Did it Feel Good?

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E. M. Henderson
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When you finally got to reject the people that rejected you?

I mean, literally for me -

It felt SO GOOD when almost a year ago I got a friend request on FB from a girl I crushed on heavily back in HS.

We was suppose to go to prom together. She brought it up to me, and I was geeked. We went to separate high schools though.

Prom finally comes around and I ask her about it on twitter.

>She caplocked raged at me

>Says she was just entertaining the thought

>She goes with some ugly fat guy instead

>Feels bad man

I took it so personally over the years because I remember really pouring my heart out to her and looking for a chance. I use to purposely try to catch the same city bus she rode home. I use to walk with her back to her home before she transferred from my HS. So also use to approach me in the hall and give me a big warm long lasting hug. She kinna led me on.

Now that I’m grown, I think she looked at me like some dirty needy broke kid that skateboarded and had a crush on her. I think she tweeted subliminally about me one time, saying she don’t wanna be with someone that can’t do shit for her. Which is not the first time some bitch has assumed I was always gonna be helpless.

Maybe she was only nice to me because I was nice to her. Idk.

Like a year later after HS she unfriended me from FB and I lost access to my twitter, but I think she unfollowed me there too. She went off to college then acted like she didn’t know nobody. She literally only has 1 mutual friend from HS, when everybody Ik from HS has over 30 mutual friends with each other.



So the audacity of this bitch to add me on FB at never talking to me for over 6 years is fuckin amazing to me. I stared at her friend request for minutes just reminiscing .. Part of me wanted to accept her request, cuz I’m not necessarily MAD or holding a grudge… I just haven’t forgot how certain shit made me feel.

It’s like… I guess she saw I’m looking better, doing better.. But I don’t need her approval. I remember I once wanted it, but not anymore.

Keep that same energy. Stay out my life.
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E. M. Henderson
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One nigga that steady called me “dirty” and all kinna shit back in the day just tried to add me on FB 2 days ago. It was elementary school. I was 10-11 years-old experiencing outcastness.

His name was Kareem. I never forgot his name because I was bullied just that bad by this dude. Nobody wanted to sit next to me. He named me “dirty girl”.

One time my mom and stepdad was looking for a new home around my elementary school and I guess Kareem saw me “on his block”, he goes back and tells the other kids “dirty girl live on my block! Dirty girl live on my block!”

I find out from Thomas, another guy I never forgot that use to bully the shit out me. He repeated back to me “Where you stay at? All I know is Kareem was talking about dirty girl live on my block”

We was kids, yeah.. I mighta been what others considered “dirty” and “ugly”, yeah…

But do you know I rejected that friend request so fast, cuz wtf even make a nigga wanna add me to begin with?The fuck? I rather stay “dirty” to these bitch ass niggas, bro. I don’t forget SHIT.
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There was a skinny blonde white girl who tried to cause drama for me in High School. She started a “gang” called the butterfly gang 🙄 with other girls in my neighborhood and it was the typical mean girls scenario where they excluded me or tried to stir up petty drama. She was a Libra btw. After High School she was a stripper and then she had 3 kids back to back and got fat. Part of me felt a little satisfaction. She died not too long ago. I don’t know how but I felt bad for her kids. Now I look back and her life just seems tragic. Her Mom was an alcoholic and she was probably acting out due to her home life circumstances.

Maybe they add you to feel better about what they did to you. Maybe they’re just nosey though. I wouldn’t give them the satisfaction. I protect even my social media from negative energies. If I wouldn’t let someone in my home to have a drink, they don’t need to see my social media either.


Yeahh… Crazy shit.

Libras are something the fuck else in school. It was a Libra guy I knew in HS that use to talk mad shit to me, just was a real nasty dude. He died after we graduated.

When I tell you, I did not give a shit and still don’t give a shit.

I just sit back and laugh.. Cuz now that I think about it, he was miserable anyway too.

He was mixed, mfs didn’t know if he was half black or whole Mexican or some shit

He in gang shit and went to school with rival gang members

He was 20 years old, in the 12th grade… A fuckin repeat.

And I don’t think he had a father figure.

Plus he had night school with me which I won’t repeat the bogus shit he said to me in class one night, but that was the last straw for him. Especially after trying to kill him and friends WITH KINDNESS, I let them smoke the weed I was getting from my cousins. Still was a bitch ass nigga in the end.



RIP those shitty leebs.
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Posted by -Capriquarius

There were few guys in my life that rejected me, but after some time they came back and I said it's to late. They had chance.

Also there were guys who where kind of bulling me in middle school and high school, but then when we met when I was andult and I got more attractive and confident they were trying to flirt but looked like an idiots.

Karma is bitch, and it made me be more patient in life.


Yeah my girl was a duckling that blossomed after HS.

Women get sexier by the time their 40, then it’s granny time after that.

She was always gay, but even in her experimenting days, she didn’t get much male attention.

Now she’s smoking hot, and I had to tell her the game. Like look hun - nobody ever showed you love, now the minute you don’t need it (cuz she’s openly dating me) everybody wanna give you your flowers or be all in your face?

Fuck that.

I advised her to delete a lot of people and move on from people from HS and fuck all that friend shit.. And she was 100% with it.

My girl don’t fuck with nobody now and the thought of male attention or any attention that isn’t mine makes her so annoyed.

Sometimes all a woman needs is someone that peels those layers back, make her feel good about herself and become a better woman.

Ya fuck those guys.. I bet their losers now too and everything.
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No

But it felt redeeming when I received apologies by a family member and an ex for their behaviour. That was enough for me, i didn’t feel the need to return their behaviour....

So that apology didn’t feel good? Okay

It’s the thought of someone coming back around trying to kiss your ass, be your friend 😽
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It felt very good as I said ...
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E. M. Henderson
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Posted by -Capriquarius

There were few guys in my life that rejected me, but after some time they came back and I said it's to late. They had chance.

Also there were guys who where kind of bulling me in middle school and high school, but then when we met when I was andult and I got more attractive and confident they were trying to flirt but looked like an idiots.

Karma is bitch, and it made me be more patient in life.

Yeah my girl was a duckling that blossomed after HS.

Women get sexier by the time their 40, then it’s granny time after that.

She was always gay, but even in her experimenting days, she didn’t get much male attention.

Now she’s smoking hot, and I had to tell her the game. Like look hun - nobody ever showed you love, now the minute you don’t need it (cuz she’s openly dating me) everybody wanna give you your flowers or be all in your face?

Fuck that.

I advised her to delete a lot of people and move on from people from HS and fuck all that friend shit.. And she was 100% with it.

My girl don’t fuck with nobody now and the thought of male attention or any attention that isn’t mine makes her so annoyed.

Sometimes all a woman needs is someone that peels those layers back, make her feel good about herself and become a better woman.

Ya fuck those guys.. I bet their losers now too and everything.

I totally agree with you that right partner for a woman will bring out her best.

I think that's what you are for your lady, as I saw from what you were saing about you, her and your relationship.

I also think that Aquarius women have difficulty with people in general on diffrent levels depends of deepness of connection and only good partner will show them way how to organise the social part of their life.

I noticed that because of our light head and difficult character we get involved with wrong people or end up being concidered as bad people.

Once we open up its difficult to be a assertive twords people who use us, and doesn’t matter how much we are loners - after all we still human who like to have people around ourselfs.

That's makes us kind of week because we are trying to be not judgmental and agree for to much.

A firm and grounded partner helps to be more objective about people, helps being assertive and helps to keep integrity.

I know my partner for 8 years now. We were together for 4 years, then had 3 years break and now we got back together again, but he was always the most genuine and decent guy in my life.

When I met him I was very immature and was surrounding myself with toxic people. He taught me a lot in my life and helped me to grow up and make my life better by teaching me self worth. He never lied to me, betray me or disrespected me.

I really respect him like no other guy in my life and will be thankful till end of my days for how much he did for me.
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You mind me asking his sign?

My girl is an Aqua. I agree with the air headed stuff and just going around with the wrong crowd.

She’s not very social, but sometimes she just gets up and wants to do stuff.. I use to find it childish, but now since I grew to trust her - I just either join her or let her do what she wants… Cuz she goes out with her sister after all. They are identical twins.

Her twin gets a lot of attention from men and she either brushes them off or entertains it. I never know with her, that “unpredictability”. I find myself to get jealous cuz I’m attracted to the twin too, shameful enough to say.

But my girlfriend is more than enough for me. She’s great. Her sister is just an after thought compared to my baby. My girl take her sister mad seriously.

But she take me seriously too. You know?

I respect their siblingship and would never come between these Aquarius twins.. My insecurities (rough childhood, early adulthood - I’m just now settling now in life starting last year), but also my protectiveness and territorial-ness constantly feels the need to remind her that people just wanna try to 3some them girls. Or men will try to be her “friend” for the wrong reasons and don’t care that you my wife..

She knows this and she’s smart.

She just told me her and her sister are thinking about taking a road trip to other states 🤦🏿, I forget which ones but we always talk about west coast..

But I to this day I’m not comfortable with her going out with her sister everywhere cuz all of attention she gets… I only feel comfy when she at home, at her sister house, or with me anywhere.

She always wanna rebel or at least try to, cuz I gotta talk sense into this girl a lot….

I just think Aqua chicks can get themselves into a lot of unnecessary situations and learn of a lot unnecessary lessons cuz they can’t seem to sit they ass down. Always wanna “do something” 😮‍💨
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I mean, it’s a fb friend request lmao it’s not that serious.

But go off…

Yeah it’s that simple but it’s just the thought a mf even adds you.

In Chicago friend requests are very personal. Maybe not where your from where everybody thinks their everybody’s best friend.
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If they are one of these people who have 1000+ fb friends there probably wasn't that much thought involved. Just a suggestion of people you may know popped up and she sent the request... and probably 10 others.

If the person only has a few 100 fb friends then you know they are only friending people they actively know and speak too. Then it may be significant. IJS