, we begin to push further to get what we are seeking, and when we still done get it; we begin to lash out, because we don't understand the short comings. In the beginning things are so magical that when it's gone, and you see this person has limitations, we don't understand it.

However, in my experience with a TF this seems to go backwards. Your so transparent, that you actually show the ugliest side of you to this person. Why? Because this connection is meant to break old habits, to break the ugly, and then force you to let go of old habit; in order to heal and accept all of your self for who you are and aren't. Through this period of reflection, you put a lot of energy in the blame game. Your reaction isn't seen as your fault; but there's.

"I act like this; or get this way; even lose control of my emotions, because of you."

Sound familiar? Think back to relationships before you meeting your TF. How many times did you play the blame game? Or played mind games? Didn't take accountability for you part in an argument and instead you placed all the blame on them?

Now; pretend your looking at a mirror and your looking at your own reflection. The mirror represents your TF. What happens when you play these games with your own reflection? Whose there yelling back at you? You. Whose there playing the blame game with you? You. Whose there name calling and saying hurtful things back at you? You. So if you notice when you're doing all this with your TF; your doing it to yourself. So you resent; you're only resenting yourself. When you say you hate; you're only hating yourself. When you see all this ugly behavior; you're seeing all this ugly behavior with in yourself because your TF reflects it bac

Virgom-

The fear of being alone and abandonment is deep rooted. And it's carried on on to adulthood. I think that's your biggest lesson; alone with trust, and also loving unconditionally without limitations. I know this is easier said then done, but loving, is a big thing.


For example; have you ever tried telling someone at random "I love you." Or "you have a beautiful soul."

If not; why? If so, what was the reaction of that person.

If you think about it; we are love; we are beauty; so why limit love; or restrict love for fear, of a fear that's only present in your mind. You already have it in your mind, that he will leave? Why? Did you have these feelings a soon as you developed feelings for him? If so, why?

These are questions you need to ask yourself. Why do I fear him leaving? Where is this fear coming from? And how can I do away with this fear and replace it with love?

Think back to your childhood. That's usually where the answer will lay. Try not focusing on him; but on your own growth as a whole. That is what the connection is about self awareness, loving oneself and acceptance.

Like one of the posters stated; mistakes shouldn't be feared. Through mistakes is how we learn. Mistakes are learning lessons. Without then you will not discover different levels of ourselves. So don't beat yourselves up for it. This connection is meant to make you aware of your innerself.

Posted by Sagittarius2315
Virgom-

The fear of being alone and abandonment is deep rooted. And it's carried on on to adulthood. I think that's your biggest lesson; alone with trust, and also loving unconditionally without limitations. I know this is easier said then done, but loving, is a big thing.


For example; have you ever tried telling someone at random "I love you." Or "you have a beautiful soul."

If not; why? If so, what was the reaction of that person.

If you think about it; we are love; we are beauty; so why limit love; or restrict love for fear, of a fear that's only present in your mind. You already have it in your mind, that he will leave? Why? Did you have these feelings a soon as you developed feelings for him? If so, why?

These are questions you need to ask yourself. Why do I fear him leaving? Where is this fear coming from? And how can I do away with this fear and replace it with love?

Think back to your childhood. That's usually where the answer will lay. Try not focusing on him; but on your own growth as a whole. That is what the connection is about self awareness, loving oneself and acceptance.

How your post is such confirmation of everything that I already know. WE talked about this the night that we got physical. How my thing is pushing him away first before he pushes me...so he gets hurt before I do..we are a work in progress and I think that if we stick it out and learn to communicate better our fears and needs in the end we will get to where we are suppose to be..I believe that every conflict is preparing us for a great come back.
I know my lesson in this is learning how to love without limitations like you said. That is why your post is such confirmation..I am blessed to have a partner who is willing to take this journey with me no matter how hard..and like I said I don't think we are meant to be together forever..but its like we are both smoothing out the other for the next..bitter sweet but glad that I am able to help him along his journey as well...

@Sagittarius2315 you have SOOO many points here that I will be reading and re-reading this post for quite some time while I continue my quest for my own inner truth. I just came to the realization that I've been demonizing some of his actions which is really the epicenter of our downfall and why I broke things off with him. It just occurred to me that I am the EXACT same way. Everything he did, I've done and honestly when I was doing these things I never saw a problem with it. But when he did it, it was like I completely forgot that I'm the same way and I began to lose faith, trust and on and on in him. This is one of the things I eventually want to apologize to him for...as essentially it's why we're no longer together. He said sooo many things when I broke things off that make me realize he may know more about Twin Flames than I do. But i was so in my feelings and delusional that I couldn't hear him. And this is just the surface...this is why I want to take some time to learn all the lessons he's been teaching me all this time.

^^^^^

I'm happy my experience has shed some light on your situation_—. TF connection is a wake up call; to help us be our better selves, and to help us find our true purpose in life. It helps us to do away with old habits that no longer serve us, and don't fit in our lives.

This connection above all is a spiritual bond between to souls; to help each other shed the old; and bring in the new. To helps us grow in every way possible. It's also a never ending learning experience. This is what the connection is about; it's beyond the romantic; once we see it as such, you won't begin to take in the lessons the connection has for you.

Whatever level you two are at ; at the moment, know it's meant to be this way for a reason. It's meant to help you see your true self. Not yourself you show others who are looking from the outside in; your true self that you fear showing others; the you that you might hide.

What does this mean? Many of us deny who we really are ; even to ourselves.

For example; being manipulative (that was one of mine; so using this example as one). I would never admit this to myself, because I hated it if I saw it happening to others. But I use to do it. Then I began asking myself why? Well because I hate losing control; so I would control the outcome of a lot of things through subtly manipulating people, whether it was emotionally, or mentally. However, now I'm not afraid to admit it, because I'm at piece with it. I stopped trying to control things, because no matter what, the end result isn't up to me; it's up to the universe.

If something is meant for me; then it's meant for me. If it isn't; then it isn't. I take the lessons that I learned; thank god for my blessings and move on.


The more you begin looking with in yourself; you will soon see that you will slowly begin to accept a lot of things about the connection and yourself.

thank you for creating this thread and sharing guidance to us all who have experienced this intense connection. I can relate to this 100 percents and what you say about reading each others masks is what scare most of us the most...how i find peace with this paring is to accept the love insteaad of fighting it and resisting.. the min i start to force myself to stop loving, letting go and moving on i feel this pain in me... and the min i let go to this love and swim through the ocean of my love for him..i grow... i feel happy..peaceful and i use the energy of it to create a happier me...doing something creative like writing, cooking or alot of artistic things.. i believe this connection truly brings out the best in you if you know how to channel it well...however if i fight it i end up being the one in pain...its like forcing yourself to stop loving yourself...true, this connection brings the most pain...i feel it causes more anxisety and pain when we are deeply involved...often or not because i often be the one who feeel the anxiety and the fear first...and i can sense his fear...however i always thought it was my own fear... for .e.g. i may be feeling off today for some reason and the anxiety and the insecurity kicks in...and i started to doubt him and his action..i project them all on him...and he feels my feelings ...and started to pull away so the dance begins and the fight starts etc...and we both need to detach... so we both can regain our individuality again...its an on going dance but i think with this paring ..its a matter of knowing how to balance this energy...and surrender to it...time does't make it fade nor does a new person..not even a soulmate.. i believe this energy is eternal..and lets not even forget the intimacy sexually..it can curse both partners for life.... i'm blessed i found my TF..i just wish i can share this with him without him freaking out ..and run away even more...

Posted by strawberrykush
Thank you for bumping this. This is one old ass thread that is so important...

She described everything perfectly. Scary how relatable her posts are.

i wonder where she is and how she's doing with her TF now

Posted by Sagittarius2315
I decided to start this thread because there has been talks about Twin Flame connections. From my own experience I know how painful; how crazy and sometimes debilitating this connection can be. Let me say that before I began to experience this I had no knowledge about Twin Flames; or spirituality all together. All I wanted was to know my purpose in life and how to change old habits so I can better me. I was in a place that was dark and I felt extremely lost.
While this happened, my transition, is when I met my Twin flame, and it was online. A day later he reached out to me and it was like catching up with an old friend. Right away we exchanged numbers and before I knew it for a whole week we had been calling each other and face timing none stop. Until; my doubt set in. I began to say to myself this was too good to be true; the emotions were too strong and it was happening fast; I didn't understand it. I was confused and soon began to fear losing the intensity, when I say intensity most think ,physical, sexual, anything that has to do with the exterior.
Yes there was physical attraction; yes there was sexual; but it was deeper then that, I was given the ability to be completely transparent; trusting; honest and loyal. I told him everything about me with in our first conversation.
Most of us when we first talk to someone we put on this facade, this mask, but with him there was no need and he too was completely open and transparent with me.

And then, fear set in; and that energy that a pit out and project on to him made him pull away. I didn't understand it; how could two people feel so intense; be so open and transparent with each other and then all of a sudden, they just pull away. Isn't our ability to know what the other is thinking or feeling their inner emotions before they tell you what's wrong proof enough that we are meant to be?

Most will say; yes, that's the perfect relationship, that open communication, that transparency is what we all want in a relationship. This is true; but when we find it, it's considered to good to be true and we begin to ask questions like "Is this real? Am I good enough? Will they leave me? I'm afraid to get hurt? Am I ready? Why are they with me? What about me do they like? This is crazy? He can do so much better? I'm to broken? I can't do this, this is insane; oh my god I think I love them, wait I've only known them for less then a week. No this is obsession, right?"

Then all this is projected on to them;

It's because the twin flame relationship has its stages.If you're both spiritually evolving then you might handle the phases easier, but still lot of patience and awareness is required when you experience that the ego is coming back again and again.

Posted by Harukka
I always love when sagittarius talk about their feeling, so rare, so beautiful.

Our love run so deep though...

we just mess up things a lot due to the fact that we're scared or afraid.. of what irdk? It's just something about the feeling of freedom.