Just sitting here wondering why I am so pathetic.

Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

I think it's daddy issues.

long term : super girl

short term: human

Posted by Deedee86
Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

Aaahhhh you poor thing......don't wait around for crumbs...go out and enjoy yourself...treat yourself to something nice...choc, flowers, massage, go dancing or to the theatre or cinema or a weekend away...have fun!

I played that game when i was younger....now i don't *wait* for anyone to give anything to me...i give it to myself and i give it good lol 😛

*hugs*

x

Posted by Secret
I think it's daddy issues.

Most likely.

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Posted by Areyoumytwinflame
Speaking of daddy issues...does anyone really make it through life without their parents passing on some issues? I think not.

One more reason not to have kids lol

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My sister read this poem to our Mum and she took offense! How could you, it's hilarious! 😛

*This Be The Verse*

By Philip Larkin



They fuck you up, your mum and dad.

They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had

And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn

By fools in old- style hats and coats,

Who half the time were soppy-stern

And half at one another’s throats.

Man hands on misery to man.

It deepens like a coastal shelf.

Get out as early as you can,

And don’t have any kids yourself.

I'm a grown up now but I still have a dislike for my father. Just a drunk that used to beat my mother. She used to sleep in my room and we would push the dresser against the door so he couldn't get in. I spent my childhood listening to him banging on my bedroom door all night or watching him passed out in the bathroom.

When they got divorced I remained very close with his side of the family. They used to try and force me to kiss him goodbye but when I would walk over he would say "no, that's ok".

Spent my adult life bailing him out of trouble. Last few years I just washed my hands of him.

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Posted by Secret
I think it's daddy issues.

Most likely.

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@Capri-Sun also has daddy issues but she is changing now and is in love with a Scorpio.

It's not your fault.

Sorry guys.

I'm just all watery and feeling sorry for myself. Usually I just get mad and forget that person ever existed. I just can't seem to get to that point yet.

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Posted by Deedee86
Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

Please do not give others the power to control your happiness. Do not sit around and wait for him to call. Go and workout, take a shower and put some make up on. Keep yourself busy and talk to loved one's. Do things that make you happy.

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I know. That's the advice that I would give to anyone else. I'm gonna shake it off today. Work for a few hours and meet some friends at the casino.

Posted by Areyoumytwinflame
Speaking of daddy issues...does anyone really make it through life without their parents passing on some issues? I think not.

Originally this theme was suggested by psychologists and would cover 90% of women.

They said cause fathers were busy with work (often outside the home) to bring bread for everybody, the daughter could not experience him and his love. The son could take him as a role model and had a simpler life. Also he was emotionally supported as much as possible by the mother. she was all the time at home and cared for him.

well, I could be phony or dement. correct me if necessary.

On the plus side I'm having a great hair day and my skin looks fabulous. Those new supplements left me absolutely glowing.

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Posted by Deedee86
Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

Aaahhhh you poor thing......don't wait around for crumbs...go out and enjoy yourself...treat yourself to something nice...choc, flowers, massage, go dancing or to the theatre or cinema or a weekend away...have fun!

I played that game when i was younger....now i don't *wait* for anyone to give anything to me...i give it to myself and i give it good lol 😛

*hugs*

x

So in other words, you lay in bed in the dark, and rub-off? Great life.

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cause life is beautiful in all its variations.

why else would they sing, "tell me lies, tell me sweet sweet lies"?

Posted by feby
Speaking of plus sides, youre a smart woman with a great financial skillset. 🙂

Thanks.

I'm too good for him anyways.

He's broke, no job and too weak to face me like a man.

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Posted by Deedee86
Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

Is this the depressed ex?

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Yes

I was feeling sorry for him but this morning I was feeling sorry for myself.

Now I'm just mad.

So he sends me a 2 sentence "Happy Valentine's Day" messages after not hearing from him in a month.

First thing this morning I would have been thrilled but I've had the entire day to stew. I replied "you haven't said a fucking word to me in an entire month and you think 2 sentences is enough? That's not going to cut it. Try harder. Start thinking about someone besides yourself for once. You have put me through for hell for an entire year now and I would have walked to the ends of the earth for you. I deserve so much better. "

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Posted by Areyoumytwinflame
Speaking of daddy issues...does anyone really make it through life without their parents passing on some issues? I think not.

One more reason not to have kids lol

My sister read this poem to our Mum and she took offense! How could you, it's hilarious! 😛

*This Be The Verse*

By Philip Larkin



They fuck you up, your mum and dad.

They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had

And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn

By fools in old- style hats and coats,

Who half the time were soppy-stern

And half at one another’s throats.

Man hands on misery to man.

It deepens like a coastal shelf.

Get out as early as you can,

And don’t have any kids yourself.

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I'm saving that. 😄



♡

Ok, we all have several layers, there isnt just reason. We have many layers in fact, many subtle emotional, subconscious layers. When you connect with someone, you change frequency, there are conscious and subconscious connections that form, and to have these severed, out of nowhere, is extremely painful, it's like having to wake up when you're exhausted. Only there's no alarm clock or cold water to help you. We have a sterile society, where there's nothing to help you connect to the deeper parts of yourself, where you can work things out. So you stay stuck with this attachment. Us guys we can somehow move on easily, but our attachment is still there. It's because women give birth, and raise the children, so it's like, with every woman we meet, she's in some way, subconsciously, "our mommy", we can fvk with her as much as we want cause we know how much she loves us. It's like a mind game, we know you care. Must be insanely difficult for women everywhere.

Posted by Deedee86
Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

I promise you, we have all behaved in such a way one way or another, one time or another, where we have disgusted ourselves. Whether it was eating a lollipop off the ground or pretending to laugh at a joke we didn't find funny or waiting on Someone to text us back. We all have issues - they are not daddy issues or low-esteem issues - they are HUMAN issues. Anyone who tells you they haven't/aren't where you are now is a f u cking liar or hasn't lived.

Come here you and your gross self *hugs*

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Posted by Deedee86
Seriously. Is it low self esteem? Daddy issues? What the hell is wrong with me?

It's been an entire year since we even kissed. Now I am happy with the few crumbs that are thrown at me here and there. I use the excuse that he is sick.....blah blah blah. It's just that, an excuse.

So it's Valentine's Day and I'm sitting here with butterflies in my stomach because I'm wondering if he will contact me. I know that I will be absolutely devastated if he doesn't. Pathetic! I'm disgusted with myself. I know better.

I promise you, we have all behaved in such a way one way or another, one time or another, where we have disgusted ourselves. Whether it was eating a lollipop off the ground or pretending to laugh at a joke we didn't find funny or waiting on Someone to text us back. We all have issues - they are not daddy issues or low-esteem issues - they are HUMAN issues. Anyone who tells you they haven't/aren't where you are now is a f u cking liar or hasn't lived.

Come here you and your gross self *hugs*

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So we all have issues? That's your word of encouragement?

Posted by Deedee86
So he sends me a 2 sentence "Happy Valentine's Day" messages after not hearing from him in a month.

First thing this morning I would have been thrilled but I've had the entire day to stew. I replied "you haven't said a fucking word to me in an entire month and you think 2 sentences is enough? That's not going to cut it. Try harder. Start thinking about someone besides yourself for once. You have put me through for hell for an entire year now and I would have walked to the ends of the earth for you. I deserve so much better. "

strange person.

he himself has lots of issues.

IDK if bricklemark is completely right. Whether men assume we would love them anyway and they can get away with everything. Or is it only some men take "I'm a human afterall" as life slogan. For sure not everybody has learned at their pranets' home how to be a good partner. Or is it the Venus sign? IDK.

It seems we carry each other's burdon through life. I'm too weak and also egoistic to carry their burdon all the seconds and minutes of my life. Love is good. But taking a pause from loving others to love myself is so refreshing. I love it.

Posted by Areyoumytwinflame
Speaking of daddy issues...does anyone really make it through life without their parents passing on some issues? I think not.

no!

@deedee86, please be kind to yourself. *hugs*

Posted by Areyoumytwinflame
Speaking of daddy issues...does anyone really make it through life without their parents passing on some issues? I think not.

Learn to let go. I've found that forgiving either them or myself (more so myself) does wonders!