If you knew what you know now, you would..........

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Would not have started smoking.
Why did u start ,peer pressure maybe?
Not really peer pressure. I was more curious about what smoking was like.
Eish! And now you can't live without it?
Lol, where did you learn the word 'eish'? Are you also South African?

Something like that - I have tried to quit over the years but it's really not easy. Think I might get an E-cigarette and see how that goes.
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Ja try e-cigarette , but I heard it is also addictive.
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Would not have started smoking.
it's pisces thing to be shy, unless if you smoke marijuana*hides*
I have tried weed, but I stopped that a few years ago.

I tried to reply to your PM, but the message wouldn't go through.
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atleast you managed to stop smoking weed.I like weed myself but only when I get drunk , then I add the highness. makes the world spin in slowmotion.

PM: it's cool as long as you got the message.
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If I knew then what I know now I would have killed myself as a kid.
This was sort of where i was going to go with this as well. Nice to see i'm not the only one here full of doom and gloom. I'd prevent my birth. I'd actually like to prevent humans from ever plaguing the earth, but that's sort of unfair to all the people who walk around with rose colored glasses and enjoy life on earth despite the declining state of our environment and wildlife.. So I'll choose to just remove myself from the equation.
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This is really sad, I hope you find happiness one day! I use to feel like that as a kid , but as I grew older I find life to be more meaningful , hardships will always come ,but happiness is right next to u.
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If I knew then what I know now I would have killed myself as a kid.
This was sort of where i was going to go with this as well. Nice to see i'm not the only one here full of doom and gloom. I'd prevent my birth. I'd actually like to prevent humans from ever plaguing the earth, but that's sort of unfair to all the people who walk around with rose colored glasses and enjoy life on earth despite the declining state of our environment and wildlife.. So I'll choose to just remove myself from the equation.
This is really sad, I hope you find happiness one day! I use to feel like that as a kid , but as I grew older I find life to be more meaningful , hardships will always come ,but happiness is right next to u.
I was happy as a child.. It gets worse the older I get.. only growing colder it seems. I don't seem to find much meaning anymore, My dog is what gets me through each day.

Thank you for the kind words.. You were right in saying that happiness is right next to me. My boy 🐶 is always by my side and he brings me more happiness than anything in this world ever could.
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We thank your dog for keeping you alive and happy and giving reason to carry on. What's its name?
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If I knew then what I know now I would have killed myself as a kid.
This was sort of where i was going to go with this as well. Nice to see i'm not the only one here full of doom and gloom. I'd prevent my birth. I'd actually like to prevent humans from ever plaguing the earth, but that's sort of unfair to all the people who walk around with rose colored glasses and enjoy life on earth despite the declining state of our environment and wildlife.. So I'll choose to just remove myself from the equation.
This is really sad, I hope you find happiness one day! I use to feel like that as a kid , but as I grew older I find life to be more meaningful , hardships will always come ,but happiness is right next to u.
To be 100 % honest, I feel like I don´t really deserve to be here on earth. I am too ungratefull for my life, and I haven´t felt really happy in years now.
I used to feel lonely as a kid too, I remember making up my own little song about walking alone on a path full of curves (hello deep little 9 year old girl 😄), but I didn´t have the responsibilities I have now, and I didn´t have the preassure of finding a mate or someone to love me. I feel like it is embarrasing for me, that I can´t find anyone who loves me. And let´s not pretend: other people think it strange too, and it will only get worse as I am older. If it was by choice I was alone, it would be a completely different thing.
And the ideas and dreams I had for myself as a kid - none of it has become reality, and it never will. I just don´t feel the joy for life, that other people who are much much much worse off than me, does, and I truly don´t understand, why I had to be created, when I c.
Anhere.

Sorry to be a Debbie downer.
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HANG in there! There are poeple out there who are worse as U mentioned. And it's really sad that you have parents and a sibling which u don't find happiness with their existance in your life and I won't judge you for that cause I'm not in your shoes.

I understand The pressure of finding someone to love can really be unberable in our society, people set standards and age limits to have found a mate. But they forget that only God can send a mate at his own sweet time.

Just tell yourself that you rather be single than have a sham relationship status with a wrong person. Imagine if you had a mate who abused you,or disrespected your sibling . Imagine if you were with someone who did not value u as much as you deserve.

And you will be sho
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I would avoid drugs.

I would avoid a certain guy and a certain social group.

I would not restrict calories to the point of causing myself digestion and water retention problems.

I would never shave, only wax and get laser hair removal as soon as I started.

I would have come out the closet a lot sooner and never would have attempted to sleep with women... Yikes.
I hope its not too late for you! Are you out of the closet now?
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If I knew then what I know now I would have killed myself as a kid.
This was sort of where i was going to go with this as well. Nice to see i'm not the only one here full of doom and gloom. I'd prevent my birth. I'd actually like to prevent humans from ever plaguing the earth, but that's sort of unfair to all the people who walk around with rose colored glasses and enjoy life on earth despite the declining state of our environment and wildlife.. So I'll choose to just remove myself from the equation.
This is really sad, I hope you find happiness one day! I use to feel like that as a kid , but as I grew older I find life to be more meaningful , hardships will always come ,but happiness is right next to u.
I was happy as a child.. It gets worse the older I get.. only growing colder it seems. I don't seem to find much meaning anymore, My dog is what gets me through each day.

Thank you for the kind words.. You were right in saying that happiness is right next to me. My boy 🐶 is always by my side and he brings me more happiness than anything in this world ever could.
We thank your dog for keeping you alive and happy and giving reason to carry on. What's its name?
His name is Bud 🙂 It's suiting for him.
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Coo name!
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Posted by thinktoomuch
If I knew then what I know now I would have killed myself as a kid.
This was sort of where i was going to go with this as well. Nice to see i'm not the only one here full of doom and gloom. I'd prevent my birth. I'd actually like to prevent humans from ever plaguing the earth, but that's sort of unfair to all the people who walk around with rose colored glasses and enjoy life on earth despite the declining state of our environment and wildlife.. So I'll choose to just remove myself from the equation.
This is really sad, I hope you find happiness one day! I use to feel like that as a kid , but as I grew older I find life to be more meaningful , hardships will always come ,but happiness is right next to u.
I was happy as a child.. It gets worse the older I get.. only growing colder it seems. I don't seem to find much meaning anymore, My dog is what gets me through each day.

Thank you for the kind words.. You were right in saying that happiness is right next to me. My boy 🐶 is always by my side and he brings me more happiness than anything in this world ever could.
We thank your dog for keeping you alive and happy and giving reason to carry on. What's its name?
His name is Bud 🙂 It's suiting for him.
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Coo name!
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@Thinktoomuch you will be shocked at how many people are crushing on you , they just don't have the guts to approach you yet. Maybe if you can practice some of the things @black has mentioned , those people secretly loving you will approach you at the right time.

Self-love is everything!
But crushing is not love 🙂

Really without being rude: I have both heard and thought it all before, but it doesn´t change anything. I just wanted to give my "what would you do, if you knew then, what you know now" 🙂
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Okay