So I had not seen my Cap crush for a week because he was working in another state . Today he comes in and immediately asked me to go to lunch we go to lunch I had a great time hanging out eating. Then we go to the Christmas party later but the people we thought were going decided not to go but he came anyways and it was just me and him and other people who are not in a group. So we have fun eating dinner talking to ppl. Then he says let's go to a bar. So we will go to a bar and drink and some how get on the subject of strip club and I say I have never been and he decides he wants to take me to the strip club so we're there he's buying drinks won't let me use my money to pay the strippers give me his ones . Then wants to go next-door to sex shop laughin at some of the things in there and him saying he could see me in certain outfits. Then we leave this is a highly simplified version of events but I'm so confused like was he just having fun? Testing me to see how quickly I'll gI've in? Or does he genuinely want to have sex with me ? We kept getting closer and closer the whole night and he never made a move but we talked about relationships again and he brought it up this time saying is just a lot of work and it's not as easy as it used to be. I wish he would just stop being cryptic and tell me what the fuck you wants! I have never had to work so hard to restrain myself
