an update

I've had two treatments, and I'm handling it just fine. No side effects that I can't handle. Most of the patients there that I've talked to says that sometimes, it takes several treatments for your body to really start reacting ... so, we'll see. I'm not anticipating anything I can't handle. I'm not sick at all ... just fatigued for a couple days, and that's easy to get through.

So, I have a name for my cancer. It's call Intrahepatic Cholangiocarcinoma, and apparently this is in my bile ducts, inside my liver and it's inoperable. Even if it shrinks, it can't be removed. The doctor says that I will be on chemo for the remainder of my life. If it shrinks, then the treatments will just cut back.

BUT, and he said a big but !!! ...... this has already metastasized to/from other organs, which by definition classifies it at Stage IV. He's hoping that this will zap the lung nodules, but, since it can never be cured from my liver, then he says there's never a chance I will ever be cancer free, which means it will likely continue to spread to other organs.

He had another oncologist look at my tests and images, and this doctor said it looks like it's in my lymph nodes as well. So, when I go for the next ctscan, he's going to look closer at my lymph nodes as well. He'll have to clarify that for me because I thought these nodes were throughout the body, so I'm not sure where this other doctor saw evidence of them.

So, it's a play by play date for me.



We've managed to have about 75% of my feral cats euthanized. I need about another 5 to be trapped and put to sleep and I believe I can wean the others off of feedings and let them get reintroduced to HAVING to fend for themselves. At this time, I will also slowly wean off the raccoon and the opossum. They can't be carried off to the shelter, and I have no choice except to hope that they can learn to feed themselves. The opossum has been fed by me since he was a (cub? pup?) I think they are called Joeys. The deer is fine. She's been living here for many years and bears her young here, and we feed her all left over fruits and veges, but, we still see her eating on her own a lot, grazing ... so, she'll be fine. The bear is another story. He eats here all the time. It's illegal to feed them, and oh yeah, I feed him tons of food. Let them come and arrest me .. then the county will be responsible for all of my massive medical bills I'm incurring. We have a friend who is a bear expert. In fact, he's recognized in this area as the local bear expert, and he said he could come up here with his dogs and run him up a tree, where they can get him sedated more easily. He'll slide down the tree and not fall .. that was my concern. I don't know where they will take him after that.

We're going to move, and have set up an event at an auction house to sell off all of my antiques and I have massive antiques, having inherited all of my mothers and grandmothers. So, that should bring in a pretty penny for my husband to stash. He just wants a little place that's easy to manage, with a great big garage for him to tinker in, and have poker games.

Funnily, my meds I'm getting are for breast ovarian cancer and I'm unsure why. They are cisplatin and gemcitabine and neither are for lung/liver cancer. I'm sure he has a logical reason which I won't confront.



And I've just been in complete awe at the amount of people who have come forward wanting to assist me, or just support me. Even the poker guys are calling me (about me to my husband) and we never take things personally with the league. It's nuts. I don't like people. funny people are, they have this uncontrollable need to try and secure emotions with other people ... which is something my ASD mind has never understood. But, there it is ..... they are coming out of the woodwork wanting to let me know they care.

so, anyway, that's about it. I'm just going to muddle through this so long as it's feasible to do so. Once the day arrives that I take a serious turn for the worse, I will stop all treatments and wait for the cards to deliver me.



I probably will only post here once in a while. My life doesn't really include dxp much these days, as you can imagine. Bye for now.

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Damn bears cats deer and possums. Your like a real life Snow White.

We live on the side of a mountain, next to a national forest .... so animals are all over the place.

and my Pisces and Cancer parts HAVE to care for them. it's impossible for me to NOT take food to them.

For someone who is going through such an ordeal, you sound incredibly emotionally sane! ??

(Good to hear you are coping all right with treatment!)

Glad you're weathering the storm well P

Posted by P-Angel
I've had two treatments, and I'm handling it just fine. No side effects that I can't handle. Most of the patients there that I've talked to says that sometimes, it takes several treatments for your body to really start reacting ... so, we'll see. I'm not anticipating anything I can't handle. I'm not sick at all ... just fatigued for a couple days, and that's easy to get through.

So, I have a name for my cancer. It's call Intrahepatic Cholangiocarcinoma, and apparently this is in my bile ducts, inside my liver and it's inoperable. Even if it shrinks, it can't be removed. The doctor says that I will be on chemo for the remainder of my life. If it shrinks, then the treatments will just cut back.

BUT, and he said a big but !!! ...... this has already metastasized to/from other organs, which by definition classifies it at Stage IV. He's hoping that this will zap the lung nodules, but, since it can never be cured from my liver, then he says there's never a chance I will ever be cancer free, which means it will likely continue to spread to other organs.

He had another oncologist look at my tests and images, and this doctor said it looks like it's in my lymph nodes as well. So, when I go for the next ctscan, he's going to look closer at my lymph nodes as well. He'll have to clarify that for me because I thought these nodes were throughout the body, so I'm not sure where this other doctor saw evidence of them.

So, it's a play by play date for me.



We've managed to have about 75% of my feral cats euthanized. I need about another 5 to be trapped and put to sleep and I believe I can wean the others off of feedings and let them get reintroduced to HAVING to fend for themselves. At this time, I will also slowly wean off the raccoon and the opossum. They can't be carried off to the shelter, and I have no choice except to hope that they can learn to feed themselves. The opossum has been fed by me since he was a (cub? pup?) I think they are called Joeys. The deer is fine. She's been living here for many years and bears her young here, and we feed her all left over fruits and veges, but, we still see her eating on her own a lot, grazing ... so, she'll be fine. The bear is another story. He eats here all the time. It's illegal to feed them, and oh yeah, I feed him tons of food. Let them come and arrest me .. then the county will be responsible for all of my massive medical bills I'm incurring. We have a friend who is a bear expert. In fact, he's recognized in this area as the local bear expert, and he said he could come up here with his dogs and run him up a tree, where they can get him sedated more easily. He'll slide down the tree and not fall .. that was my concern. I don't know where they will take him after that.

We're going to move, and have set up an event at an auction house to sell off all of my antiques and I have massive antiques, having inherited all of my mothers and grandmothers. So, that should bring in a pretty penny for my husband to stash. He just wants a little place that's easy to manage, with a great big garage for him to tinker in, and have poker games.

Funnily, my meds I'm getting are for breast ovarian cancer and I'm unsure why. They are cisplatin and gemcitabine and neither are for lung/liver cancer. I'm sure he has a logical reason which I won't confront.



And I've just been in complete awe at the amount of people who have come forward wanting to assist me, or just support me. Even the poker guys are calling me (about me to my husband) and we never take things personally with the league. It's nuts. I don't like people. funny people are, they have this uncontrollable need to try and secure emotions with other people ... which is something my ASD mind has never understood. But, there it is ..... they are coming out of the woodwork wanting to let me know they care.

so, anyway, that's about it. I'm just going to muddle through this so long as it's feasible to do so. Once the day arrives that I take a serious turn for the worse, I will stop all treatments and wait for the cards to deliver me.



I probably will only post here once in a while. My life doesn't really include dxp much these days, as you can imagine. Bye for now.

You are brave to share this with us and on this forum. Lymph nodes are indeed throughout the body and act as stop points similar to the way checkpoints or rest stops would work on a highway, they signify how far it would have spread.

just hang in there P. I think it'll all go well. I just recently found out (and just yesterday in fact) that we lost a sweet little old lady (Pisces) to cancer all over her body 😢. this happened around Christmas. and I just found out. my community lost a good one.

I will shoot the shit out of a possum or raccoon..disgusting pieces of shit

Stay strong. (Although that's probably redundant-you got that covered I think).

Thanks for the update.

Posted by bmoon8
Can you post your astrological chart with transits? And can you post a vocaroo in the vocaroo thread posted by TheLadyScorpio? Would be awesome to hear your voice.

It's great to see you doing good and handling the treatments like a champ. Hopefully, you get good results from the treatments. Thank you for keeping us updated.

Don't we all actually want to see her face as well?

amazing post. and so real.

oh, all the animals. you're so cool. I remember one thread you issued about the cats.