
WaterDevil
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Posted by Fallen2Piscesyou dont really know our history. Been making posts about her since i went on DXP. For context Im a cancer female and she's a pisces female. We Used to be lovers. Than became really good friends. Than friends with benefits. Than I hurt her. We still check up on each other. This isn't some girl Im trying to get to notice me. She notices me. I just dont know why she wouldn't ask if im ok.. im not gonna beg for it, but it hurts considering we have history and a deep relationship none the less.
wow you sound like a weak ass pisces cookiemonster begging for another weak ass pisces cookiemonster to notice you but she prolly noticing some1 else if she not giving you the attention thats needed....man if my cookiemonster was hurt id be like oh butter...but she too bust and dont give af....my tree fitty...pisces will give you the attention unless they are very shy and arent that comfortable with u, if she knows you and knows and sees youre going thru butter, but you dont see her notice you, chances are cookiemonster dont give 2 butters, but thats prolly with all signs, but pisces would see this butter...maybe not


Posted by tizianiIm not testing her or exploiting anything. I havnt reached out to her cause A) Shes on vacation and B) she hasnt hit me back since we last talk so I figure it could wait until she reaches out for Im okay after all. Just sucks that she hasnt reached out to me. Im sad about it. Can you really say it wouldn't make you feel sad?
No point hinting. in fact people beating around the bush just makes me want to deny them even more, weird thing about human nature. Or maybe it's just annoying to have someone exploit their own health as a test.
I wish you a speedy recovery.

Posted by WaterDevilShe's probably waiting for you to tell her straight up that you had a serious accident.Posted by tiziani
No point hinting. in fact people beating around the bush just makes me want to deny them even more, weird thing about human nature. Or maybe it's just annoying to have someone exploit their own health as a test.
I wish you a speedy recovery.
Im not testing her or exploiting anything. I havnt reached out to her cause A) Shes on vacation and B) she hasnt hit me back since we last talk so I figure it could wait until she reaches out for Im okay after all. Just sucks that she hasnt reached out to me. Im sad about it. Can you really say it wouldn't make you feel sad? click to expandclick to expand

Posted by Ram416Lol you try being stuck in bed and not thinking about shit you would usually distract your self from thinking about. I feel you but again, her friends that came over did so to help me and keep me company. These are people I also am friends with but havenāt seen in a while since things got complicated. One of the friends is a friend of mine, the other an aquatinance that wanted to bring me some healing lotion. I donāt drop hints. Iām either up front or I say nothing at all. Thatās just how I roll. All Iām saying is that if her own friends could find out Iām not well from social media than she definitely knows. And Iām not gonna drop hints. I just donāt see the point in reaching out when she just got to Cuba. Or when she was in Miami with family. For what? What can she do for me? Nothing. Absolutely nothing but stroke my ego and make me feel loved. Iām not stupid. Iām just hurt, physically and emotionally. And being that Iām an active person who now is stuck at home all day, the only person in my mind is her. Is that so hard to understand?Posted by WaterDevilPosted by tiziani
No point hinting. in fact people beating around the bush just makes me want to deny them even more, weird thing about human nature. Or maybe it's just annoying to have someone exploit their own health as a test.
I wish you a speedy recovery.
Im not testing her or exploiting anything. I havnt reached out to her cause A) Shes on vacation and B) she hasnt hit me back since we last talk so I figure it could wait until she reaches out for Im okay after all. Just sucks that she hasnt reached out to me. Im sad about it. Can you really say it wouldn't make you feel sad? click to expand
She's probably waiting for you to tell her straight up that you had a serious accident.
Why hint? It will make you seem manipulative even if you're not trying to be.
Granted, you don't want to spoil her vacation by telling her, but dropping hints and hoping her friends pass the message on to her (although that may not be your intention) will just worry her even more.
So either you tell her straight up or don't say anything at all, not even a hint.
That being said, you should be more concerned about your health and wellbeing right now rather than whether or not she reaches out to you. Consider it a bonus if she does, not a necessity. click to expandclick to expand

Posted by stickyAccording to what you wrote you havnt read many updates. I stopped posting here for months about her because things were going so well. Desperation would mean Iām desperperate for something Iv yet to received or havnt in a while. If anything I am desperate for our friendship back. But to say Iām desperate for her makes it sound like we donāt have a relationship. And we surely do. It just got sour. And Iām sad about it. And Iām laying in bed not able to move much or distract my self about it. About her. About how I was one of the most trusted important people in her life and I hurt her. I canāt stop but playing back the things I could have done differently. You saying Iām ādesperateā is like saying itās something a lot more benign. Like she was just some girl from a bar. Thatās just not the case. I donāt need to chase her. Look for an excuse to talk to her. Any of that. I chose to back off because I fucking hurt her. And so Iām waiting patiently to see if she ever reaches out again. So say what you want bro. Iām still here just laying in bed trying not to be a martyr and let the love of my life have fun on vacation without having to worry about me. Whatās so hard to get??
You definitely seem very desperate. You have been going on and on about her for so long and according to what you write, she is always blowing you off. Hopefully you wake up soon

Posted by WaterDevilAnd yet I could've sworn you said this in your OP.Posted by Ram416Posted by WaterDevilPosted by tiziani
No point hinting. in fact people beating around the bush just makes me want to deny them even more, weird thing about human nature. Or maybe it's just annoying to have someone exploit their own health as a test.
I wish you a speedy recovery.
Im not testing her or exploiting anything. I havnt reached out to her cause A) Shes on vacation and B) she hasnt hit me back since we last talk so I figure it could wait until she reaches out for Im okay after all. Just sucks that she hasnt reached out to me. Im sad about it. Can you really say it wouldn't make you feel sad? click to expand
She's probably waiting for you to tell her straight up that you had a serious accident.
Why hint? It will make you seem manipulative even if you're not trying to be.
Granted, you don't want to spoil her vacation by telling her, but dropping hints and hoping her friends pass the message on to her (although that may not be your intention) will just worry her even more.
So either you tell her straight up or don't say anything at all, not even a hint.
That being said, you should be more concerned about your health and wellbeing right now rather than whether or not she reaches out to you. Consider it a bonus if she does, not a necessity. click to expand
Lol you try being stuck in bed and not thinking about shit you would usually distract your self from thinking about. I feel you but again, her friends that came over did so to help me and keep me company. These are people I also am friends with but havenāt seen in a while since things got complicated. One of the friends is a friend of mine, the other an aquatinance that wanted to bring me some healing lotion. I donāt drop hints. Iām either up front or I say nothing at all. Thatās just how I roll. All Iām saying is that if her own friends could find out Iām not well from social media than she definitely knows. And Iām not gonna drop hints. I just donāt see the point in reaching out when she just got to Cuba. Or when she was in Miami with family. For what? What can she do for me? Nothing. Absolutely nothing but stroke my ego and make me feel loved. Iām not stupid. Iām just hurt, physically and emotionally. And being that Iām an active person who now is stuck at home all day, the only person in my mind is her. Is that so hard to understand? click to expand
Posted by WaterDevilRight now all I can see is you don't even know what you're saying.
I subtly made little posts about my injury on social media. 2 of her best friends even came to visit me. ....Some of my own friends too, bringing me edibles and flower and hanging out. Yet the pisces hasn't even hit me up to ask if I'm okay.click to expand

Posted by Ram416Yes I said āsubtle postsā but they werenāt so SHED see I was injured. More of like joking and saying āhey world I dun fell and broke my backā. But people who really know me know Iām not a social media Martyr and that I wouldnāt make posts like that if they were fake or fabricated. But I wasnāt ādropping her hintsā. I was just posting but not making the biggest deal about it cause I donāt like to brzing people down on such platforms.Posted by WaterDevilPosted by Ram416Posted by WaterDevilPosted by tiziani
No point hinting. in fact people beating around the bush just makes me want to deny them even more, weird thing about human nature. Or maybe it's just annoying to have someone exploit their own health as a test.
I wish you a speedy recovery.
Im not testing her or exploiting anything. I havnt reached out to her cause A) Shes on vacation and B) she hasnt hit me back since we last talk so I figure it could wait until she reaches out for Im okay after all. Just sucks that she hasnt reached out to me. Im sad about it. Can you really say it wouldn't make you feel sad? click to expand
She's probably waiting for you to tell her straight up that you had a serious accident.
Why hint? It will make you seem manipulative even if you're not trying to be.
Granted, you don't want to spoil her vacation by telling her, but dropping hints and hoping her friends pass the message on to her (although that may not be your intention) will just worry her even more.
So either you tell her straight up or don't say anything at all, not even a hint.
That being said, you should be more concerned about your health and wellbeing right now rather than whether or not she reaches out to you. Consider it a bonus if she does, not a necessity. click to expand
Lol you try being stuck in bed and not thinking about butter you would usually distract your self from thinking about. I feel you but again, her friends that came over did so to help me and keep me company. These are people I also am friends with but havenāt seen in a while since things got complicated. One of the friends is a friend of mine, the other an aquatinance that wanted to bring me some healing lotion. I donāt drop hints. Iām either up front or I say nothing at all. Thatās just how I roll. All Iām saying is that if her own friends could find out Iām not well from social media than she definitely knows. And Iām not gonna drop hints. I just donāt see the point in reaching out when she just got to Cuba. Or when she was in Miami with family. For what? What can she do for me? Nothing. Absolutely nothing but stroke my ego and make me feel loved. Iām not stupid. Iām just hurt, physically and emotionally. And being that Iām an active person who now is stuck at home all day, the only person in my mind is her. Is that so hard to understand? click to expand
And yet I could've sworn you said this in your OP.
Posted by WaterDevil
I subtly made little posts about my injury on social media. 2 of her best friends even came to visit me. ....Some of my own friends too, bringing me edibles and flower and hanging out. Yet the pisces hasn't even hit me up to ask if I'm okay.
Right now all I can see is you don't even know what you're saying.
Yes, yes, yes we all get it, you're sad cos Pisces is not there to stroke your ego while you struggle to recover from your injuries.
So what exactly is it that you want from her?
You say you don't drop hints, but you left subtle posts about your injury all over social media, you kept track of her to see if she was active online or not.
You keep saying she can't do anything for you since she's so far away and travelling with family. Yet you continue to whinge about how she hasn't contacted you to ask if you're OK. click to expandclick to expand

Posted by GC05Iām at home now not the hospital. And sheās on vacation far far away. Couldnāt even do message her if I wanted. Sheās in Cuba now.
Why donāt you just be straight up with her?
Tell her you got injured, your in the hospital & that youād like to see her because sheās the only one that can make your day. š
Sheās a Pisces!! She will be there!!

Posted by Gemi13When youāre right youāre right. We did have a roller coaster of ups and downs. At least on my end. I know I was important/am. Just never in the way she was to me. But Iām definitely understanding more now since I hurt her in what place she put me. Iāll never climb out of who she thinks I am now. Oh no choice but to move on. I miss our friendship. But youāre right. If she wanted to fight for it she would.
I've followed and read your history with this Pisces girl. I think you should try to get over this girl. She doesn't feel the same way you do at all and you seem to be taking anything you can get and making it into something more than it is because of the way you feel about her. I have cancer venus and mars so I understand how we can intensify a situation/feeling where there really isn't one because of how we feel and how we WANT the other person to feel as well. When a pisces wants you and is interested in you and even just as a friendship, believe me they will be there even when they have something else going on in their lives.

Posted by tizianii dont remember the previous health posts but iv honestly never been concerned about her being concerened for my health. I was concerned in the past that she would see me throwing up when i was fucked up. But that was the opposite concern because i didnt want the attention for that specifically since it was right after she wanted a break from me in january. And another time when I came back from london, but she actually came and took care of me, I was never worried. Im just sad that this time I don't have her. And its making me regret a lot. The only thing I can do for my health right now is stay in bed, take an occasional stroll around the block and go to physical therapy. Other than that I am just sitting here thinking all the time. Otherwise I wouldnt even be on DXP. But Im using it as an outlet. Iv never had such an injury before, and I hate being martyr but because of that I cant talk to any of my friends about what Im going through, because I dont want to push them away so I pretend to be happy. But this is so fucking hard, people have it worse, but its hard to stay out of my head. Im just saying, Im not here and never was here pining for her. I actually wrote off DXP for a while because it was messing with my decision making. I lost a good thing, and I have to deal with that. And Ill own my mistakes and shortcomings. But not something im not guilty of. Only thing maybe is that im feeling sorry for my self. But other than on here I always have and am keeping that to my self. I dont put that on others. I just hope they come through and let me self get down about it. But Iv been working on my self so much. I have. This just came at a very bad time for me. I had the gym.Was making new music. Was preparing for surfing season. And now im bed ridden most of my day. I appreciate the positivity in telling me to focus on my health and self care. And I have, and chosen not to go about the pain pill rout after last week. And doing everything the dr. told me. But Im alone as fuck. And thats when I think of where I went wrong yo. Its an out let. Im not asking anyone to give me advice anymore on how to get her back. Im just venting at this point for real. Knowing what I did to her fucked me up pretty bad this new year. Im just trying my best here to let my self feel my feelings about her for once. anyway you might have not read all of this but I had to say my piece with that.
"That being said, you should be more concerned about your health and wellbeing right now"
^Most of all this.
Posted by WaterDevilI find that things with a Pisces can change fast. If they don't see you in a certain "light" you'll fall to the back burner. I know when my Pisces and I were at our best I have her utmost concern and priority and it felt amazing. Things happened between us and that changed and I was no longer her #1 and it hurt like hell but I learn't to deal with it. She wasn't as attentive and as caring. If something happened she wasn't the first one at my aid etc things like that. There is absolutely NOTHING you can do. Like true fish, they come and go as they please. You simply can't hold onto them. It took me a long time to realise that but I finally did and some days I still find it hard. Being a venus and mars in cancer and with a libra moon I just wanted to hold on super tight the more I felt her escaping my grasp. Honestly move on. You're finding every and any excuse in the book to try and hold onto whatever is left (which doesn't sound like much). I know with my Pisces she has a fiery chart and when I'd let her be and act like I was unbothered by her, she would come back being like hello! it's me! why aren't you all over me!?!?!. She also thought it was hot and sexy when I had my own things going on and my own life. Stop trying to manipulate the situation. You're attention seeking and it's not pretty. Trust me when I say start to move on. It hurts and it's hard and it sucks but it needs to be done.Posted by Gemi13
I've followed and read your history with this Pisces girl. I think you should try to get over this girl. She doesn't feel the same way you do at all and you seem to be taking anything you can get and making it into something more than it is because of the way you feel about her. I have cancer venus and mars so I understand how we can intensify a situation/feeling where there really isn't one because of how we feel and how we WANT the other person to feel as well. When a pisces wants you and is interested in you and even just as a friendship, believe me they will be there even when they have something else going on in their lives.
When youāre right youāre right. We did have a roller coaster of ups and downs. At least on my end. I know I was important/am. Just never in the way she was to me. But Iām definitely understanding more now since I hurt her in what place she put me. Iāll never climb out of who she thinks I am now. Oh no choice but to move on. I miss our friendship. But youāre right. If she wanted to fight for it she would. click to expandclick to expand

Posted by Gemi13I appreciate the thought in what you wrote. But wanting attention and seeking it are two different things. I cant put things in to one post on here but Iv stopped reaching out months ago. We had talked a few times. But I let her be since december. Thats why she came back to me. But in her mind now Im a friend, but not that number 1 person I used to be. I post on DXP to vent. If I wanted attention from her I wouldnt need to try hard. I just gave up. And Im sad in my bed because I injured muh damn back. And as far as doing my own thing. I am still a recording artist. With a lot going on, a lot of friends and a rich and entertaining life with a ton of excitement and adventure. And its apparent to anyone who knows me her self included. If I wasnt stuck at home 20 hours a day Id be filled with distractions. But its hard because my life is revolved around going out. It only seems like Im attention seeking because how much I expose of the situation on here. But IRL and my social media accounts and interpersonal relationships no one really knows whats ever going on with me unless I want them to. And I keep my dirty laundry air tight. I dont need attention from her. I miss attention from her and Im whining about it here because I dont have distractions and Im thinking about it. A LOT. Id own up to many things, but what I am NOT is attention seeking. It goes against my moral compass. So much so that when I explain to even my best friends whatIm going through internally they are shocked. Im trying to move on. And I have in all physical aspects of my life as far as her, but shes still in the mental part and thats what Im working on.Posted by WaterDevilPosted by Gemi13
I've followed and read your history with this Pisces girl. I think you should try to get over this girl. She doesn't feel the same way you do at all and you seem to be taking anything you can get and making it into something more than it is because of the way you feel about her. I have cancer venus and mars so I understand how we can intensify a situation/feeling where there really isn't one because of how we feel and how we WANT the other person to feel as well. When a pisces wants you and is interested in you and even just as a friendship, believe me they will be there even when they have something else going on in their lives.
When youāre right youāre right. We did have a roller coaster of ups and downs. At least on my end. I know I was important/am. Just never in the way she was to me. But Iām definitely understanding more now since I hurt her in what place she put me. Iāll never climb out of who she thinks I am now. Oh no choice but to move on. I miss our friendship. But youāre right. If she wanted to fight for it she would. click to expand
I find that things with a Pisces can change fast. If they don't see you in a certain "light" you'll fall to the back burner. I know when my Pisces and I were at our best I have her utmost concern and priority and it felt amazing. Things happened between us and that changed and I was no longer her #1 and it hurt like hell but I learn't to deal with it. She wasn't as attentive and as caring. If something happened she wasn't the first one at my aid etc things like that. There is absolutely NOTHING you can do. Like true fish, they come and go as they please. You simply can't hold onto them. It took me a long time to realise that but I finally did and some days I still find it hard. Being a venus and mars in cancer and with a libra moon I just wanted to hold on super tight the more I felt her escaping my grasp. Honestly move on. You're finding every and any excuse in the book to try and hold onto whatever is left (which doesn't sound like much). I know with my Pisces she has a fiery chart and when I'd let her be and act like I was unbothered by her, she would come back being like hello! it's me! why aren't you all over me!?!?!. She also thought it was hot and sexy when I had my own things going on and my own life. Stop trying to manipulate the situation. You're attention seeking and it's not pretty. Trust me when I say start to move on. It hurts and it's hard and it sucks but it needs to be done. click to expandclick to expand

Posted by Gemi13Posted by WaterDevilPosted by Gemi13
I've followed and read your history with this Pisces girl. I think you should try to get over this girl. She doesn't feel the same way you do at all and you seem to be taking anything you can get and making it into something more than it is because of the way you feel about her. I have cancer venus and mars so I understand how we can intensify a situation/feeling where there really isn't one because of how we feel and how we WANT the other person to feel as well. When a pisces wants you and is interested in you and even just as a friendship, believe me they will be there even when they have something else going on in their lives.
When youāre right youāre right. We did have a roller coaster of ups and downs. At least on my end. I know I was important/am. Just never in the way she was to me. But Iām definitely understanding more now since I hurt her in what place she put me. Iāll never climb out of who she thinks I am now. Oh no choice but to move on. I miss our friendship. But youāre right. If she wanted to fight for it she would. click to expand
I find that things with a Pisces can change fast. If they don't see you in a certain "light" you'll fall to the back burner. I know when my Pisces and I were at our best I have her utmost concern and priority and it felt amazing. Things happened between us and that changed and I was no longer her #1 and it hurt like hell but I learn't to deal with it. She wasn't as attentive and as caring. If something happened she wasn't the first one at my aid etc things like that. There is absolutely NOTHING you can do. Like true fish, they come and go as they please. You simply can't hold onto them. It took me a long time to realise that but I finally did and some days I still find it hard. Being a venus and mars in cancer and with a libra moon I just wanted to hold on super tight the more I felt her escaping my grasp. Honestly move on. You're finding every and any excuse in the book to try and hold onto whatever is left (which doesn't sound like much). I know with my Pisces she has a fiery chart and when I'd let her be and act like I was unbothered by her, she would come back being like hello! it's me! why aren't you all over me!?!?!. She also thought it was hot and sexy when I had my own things going on and my own life. Stop trying to manipulate the situation. You're attention seeking and it's not pretty. Trust me when I say start to move on. It hurts and it's hard and it sucks but it needs to be done. click to expandclick to expand
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The pisces is in Miami rn for a few days before her trip spending time with her family. So she's stil active online and with her phone in general. I subtly made little posts about my injury on social media. 2 of her best friends even came to visit me. One of which is her pseudo romantic friend she sometimes sleeps with whos a holistic goddess. She made me thc body lotion from scratch two days ago and brought it over to me with some cdb oil. The other is her platonic friend who came over and made me cupcakes. it feels really nice to have had a few people stop by already and be there for me and make me smile. Some of my own friends too, bringing me edibles and flower and hanging out. Yet the pisces hasn't even hit me up to ask if I'm okay. Granted I never told her I'm injured but how could she not know? Yes there is that plausible deniability, but I feel like I read right through that with her at this point. Im just sad. would be nice just to see her reach out. Im okay, im not here crying, just eye opening. Shes not the first person since the accident to not reach out. However shes one of the only people that would make my day to hear from š¢.