Release An Ambiguous Message

If you're anything like me, you internalize most of what you feel; leaving others in the dark, and robbing yourself of raw experiences...and/or clarity...or closure.

Even if they're not on DXP, feel free to release your ambiguous message here.

My ambiguous message: I loved you, but I could never tell you...out of fear. I'm sure you wondered often, and the truth is...I'd have given anything to be vulnerable with you and give you all of me, but...you never made it feel safe enough to, despite your verbalizations of assurance. I hope you're living your truth and that you learned something from us. May the universe bless you, but this is where I release you.

Posted by Mariposa_

I’ve been too good to you, dove in deeply to the point I wasnt swimming anymore, I was drowning.. all for you. My heart was too weak but all you ever cared about is yourself, your pathetic status, and the illusion of perfection.

Me encanta esto. Tuvo que ser otra latina.

Somewhere you are

With your wings there

That you can't have here

Pretend you can be

The realest you can be

Here and now

Told me I already know

Am not supposed to feel

Know that I can see you somewhere

Know that I am you

The key is no one

Rising into you

Coming down for you

Risk my life for you

In a sky that's leavy

Take my glasses off

Good as he is

See what I can be

Fool me and make me believe

The sky is calling me

Ok, so I started with a sort of letter and it turned into some fucked up lyrics for a song. I am high af though

I'm ashamed I'm smoking weed. I feel and am disappointed in myself, I know it holds me back from walking my journey and my purpose. But yet I'm too weak to not give in, because I have the false idea of that it gives me insight for sober life, (to deal with) real life.

I love how deeply some of you feel. Never lose that; come what may.

Posted by Noaddic

I'm ashamed I'm smoking weed. I feel and am disappointed in myself, I know it holds me back from walking my journey and my purpose. But yet I'm too weak to not give in, because I have the false idea of that it gives me insight for sober life, (to deal with) real life.

"It's my capricorn moon that's irritated about it, like a father can be when he sees his child make the same mistake all the time."

I cared. So, I looked. I found. You lied. That is what upset me, charlatan that has the masses fooled.

I just felt a bit down, and I said 'I love you' to myself and felt a shiver going over my body.

Posted by Gobby

You still owe me over £200, you fucking selfish bastard....

😆

"And there shall in that time be rumours of things going astray, and there will be a great confusion as to where things really are, and nobody will really know where lieth those little things with the sort of raffia work base, that has an attachment…at this time, a friend shall lose his friend’s hammer and the young shall not know where lieth the things possessed by their fathers that their fathers put there only just the night before around eight o’clock..."

Looking back at me I see that

I never really got it right

I never stopped to think of you,

I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win

You are the antidote that gets me by,

Something strong like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say

Is I'm sorry for the way I am

I never meant to be so cold

Never meant to be so Cold to you, I'm sorry about all the lies, Maybe in a different light,

You can see me stand on my own again

Cause now I can see

Dang! I wish I had some pent up stuff to say. I always just blab and say whatever the hell I'm thinking! I don't know how you can hold all this stuff in, especially feelings. Mine burst out like diarrhea when I'm in love.

Actually!

I miss being in love with someone. I like that feeling of actually belonging to another person and feeling secure. I hope it happens again for me. I'm tired of feeling lost without companionship and love.

Posted by Dreamyboy

I like the way you squirm. I like it when they all squirm...

Go get em! 😛

Posted by maiden

Posted by saggurl88

Dang! I wish I had some pent up stuff to say. I always just blab and say whatever the hell I'm thinking! I don't know how you can hold all this stuff in, especially feelings. Mine burst out like diarrhea when I'm in love.

in a way, I think I envy that

there's pros and cons to both lol

click to expand

Ha! There aren't a lot of cons. A person will never NOT know how I'm feeling. They can either take it or leave it! 😆

Posted by maiden

Posted by saggurl88

Posted by maiden

Posted by saggurl88

Dang! I wish I had some pent up stuff to say. I always just blab and say whatever the hell I'm thinking! I don't know how you can hold all this stuff in, especially feelings. Mine burst out like diarrhea when I'm in love.

in a way, I think I envy that

there's pros and cons to both lol

Ha! There aren't a lot of cons. A person will never NOT know how I'm feeling. They can either take it or leave it! 😆

hm.. sometimes I keep what I think or feel inside, to spare the other person. If I know what I have to say is gonna destroy them then saying it is just cruel. I'll either diffuse it on my own time or find the time/place to communicate it sometime down the road

that said I often have to sift through WHY I feel what I feel. you must have a pretty clear path between what you feel and why you feel it.

see what I mean? It's kind of enviable

click to expand

Oh, lol I'm a naturally caring person but I am always delivering truth that can be understood. I will say what i have to say in a nice manner. I won't make the other person uncomfortable with it. usually if I'm cutting someone off it's because of something that they have done to me, so It's completely understandable for the other party.

I make it very clear that it's nothing that I will ever put up with and that i don't want that type of energy/person in my life 🙂 Super easy for me to cut ties lol.

Whats not easy for me is waiting around until they slip up. I put up with a lot, but when I'm done with the person I have to wait u til they mess up again to cut them loose, cause I suck at being the one to end things! 🙂

Posted by maiden

Posted by saggurl88

Posted by maiden

Posted by saggurl88

Posted by maiden

Posted by saggurl88

Dang! I wish I had some pent up stuff to say. I always just blab and say whatever the hell I'm thinking! I don't know how you can hold all this stuff in, especially feelings. Mine burst out like diarrhea when I'm in love.

in a way, I think I envy that

there's pros and cons to both lol

Ha! There aren't a lot of cons. A person will never NOT know how I'm feeling. They can either take it or leave it! 😆

hm.. sometimes I keep what I think or feel inside, to spare the other person. If I know what I have to say is gonna destroy them then saying it is just cruel. I'll either diffuse it on my own time or find the time/place to communicate it sometime down the road

that said I often have to sift through WHY I feel what I feel. you must have a pretty clear path between what you feel and why you feel it.

see what I mean? It's kind of enviable

Oh, lol I'm a naturally caring person but I am always delivering truth that can be understood. I will say what i have to say in a nice manner. I won't make the other person uncomfortable with it. usually if I'm cutting someone off it's because of something that they have done to me, so It's completely understandable for the other party.

I make it very clear that it's nothing that I will ever put up with and that i don't want that type of energy/person in my life 🙂 Super easy for me to cut ties lol.

Whats not easy for me is waiting around until they slip up. I put up with a lot, but when I'm done with the person I have to wait u til they mess up again to cut them loose, cause I suck at being the one to end things! 🙂

Interesting. very different!

Im on par w everything except 2nd, 3rd sentence and your second paragraph there..

I work on delivering what I have to say in a more pleasant way. Sometimes I feel its warranted to come across harshly.

Depends what it is though.

As far as energy/what type of people, I get that too.. everyone invites the kind of people they want in, in. Much as they may complain about it. For me though I recognize that sometimes (for reasons I do not understand until much, much later) I leave otherwise unwanted persons/energy around me. I need the bad stuff, sometimes.

And I have no problem ending things.

What's your mercury?

(Sorry to hijack the thread lol)

click to expand

My mercury is blunt ass Sagittarius 😛

I can actually handle negative energy, but I don't tolerate it when it's used against me. I don't treat people badly so, if I feel mistreated, I will let the person know and if it happens again, I cut ties.

It just makes me feel too disrespected and like they don't take me seriously. I'm not the type that likes game playing, so if someone tries to test me, they will always get their way and win 🙂

Posted by Black-Mamba

The older I get the less I believe in you

That's deep, CC.

Posted by maiden

Posted by LostinmyMind11

Looking back at me I see that

I never really got it right

I never stopped to think of you,

I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win

You are the antidote that gets me by,

Something strong like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say

Is I'm sorry for the way I am

I never meant to be so cold

Never meant to be so Cold to you, I'm sorry about all the lies, Maybe in a different light,

You can see me stand on my own again

Cause now I can see

lol really?

click to expand

I was wondering if someone would catch it 😂

I wish you were here.

I hate you and I love you

🤷🏼‍♀️

Posted by starlord

I hate you and I love you

🤷🏼‍♀️

Thanks! 😘

I'm here for you.

Please we can’t. This is the one. This is the one I won’t recover from.

"generally considered 'smart and witty' quote" - someone more interesting than me.

that should probably go in the comment section: someone in dxpnet

Moleeeeee

Posted by RooSagicorn

Posted by starlord

I hate you and I love you

🤷🏼‍♀️

That’s the same thing in Scorpio language 😂😂

click to expand

😂

All jokes a side. I am a scorpio (mostly).

But regardless of astrology, I know when I hate someone, it is not real love. 'Cause I would never genuinly or dislike a person I loved. Or love a person I hate.

Scorpios, or at least I am more black and white.

I don't want to hate my future love.

Posted by shakedown

Cool thread @Reciprocity8.

Thanks, dear. I think we all have things we want to say, but for one reason or another, don't. All that matters is that we release it. Even if only the walls of DXP receive it.

Emotions and thoughts are what make us human. They're what connect us...and remind us we aren't alone.

Posted by RooSagicorn

Posted by starlord

Posted by RooSagicorn

Posted by starlord

I hate you and I love you

🤷🏼‍♀️

That’s the same thing in Scorpio language 😂😂

😂

All jokes a side. I am a scorpio (mostly).

But regardless of astrology, I know when I hate someone, it is not real love. 'Cause I would never genuinly or dislike a person I loved. Or love a person I hate.

Scorpios, or at least I am more black and white.

I don't want to hate my future love.

Lol my daughter is a Scorpio.. both emotions are strong. It’s the not caring that shows the difference. Anyway she grew up telling everyone she loved that she hated them (except parents cuz she knew better). It’s like hiding how she really feels.. so I call it her Scorpio language 🤷‍♀️ My poor Leo son would be so hurt until he got older and finally figured out the truth. Now we’ve got her number 🤣🤣🙃 she’s the sweetest kid actually

click to expand

Yeah I guess in that age it's cute.

But for me if a person makes me feel hatred towards them, I now after years know and accept, that that is not love. Keep an eye out for her 😘

Posted by Victorious

What is love?

Baby don't hurt me...oh no!