im drunk....

This topic was created in the Miscellaneous forum by JURR on Thursday, March 31, 2016 and has 18 replies.

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@JURR
10 Years

I wanted to make a post, because I am really drunk.

I am a shit person.

People who are close to me I appreciate for only a short amount of time then I get bored. I am logic about everything yet I have no logic. I want somebody to understand me yet somebody who understands me is wrong. I cannot help but push people I love away... I don't want it... but it happens naturally. Thus is my biggest problem... also I'm so drunk and thank fuck for auto correct

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@JURR
10 Years

When I sober I think the same... I just understand it less.

I can never love somebody.

Its impossible, maybe I have feelings for you but I can't express them and even if I do, eventually I wiI'll get scared and force you go hate me

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11 Years1,000+ PostsAquarius

I can relate to you somehow. Since I was 13/14 yrs old I only had one friend at a time. I have about 5 ex besties because I cut people off really quick. If I feel betrayed or if I get lied to then I cut them off and never look back. Sometimes I think about it and I wonder whats wrong with me, why I don’t have a couple of friends like some people I know. But to be honest I like it that way, I don’t like hanging out with a lot of people and I prefere having only one friend at a time.

I’m notorious for not replying to txts for a couple of days, not because I’m angry or whatever but I’m so busy with my own life and things I wanna do alone. That’s why it’s hard for me to find a friend because I somehow expect them to take care of themselves like I do. I can’t handle someone who constantly needs my attention and wants to meet and call everyday, that’s just not working for me. I had a bestie who begged me to come with her to a party because of a guy who was supposed to be there, I told her that I don’t feel like going there + driving 2h, so I suggested her to go alone or ask another friend.
She cancelled the whole thing and was pissed because I didn’t go with her.

If I really want to see someone or go somewhere then I’ll also go alone if I have to. I don’t get people who’ll get all pissed and angry because they have to go somewhere alone.
I need a friend who takes care of themselves and is as independent as me. Hard to find.

Don’t worry, you are great. Just be yourself and the right people will stick around.

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@JURR
10 Years

Posted by AquaNextDoor
I can relate to you somehow. Since I was 13/14 yrs old I only had one friend at a time. I have about 5 ex besties because I cut people off really quick. If I feel betrayed or if I get lied to then I cut them off and never look back. Sometimes I think about it and I wonder whats wrong with me, why I don’t have a couple of friends like some people I know. But to be honest I like it that way, I don’t like hanging out with a lot of people and I prefere having only one friend at a time.

I’m notorious for not replying to txts for a couple of days, not because I’m angry or whatever but I’m so busy with my own life and things I wanna do alone. That’s why it’s hard for me to find a friend because I somehow expect them to take care of themselves like I do. I can’t handle someone who constantly needs my attention and wants to meet and call everyday, that’s just not working for me. I had a bestie who begged me to come with her to a party because of a guy who was supposed to be there, I told her that I don’t feel like going there + driving 2h, so I suggested her to go alone or ask another friend.
She cancelled the whole thing and was pissed because I didn’t go with her.

If I really want to see someone or go somewhere then I’ll also go alone if I have to. I don’t get people who’ll get all pissed and angry because they have to go somewhere alone.
I need a friend who takes care of themselves and is as independent as me. Hard to find.

Don’t worry, you are great. Just be yourself and the right people will stick around.

😉

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@JURR
10 Years

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Posted by JURR
I wanted to make a post, because I am really drunk.

I am a shit person.

People who are close to me I appreciate for only a short amount of time then I get bored. I am logic about everything yet I have no logic. I want somebody to understand me yet somebody who understands me is wrong. I cannot help but push people I love away... I don't want it... but it happens naturally. Thus is my biggest problem... also I'm so drunk and thank fuck for auto correct

I feel you! and being drunk eases the pain. 😢 why do you feel its wrong for people to understand you?

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People are just always wrong.

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@JURR
10 Years

Posted by 9waterlion9
Posted by JURR
When I sober I think the same... I just understand it less.

I can never love somebody.

Its impossible, maybe I have feelings for you but I can't express them and even if I do, eventually I wiI'll get scared and force you go hate me

Maybe you have borderline personality disorder?

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This is a possibility

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@JURR
10 Years

I think maybe I want to be hated.... because I'm loved so much but I don't want to be loved, I want people to hate me, but people who don't know me I want them yo like me, yet people I know they should hate me