Reconnecting with taurus girl...after 4 years

So, here goes the story...

4 years ago I met this girl online on a fitness forum. We hit it off immediately. Chatted for a month and then met in person. We were both young and insecure and went on what I would call the most akward dates ever...but the chemistry was palpable. We had two dates and few accidental meetings in discoclubs. Then we just stopped talking. Its a bit of my fault because friend of mine told me some rumors that he heard about her which were completely false, but unfortunately I found that this rumors were untrue months later.

So one night I went out, drank few beers, and sent her a message saying that she is a drug addict and that her ex is a psychopath...based on the rumors that I heard about her. A classic mistake. I was a complete idiot, I know! 😢

Fast forward and here comes the present time. A month ago I was surfing through that same forum and noticed one cool profile that stood out. I messaged her and we exchanged few lines. Nothing special. Then I sent her I wish you a happy new year message but 7 days after ny and she left me on seen. Yeah, a bit lame but during this ny period I was in a pretty stressful situation... moving out to a new place and starting a new job.

Here we go...yesterday evening I accidentally clicked on that same cool profile and realized its her. She updated the profile pic, occupation and some other things that were missing. Its definitely her.

To be honest Im completely clueless about what should I do next. Should I just send her an apology message out of the blue? But after 4 years? Would it be creepy and stalkerish... or extremely desperate?

Should I message her again and pretend that I dont know its her...like she did when I messaged her a month ago?

Something else?

And yes, that forum is the only way I can contact her since I have deleted her number in the past.

Of course I have lived my life through this 4 years, had other girlfriends...but from time to time I found myself revisiting memory of this girl beacuse I never had such a strong intellectual connection with anyone else. I just want to reconnect with her and see what happens now that we are older.

Any advice is welcomed 🙂

We are both 27. Im a cancer sun and sagg moon with venus in virgo. She's a taurus and I think that her moon is in capricorn and venus in aries.

She hasn't responded to your other messages. So not much of a reconnection.

If you want to apologize do so. Just don't do it in order to get a response from her back, be genuine.

If I'm you I'd be too embarrassed to say anything at all and fade to black. My respect for someone who allowed me to speak to them in such an insulting way and then let me back into their life would be at zero.

You were very vulnerable with us.

Be the same way with her 😀

I’m a big fan of what do you have to lose. Give it a go and see where the chips fall.

Yeah apologize if you feel the need to but don't do it expecting anything. Going off of rumors c'mon man lol. We all make mistakes though. I remember hearing that a girl I was interested basically slept with the whole neighborhood. I didn't judge and didn't like use that against her until she was shitty in other ways and even then I didn't use it against her in terms of throwing it in her face. I just backed off and now we are loose friends lol. Good luck mate.