Scorpi2017
@Scorpi2017
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Im in deep depression i cant enjoy life anymore
Get a job that requires talking to random people.
Do some charity work for the less fortunate.
Treat yourself to a you day, do whatever makes you feel awesome. Mani pedi, massage, bath whatever.
Get laid.
Exercise.
Collect everything you no longer need and throw it out.
Get a hair cut, try a new style . Undercut, maybe some color, anything just different and not your normal.
Just change up your routine a little more, be a little angrier, let it out a little more. Depression is about wallowing, being sedentary and losing motivation. Exercise will pump better chemicals into the brain, so will sex. Being forced to be social will give you a sense of obligation and help stimulate your brain. Everything else is life style , change your life style , be dramatic for yourself, be your own dynamic force in life.
Do some charity work for the less fortunate.
Treat yourself to a you day, do whatever makes you feel awesome. Mani pedi, massage, bath whatever.
Get laid.
Exercise.
Collect everything you no longer need and throw it out.
Get a hair cut, try a new style . Undercut, maybe some color, anything just different and not your normal.
Just change up your routine a little more, be a little angrier, let it out a little more. Depression is about wallowing, being sedentary and losing motivation. Exercise will pump better chemicals into the brain, so will sex. Being forced to be social will give you a sense of obligation and help stimulate your brain. Everything else is life style , change your life style , be dramatic for yourself, be your own dynamic force in life.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
Are you a male or female?
Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Posted by BrosmosisYou suggesting pills that 'can increase suicidal thoughts'?
sounds like you have legitimate depression which is caused by a chemical imbalance in the in the brain.
see a doctor for professional advice.
That's all doctors do.
It's the easy way. That's why it's a wrong way!
Unless person is really mentally sick and there is no reasoning with them - get a pill!
While person can express themselves and post in a forum about it - there is another way. Individual for every one. And OP will find it. ?
Posted by Scorpi2017What happened before you started feeling this way?
While im writing now im crying .. im in deep depression .. i really feel like im not living the life the way people do and that im dying day after day , i find myself alone noweven when im surrounded with people.
all what i want is Happiness!
and to love myself like i used to do in a long time ago..
I want to do many things but i feel im trapped inside .. and lost.
I want to meet new people ..to have good friends, and to start over again.
I want any advice that may change me..
to the best.. and to love life again.
Even now im preparing master in biology but i seems cant focus anymore.
any help i would be grateful.
Posted by BrosmosisBro my ass!Posted by GemitatiBro, dis post made absolutely no sense. like at all.Posted by BrosmosisYou suggesting pills that 'can increase suicidal thoughts'?
sounds like you have legitimate depression which is caused by a chemical imbalance in the in the brain.
see a doctor for professional advice.
That's all doctors do.
It's the easy way. That's why it's a wrong way!
Unless person is really mentally sick and there is no reasoning with them - get a pill!
While person can express themselves and post in a forum about it - there is another way. Individual for every one. And OP will find it. ?
different pills will have different side effects, which is why I suggested they see a doctor for PROFESSIONAL advice. They're only going to get more depressed if they keep posting here.click to expand
Apparently you know nothing about the subject.
Professional help means they can prescribe crap and you can't. Because they have a diploma and you don't.
But all of these pills alter personality.
OP needs to look deep into past and figure out what had happened.
It's a first step.
I used to have this.
Make sure your in an environment that will foster you happiness.
Remove yourself from external things that could be contributing to your depression.
Make sure you are adequately hydrated. ( dehydration causes depression)
Exercise. Do thing you love. Take care of yourself.
Watch things that will make you laugh.
etc...
go seek counseling...a therapist will help you possibly find out the root of your depression.
Make sure your in an environment that will foster you happiness.
Remove yourself from external things that could be contributing to your depression.
Make sure you are adequately hydrated. ( dehydration causes depression)
Exercise. Do thing you love. Take care of yourself.
Watch things that will make you laugh.
etc...
go seek counseling...a therapist will help you possibly find out the root of your depression.
@m200991
Wow! Awesome. Thanks.
Wow! Awesome. Thanks.
Exercising does wonders .. not sure if u already exercise .. if u do, revenge body! Just trying to make u laugh ?
Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.click to expand
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
Posted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.click to expand
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
Take the focus off of yourself and help others
It works
It works
Posted by GemitatiSee??This exactly is what I'm talking about. You guys don't want help. I know..I can feel it... I've known this for a while now.All I have to do is be there. But how can I be there, just listen to all of it n not feel bad about not being able to help?Posted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?click to expand
You're right. She doesn't wanna get out as well. I'm her outlet. I tried showing some tough love. That doesn't work either. Nothing works for you guys n that makes me feel like an awful friend. I really think she need some professional help. She doesn't wanna go there either.
N waiting for closure is no good Gemi, trust me. I know you're waiting for that one mistake he might make..which he never might. That's one thing I probably waited for too when I was at your place..the thing my friend has been waiting for years..It may not happen at all. I don't want you to wait for that..nor do I want you to get out of it coz that's what you want.
I'm really glad he had some good influence on you though. That's really good that you gave up smoking n you got into shape. Lol! Everything has a brighter side I guess.
Just stay happy Gemi ❤️ You don't deserve all the pain.
Seek professional help a trusted Gp or counsellor a teacher or tell a friend or family member how you are feeling right now.
It's a long road, it's a dark and lonely road, there IS ABSOLUTELY a time when this will be put behind you.
Until that time my dear, stay strong ~*~
It's a long road, it's a dark and lonely road, there IS ABSOLUTELY a time when this will be put behind you.
Until that time my dear, stay strong ~*~
it's okay to be depressed,
i love you beautiful
may it change and when it does all the things that needed to be resolved by it be gone forver
amen
🙂
i love you beautiful
may it change and when it does all the things that needed to be resolved by it be gone forver
amen
🙂
Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?click to expand
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
Posted by Confused_Yes, it is very okay
it's okay to be depressed,
i love you beautiful
may it change and when it does all the things that needed to be resolved by it be gone forver
amen
🙂
....and when you emerge from it, there is something beautiful about the newness that comes with letting it go.
It's a process that you have to move through...
It is like being reborn
🙂
x
Posted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
click to expand
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?click to expand
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
Which house is his Saturn in?
Depression is a larvae stage for an awakened mind. You will become an intelligent adult.
Posted by bricklemark
Depression is a larvae stage for an awakened mind. You will become an intelligent adult.
Wow.....that is a very insightful post
Posted by MyStarsShineSee, we had been in a business for 7 year. I know his stuff and people and everything what he does and with whom.Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
click to expand
When we talked about future together his only concern was his huge clan that has
as a go-to man. For smallest crap. They all go to him. So he has a lot to deal with.
I can write a wall of text but I will not.
So yes. We had talked about a lot of things. And that's what he wants but horror of people talking...judging...pointing fingers and whispering is hard to bare.
We had only got THAT close for a year.
People dating for years before they get married and both single.
Here we are loaded!
So we take one day at the time and growing closer knowing each other better.
However if he will never divorce - I will have him on his terms. And if I can't have him - I am not looking any further. Because I didn't want anyone before h and I wouldn't want anyone after. It's my accidental love that bigger than me.
If you have anything to say please do. Negative welcome as well. Thanks
Posted by GemitatiOuch....it seems his fear of what others think is bigger than his love for you. That is quite cowardly and not a good way to treat a womanPosted by MyStarsShineSee, we had been in a business for 7 year. I know his stuff and people and everything what he does and with whom.Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
When we talked about future together his only concern was his huge clan that has
as a go-to man. For smallest crap. They all go to him. So he has a lot to deal with.
I can write a wall of text but I will not.
So yes. We had talked about a lot of things. And that's what he wants but horror of people talking...judging...pointing fingers and whispering is hard to bare.
We had only got THAT close for a year.
People dating for years before they get married and both single.
Here we are loaded!
So we take one day at the time and growing closer knowing each other better.
However if he will never divorce - I will have him on his terms. And if I can't have him - I am not looking any further. Because I didn't want anyone before h and I wouldn't want anyone after. It's my accidental love that bigger than me.
If you have anything to say please do. Negative welcome as well. Thanksclick to expand
I doubt he will divorce or become brave enough to choose you over others
Posted by MyStarsShineDais assumption.Posted by GemitatiOuch....it seems his fear of what others think is bigger than his love for you. That is quite cowardly and not a good way to treat a womanPosted by MyStarsShineSee, we had been in a business for 7 year. I know his stuff and people and everything what he does and with whom.Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
When we talked about future together his only concern was his huge clan that has
as a go-to man. For smallest crap. They all go to him. So he has a lot to deal with.
I can write a wall of text but I will not.
So yes. We had talked about a lot of things. And that's what he wants but horror of people talking...judging...pointing fingers and whispering is hard to bare.
We had only got THAT close for a year.
People dating for years before they get married and both single.
Here we are loaded!
So we take one day at the time and growing closer knowing each other better.
However if he will never divorce - I will have him on his terms. And if I can't have him - I am not looking any further. Because I didn't want anyone before h and I wouldn't want anyone after. It's my accidental love that bigger than me.
If you have anything to say please do. Negative welcome as well. Thanks
I doubt he will divorce or become brave enough to choose you over others
click to expand
Again what makes young single people date for years and don't commit? Fear? Cowardness?
Why no one act batshit crazy when couple dating for a year and don't get married?
Why everybody go batshit crazy when mature married people just starting to know each other and DOEANT HET DIVORCE YET?
It's like no one want to see that for us it means betrayal of spouses, kids, families.
Should I mention him losing amount of money I don't want to even discuss!
Yep let's pretend he loves me. We haven't lived together. What if after all this we fail?
I don't have so much to deal with and I am scared shitless! Him? I can only imagine!
The problem is I am talking here to younger people who had never been in decades of marriage. So for them is like - I don't love you anymore, here are divorce papers - done!
We have to communicate, talk, see how things are going and make a decision!
I am not ready as well.
He told me last year - tell your husband you are leaving him. I was trying. Mouth wouldn't open. I had never answer back
So he figured...
He sees tru me with his lazer vision.
Few month ago question was 'what do YOU want?' And I couldn't formulate.
I've been told by many readers and advisers - it's my call! But I think I am even bigger coward! It's a scary shit to change whole life after 50!
Plus we had never had an argument! Even when I screwed up majorly!
So I have no idea what he like when mad.
There is lots to learn. I know he is not perfect but he acts like he IS!
And does a wonderful job! ?
There were few times when I not intentionally almost got him exposed!
Called me next day to discuss and no complains. Just - wow! You are CRA-ZY!
So far I am mesmerized and amazed and whatever else comes with it.
Will see...
Posted by GemitatiJust pulled some cards for youPosted by MyStarsShineDais assumption.Posted by GemitatiOuch....it seems his fear of what others think is bigger than his love for you. That is quite cowardly and not a good way to treat a womanPosted by MyStarsShineSee, we had been in a business for 7 year. I know his stuff and people and everything what he does and with whom.Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
When we talked about future together his only concern was his huge clan that has
as a go-to man. For smallest crap. They all go to him. So he has a lot to deal with.
I can write a wall of text but I will not.
So yes. We had talked about a lot of things. And that's what he wants but horror of people talking...judging...pointing fingers and whispering is hard to bare.
We had only got THAT close for a year.
People dating for years before they get married and both single.
Here we are loaded!
So we take one day at the time and growing closer knowing each other better.
However if he will never divorce - I will have him on his terms. And if I can't have him - I am not looking any further. Because I didn't want anyone before h and I wouldn't want anyone after. It's my accidental love that bigger than me.
If you have anything to say please do. Negative welcome as well. Thanks
I doubt he will divorce or become brave enough to choose you over others
Again what makes young single people date for years and don't commit? Fear? Cowardness?
Why no one act batshit crazy when couple dating for a year and don't get married?
Why everybody go batshit crazy when mature married people just starting to know each other and DOEANT HET DIVORCE YET?
It's like no one want to see that for us it means betrayal of spouses, kids, families.
Should I mention him losing amount of money I don't want to even discuss!
Yep let's pretend he loves me. We haven't lived together. What if after all this we fail?
I don't have so much to deal with and I am scared shitless! Him? I can only imagine!
The problem is I am talking here to younger people who had never been in decades of marriage. So for them is like - I don't love you anymore, here are divorce papers - done!
We have to communicate, talk, see how things are going and make a decision!
I am not ready as well.
He told me last year - tell your husband you are leaving him. I was trying. Mouth wouldn't open. I had never answer back
So he figured...
He sees tru me with his lazer vision.
Few month ago question was 'what do YOU want?' And I couldn't formulate.
I've been told by many readers and advisers - it's my call! But I think I am even bigger coward! It's a scary shit to change whole life after 50!
Plus we had never had an argument! Even when I screwed up majorly!
So I have no idea what he like when mad.
There is lots to learn. I know he is not perfect but he acts like he IS!
And does a wonderful job! ?
There were few times when I not intentionally almost got him exposed!
Called me next day to discuss and no complains. Just - wow! You are CRA-ZY!
So far I am mesmerized and amazed and whatever else comes with it.
Will see...click to expand
Feeling Safe
Look Inside Yourself
Stand Your Ground
Hope they help and good luck with it all
Posted by MyStarsShineThanks! That was unexpected...Posted by GemitatiJust pulled some cards for youPosted by MyStarsShineDais assumption.Posted by GemitatiOuch....it seems his fear of what others think is bigger than his love for you. That is quite cowardly and not a good way to treat a womanPosted by MyStarsShineSee, we had been in a business for 7 year. I know his stuff and people and everything what he does and with whom.Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
When we talked about future together his only concern was his huge clan that has
as a go-to man. For smallest crap. They all go to him. So he has a lot to deal with.
I can write a wall of text but I will not.
So yes. We had talked about a lot of things. And that's what he wants but horror of people talking...judging...pointing fingers and whispering is hard to bare.
We had only got THAT close for a year.
People dating for years before they get married and both single.
Here we are loaded!
So we take one day at the time and growing closer knowing each other better.
However if he will never divorce - I will have him on his terms. And if I can't have him - I am not looking any further. Because I didn't want anyone before h and I wouldn't want anyone after. It's my accidental love that bigger than me.
If you have anything to say please do. Negative welcome as well. Thanks
I doubt he will divorce or become brave enough to choose you over others
Again what makes young single people date for years and don't commit? Fear? Cowardness?
Why no one act batshit crazy when couple dating for a year and don't get married?
Why everybody go batshit crazy when mature married people just starting to know each other and DOEANT HET DIVORCE YET?
It's like no one want to see that for us it means betrayal of spouses, kids, families.
Should I mention him losing amount of money I don't want to even discuss!
Yep let's pretend he loves me. We haven't lived together. What if after all this we fail?
I don't have so much to deal with and I am scared shitless! Him? I can only imagine!
The problem is I am talking here to younger people who had never been in decades of marriage. So for them is like - I don't love you anymore, here are divorce papers - done!
We have to communicate, talk, see how things are going and make a decision!
I am not ready as well.
He told me last year - tell your husband you are leaving him. I was trying. Mouth wouldn't open. I had never answer back
So he figured...
He sees tru me with his lazer vision.
Few month ago question was 'what do YOU want?' And I couldn't formulate.
I've been told by many readers and advisers - it's my call! But I think I am even bigger coward! It's a scary shit to change whole life after 50!
Plus we had never had an argument! Even when I screwed up majorly!
So I have no idea what he like when mad.
There is lots to learn. I know he is not perfect but he acts like he IS!
And does a wonderful job! ?
There were few times when I not intentionally almost got him exposed!
Called me next day to discuss and no complains. Just - wow! You are CRA-ZY!
So far I am mesmerized and amazed and whatever else comes with it.
Will see...
Feeling Safe
Look Inside Yourself
Stand Your Ground
Hope they help and good luck with it all
click to expand
Now can you please tell me what it means. It is tarot reading?
Can you pull it for him? To seeing anything matches? Thanks so much. ?
Feeling Safe - in terms of whole life or heart matter?
Look Inside Yourself - have been and kind of confused. What does it mean? There is nothin inside but him...
Stand Your Ground - I'm love or in general? I am pretty much am standing my grounds my whole life but is this what it means or...
Thanks agaim
Look Inside Yourself - have been and kind of confused. What does it mean? There is nothin inside but him...
Stand Your Ground - I'm love or in general? I am pretty much am standing my grounds my whole life but is this what it means or...
Thanks agaim
"I want to meet new people ..to have good friends, and to start over again."
What do you need to 'start over again' from? And part of being adult is not having real friends. Most ppl have only enough time and energy to sustain something meaningful with their life partner. You know that saying "bfs/gfs come and go but friends are forever". Well it's actually the other way around after high school
What do you need to 'start over again' from? And part of being adult is not having real friends. Most ppl have only enough time and energy to sustain something meaningful with their life partner. You know that saying "bfs/gfs come and go but friends are forever". Well it's actually the other way around after high school
Posted by GemitatiThey are oracle cards....self explanatory so easier for the person to understand...you can work out what they mean from the words on the cards....you need to feel secure with him, but more importantly with yourself, to go within yourslef to find out why you want this and why you feel this way and finally you need to know you are worth more....aim for higher and better!Posted by MyStarsShineThanks! That was unexpected...Posted by GemitatiJust pulled some cards for youPosted by MyStarsShineDais assumption.Posted by GemitatiOuch....it seems his fear of what others think is bigger than his love for you. That is quite cowardly and not a good way to treat a womanPosted by MyStarsShineSee, we had been in a business for 7 year. I know his stuff and people and everything what he does and with whom.Posted by GemitatiPosted by MyStarsShineNo!!! Never. Unless he gives up on me I am in it to the end.Posted by GemitatiPosted by TeenaI don't want to get out of it!Posted by GemitatiYou know what Gemi?? You talk EXACTLY like my Gemini bff who was in a similar situation (very very unfortunately still is) who I was never able to help. Again she's been my friend since 9years or more(I met her n my Virgo bff at the same time) . She's been going through the same thing since over a decade or so. I've been extremely patient with her..still am.You know what's the problem with you guys ? The both of you? Ok we'll get there later.But you guys MUST understand that after a point it's all self-inflicted.Take my word for it. I know no amount of pain is small or big n we're all wired differently...but think about it once. The thing you guys are getting all depressed over n destroying yourself is something only privileged(in many other ways) people could do. Reminds me of this scene from friends.Posted by TeenaI am helping people every day.
I agree with epi above about doing some charity work..Try helping someone who really need it. You'll feel better making them feel better. All you want to do is to make this person/s feel good n their good spirits lifts yours. Trust me. I wasn't into this at all before. But being there for someone helped me. Mind blown no kidding.Also take care of yourself really. If you can, move places. That'll help too. Maybe all you need is time away/break from the surroundings you are used to n people around you.
I donut with a huge smile. No one will ever know that every second of that 'bliss' I am dying inside and asking Gods help to keep me going because I can't do it on my own.
I am laughing, telling jokes but all of a sudden I need to run and wipe my tears and tell myself that everything is going to be allright. Then I come back because show must go on! I have sick people on my hands and they don't need my problems - they have their own.
So I don't know how anything can district
bleeding heart from bleeding. I wish I knew.
Lol! Not saying the other problems are not real. Everything people go through is very much real. What I do not like is the part where they *refuse* (yes refuse...how much ever you deny that you know that) to get away from the pain. You might think I can say this comfortably sitting on my couch all happy. Please! I've been through that..all of that n a lot more. And as for why what helped me might not be helping you is because 1. Probably that's not what works for you coz we're different. When I take care of someone, I put my heart n soul into it...not just physically being there.It wasn't my job nor was it a show for me. I put them above me . I n whatever I was going through was irrelevant to me at that point. Ofcourse no one ever did know, not one soul, that I was breaking inside(I'm still understating this) .Can you make your problem irrelevant? Ever? Mentally, completely? I know the answer to this Gemi. I can explain that too(if you didn't already get what I'm implying..but we're not discussing that here)
2. Like I said, you guys are not looking for solution to start with. You guys wanna stay there n dwell in pain rather than get out of it. You're not looking to be relieved. You're going for it n you know it.
The thing is, I so perfectly understand what you both are going through. My bff and you n it breaks my heart. I really struggle to understand how to go about helping you guys.
And I can't be helped.
The only help needed is to be able to write thoughts down and send and read response.
There is nothing you can do, love.
Not for me, not for her because apparently she doesn't want to get out as well.
I am just waiting for the slip. One slip when I will say that's it! He failed. I am out!
And I pray so it wouldn't happen.
So it's beyond help.
Like my Mom who used to hate him said - no matter what happens you owe him for your looks! Referring to my weight loss.?
It was a dream of her life to see me in shape...
She doesn't know how much he had changed me emotionally.
And one thing left for me is to stop smoking.
Then I can say - it's magic!
For now I am trying.
Thanks for your kindest heart.
You are a special in every way my little wise Scorpio lady ?
No, you owe all those things to you and your strength to do them Gem
Are you going to give up on the Scorp and move forward?
He is a good influence. And light of my life.
It's so odd how I read his chart and all is so accurate to the T. Last night read his Saturn in Cap - 100% !
You'll hear from me ?
Has he made any plans to be with you or are you happy to carry on with things the way they are? You know, he may never leave his wife.....?
When we talked about future together his only concern was his huge clan that has
as a go-to man. For smallest crap. They all go to him. So he has a lot to deal with.
I can write a wall of text but I will not.
So yes. We had talked about a lot of things. And that's what he wants but horror of people talking...judging...pointing fingers and whispering is hard to bare.
We had only got THAT close for a year.
People dating for years before they get married and both single.
Here we are loadeWd!
So we take one day at the time and growing closer knowing each other better.
However if he will never divorce - I will have him on his terms. And if I can't have him - I am not looking any further. Because I didn't want anyone before h and I wouldn't want anyone after. It's my accidental love that bigger than me.
If you have anything to say please do. Negative welcome as well. Thanks
I doubt he will divorce or become brave enough to choose you over others
Again what makes young single people date for years and don't commit? Fear? Cowardness?
Why no one act batshit crazy when couple dating for a year and don't get married?
Why everybody go batshit crazy when mature married people just starting to know each other and DOEANT HET DIVORCE YET?
It's like no one want to see that for us it means betrayal of spouses, kids, families.
Should I mention him losing amount of money I don't want to even discuss!
Yep let's pretend he loves me. We haven't lived together. What if after all this we fail?
I don't have so much to deal with and I am scared shitless! Him? I can only imagine!
The problem is I am talking here to younger people who had never been in decades of marriage. So for them is like - I don't love you anymore, here are divorce papers - done!
We have to communicate, talk, see how things are going and make a decision!
I am not ready as well.
He told me last year - tell your husband you are leaving him. I was trying. Mouth wouldn't open. I had never answer back
So he figured...
He sees tru me with his lazer vision.
Few month ago question was 'what do YOU want?' And I couldn't formulate.
I've been told by many readers and advisers - it's my call! But I think I am even bigger coward! It's a scary shit to change whole life after 50!
Plus we had never had an argument! Even when I screwed up majorly!
So I have no idea what he like when mad.
There is lots to learn. I know he is not perfect but he acts like he IS!
And does a wonderful job! ?
There were few times when I not intentionally almost got him exposed!
Called me next day to discuss and no complains. Just - wow! You are CRA-ZY!
So far I am mesmerized and amazed and whatever else comes with it.
Will see...
Feeling Safe
Look Inside Yourself
Stand Your Ground
Hope they help and good luck with it all
Now can you please tell me what it means. It is tarot reading?
Can you pull it for him? To seeing anything matches? Thanks so much. ?click to expand
For him
Breakng free
Kick up your heels
He needs to have more fun in his life and break away from anyone or thing that holds him back. He may be too serious
Posted by Scorpi2017
While im writing now im crying .. im in deep depression .. i really feel like im not living the life the way people do and that im dying day after day , i find myself alone noweven when im surrounded with people.
all what i want is Happiness!
and to love myself like i used to do in a long time ago..
I want to do many things but i feel im trapped inside .. and lost.
I want to meet new people ..to have good friends, and to start over again.
I want any advice that may change me..
to the best.. and to love life again.
Even now im preparing master in biology but i seems cant focus anymore.
any help i would be grateful.
hallo, yiu need to quit biology.
Posted by Scorpi2017
While im writing now im crying .. im in deep depression .. i really feel like im not living the life the way people do and that im dying day after day , i find myself alone noweven when im surrounded with people.
all what i want is Happiness!
and to love myself like i used to do in a long time ago..
I want to do many things but i feel im trapped inside .. and lost.
I want to meet new people ..to have good friends, and to start over again.
I want any advice that may change me..
to the best.. and to love life again.
Even now im preparing master in biology but i seems cant focus anymore.
any help i would be grateful.
Take on environemntal protection, impelmentation of sun and wind emergy and preserving wildlife by building more and more wildlife bridges ( overpasses covered with grass for large animals yes they DO use them and get saved from highway traffic and underpasses tunnles for tutrtles ). Biology is not your rral.filed just a backkgorund. Sincerely hope u refused to cut live animals in class and do other horrifying experiments
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all what i want is Happiness!
and to love myself like i used to do in a long time ago..
I want to do many things but i feel im trapped inside .. and lost.
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I want any advice that may change me..
to the best.. and to love life again.
Even now im preparing master in biology but i seems cant focus anymore.
any help i would be grateful.