what is this in synastry?

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irrational, magnetic attraction.

i won't call it a 'connection' due to absolute lack of knowledge about the other person.

had some drinks so... i've told this story maybe a billion times lol coz it remains the sole sample of its kind from personal experience. you know how people have to get to know each other, bond and build whatever? but that's not what i'm referring to. none of that.

there's a friend suggestion that popped up on my facebook that i HAD to ignore (with a heavy heart lol). it was an acquaintance like from back in college. but she's not really important

.....her boyfriend is. 😂😂

was minding my business, nothing particularly special that day. i wasn't going through any emotional/mental issue. but i really needed a ride home that day. my friend told me to hitch a ride with this girl from culinary class. again, she's not important.

she told me she just needs to grab her boyfriend (playing pool on a cafe rooftop).

and first time i saw him, she suddenly became important.... for me to get rid of 😂😂

for a short time, i used to smoke in sophomore year. so i lit a cigarette, sat on the armchair facing the pool table and

......just watched him. 😂😂

mobster vibes 💕

but he's not mine so i made up an excuse about finding another ride last minute.

years later, my friend would call me up to tell me that her friend and this guy finally broke up.

most fascinating/hypnotizing human 😂😂

now forever romanticized in my head 😂😂
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He sounds like a SAGITTARIUS

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eww

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You say eeewww now but they are good for Virgo women, we put up with the headache of you all and give you space when you're psycho and need it 😛 Then let you cling and love us when you need it too, with no complaints. Balance!
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sag women are cool and virgo sun/sag moon females are even cooler

but the men are punchable i don't care
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He sounds like a SAGITTARIUS

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eww

🤢🤢

You say eeewww now but they are good for Virgo women, we put up with the headache of you all and give you space when you're psycho and need it 😛 Then let you cling and love us when you need it too, with no complaints. Balance!

sag women are cool and virgo sun/sag moon females are even cooler

but the men are punchable i don't care
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All I read was Virgo Women/Sag Moons were cooler than me!

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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.


he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.
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He sounds like a SAGITTARIUS

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eww

🤢🤢

You say eeewww now but they are good for Virgo women, we put up with the headache of you all and give you space when you're psycho and need it 😛 Then let you cling and love us when you need it too, with no complaints. Balance!

sag women are cool and virgo sun/sag moon females are even cooler

but the men are punchable i don't care
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Just to be clear, just Sag men are punchable not all the fire signs right?
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i've only ever seen him that one time. the memory's so perfect to me that it couldn't possibly improve with a second viewing. and tbh, i know myself enough that i can just tell that i'd do some crazy shit if i see him again. confessed this to my friend a couple of terms later when i thought 'it would go away on its own' lol. far as i'm concerned, that's the greatest universal blunder of all time.

and this a terrible thing to admit but no matter who i'm with, i secretly still hold to this memory.
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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.

he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.
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well I know that feeling, I have it with a guy and my venus conjunct his mars, and his venus oppose my mars, also our venus square each other.

he's not taller than me, nor particularly cute or attractive or anything really, and because our venus square, we behave super differently, hes a jock and I'm a geek, yet there was this mutual attraction, like a dumb teenage movie, why? not sure but I actually enjoy his jackassery

I know it is a venus/mars thing because I really want to touch him, like hugs and kisses, any excuse to be touching each other is good, you cant keep your arms out of each other (in the case of the double whammy) and it was instant, in our case it was very messy because of uranus but better that way.

I also know of neptune/venus aspects, they are kinda what you describe too, where you see someone in rose colored glasses for a good chunk of time, as a crazy ideal lover and yada yada, but never get to know them, is more of a fantasy than anything really, the word "dreamy" comes to mind.

would be interesting to see if he got any aspect with you.
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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.

he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.

well I know that feeling, I have it with a guy and my venus conjunct his mars, and his venus oppose my mars, also our venus square each other.

he's not taller than me, nor particularly cute or attractive or anything really, and because our venus square, we behave super differently, hes a jock and I'm a geek, yet there was this mutual attraction, like a dumb teenage movie, why? not sure but I actually enjoy his jackassery

I know it is a venus/mars thing because I really want to touch him, like hugs and kisses, any excuse to be touching each other is good, you cant keep your arms out of each other (in the case of the double whammy) and it was instant, in our case it was very messy because of uranus but better that way.

I also know of neptune/venus aspects, they are kinda what you describe too, where you see someone in rose colored glasses for a good chunk of time, as a crazy ideal lover and yada yada, but never get to know them, is more of a fantasy than anything really, the word "dreamy" comes to mind.

would be interesting to see if he got any aspect with you.
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aries venus men and i can't really leave each other alone

whatever that guy has calls to me

it was POWERFUL

found myself in this trance state, trying to get physically close to him as much as possible

but she's THERE yet i'm not even jealous coz i felt so SURE that the whole thing's a universal blunder. whoever's in charge of the paperwork for that messed up their job that i found myself in that predicament lol that's how i rationalized the whole thing in my head. there must've been a mistake somewhere in the system.
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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.

he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.

well I know that feeling, I have it with a guy and my venus conjunct his mars, and his venus oppose my mars, also our venus square each other.

he's not taller than me, nor particularly cute or attractive or anything really, and because our venus square, we behave super differently, hes a jock and I'm a geek, yet there was this mutual attraction, like a dumb teenage movie, why? not sure but I actually enjoy his jackassery

I know it is a venus/mars thing because I really want to touch him, like hugs and kisses, any excuse to be touching each other is good, you cant keep your arms out of each other (in the case of the double whammy) and it was instant, in our case it was very messy because of uranus but better that way.

I also know of neptune/venus aspects, they are kinda what you describe too, where you see someone in rose colored glasses for a good chunk of time, as a crazy ideal lover and yada yada, but never get to know them, is more of a fantasy than anything really, the word "dreamy" comes to mind.

would be interesting to see if he got any aspect with you.

aries venus men and i can't really leave each other alone

whatever that guy has calls to me

it was POWERFUL

found myself in this trance state, trying to get physically close to him as much as possible

but she's THERE yet i'm not even jealous coz i felt so SURE that the whole thing's a universal blunder. whoever's in charge of the paperwork for that messed up their job that i found myself in that predicament lol that's how i rationalized the whole thing in my head. there must've been a mistake somewhere in the system.
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you should stalk him on social media and take advantage of the retrograde, you know, what start in mercury retrograde stays in mercury retrograde LMAO.

what's the worst that could happen 👺
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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.

he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.

well I know that feeling, I have it with a guy and my venus conjunct his mars, and his venus oppose my mars, also our venus square each other.

he's not taller than me, nor particularly cute or attractive or anything really, and because our venus square, we behave super differently, hes a jock and I'm a geek, yet there was this mutual attraction, like a dumb teenage movie, why? not sure but I actually enjoy his jackassery

I know it is a venus/mars thing because I really want to touch him, like hugs and kisses, any excuse to be touching each other is good, you cant keep your arms out of each other (in the case of the double whammy) and it was instant, in our case it was very messy because of uranus but better that way.

I also know of neptune/venus aspects, they are kinda what you describe too, where you see someone in rose colored glasses for a good chunk of time, as a crazy ideal lover and yada yada, but never get to know them, is more of a fantasy than anything really, the word "dreamy" comes to mind.

would be interesting to see if he got any aspect with you.

aries venus men and i can't really leave each other alone

whatever that guy has calls to me

it was POWERFUL

found myself in this trance state, trying to get physically close to him as much as possible

but she's THERE yet i'm not even jealous coz i felt so SURE that the whole thing's a universal blunder. whoever's in charge of the paperwork for that messed up their job that i found myself in that predicament lol that's how i rationalized the whole thing in my head. there must've been a mistake somewhere in the system.

you should stalk him on social media and take advantage of the retrograde, you know, what start in mercury retrograde stays in mercury retrograde LMAO.

what's the worst that could happen 👺
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ahh shit i have a date with a scorpio sun/virgo moon but now maybe i have to re-think that

the thing is that friend suggestion is my only hope

unless he's in the yearbook and my friend can remember which girl i'm talking about that had that boyfriend

but we all went to the same university so i'm hoping that friend suggestion would pop up again

i'm so curious what his chart looks like to explain my.... insanity lol
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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.

he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.

well I know that feeling, I have it with a guy and my venus conjunct his mars, and his venus oppose my mars, also our venus square each other.

he's not taller than me, nor particularly cute or attractive or anything really, and because our venus square, we behave super differently, hes a jock and I'm a geek, yet there was this mutual attraction, like a dumb teenage movie, why? not sure but I actually enjoy his jackassery

I know it is a venus/mars thing because I really want to touch him, like hugs and kisses, any excuse to be touching each other is good, you cant keep your arms out of each other (in the case of the double whammy) and it was instant, in our case it was very messy because of uranus but better that way.

I also know of neptune/venus aspects, they are kinda what you describe too, where you see someone in rose colored glasses for a good chunk of time, as a crazy ideal lover and yada yada, but never get to know them, is more of a fantasy than anything really, the word "dreamy" comes to mind.

would be interesting to see if he got any aspect with you.

aries venus men and i can't really leave each other alone

whatever that guy has calls to me

it was POWERFUL

found myself in this trance state, trying to get physically close to him as much as possible

but she's THERE yet i'm not even jealous coz i felt so SURE that the whole thing's a universal blunder. whoever's in charge of the paperwork for that messed up their job that i found myself in that predicament lol that's how i rationalized the whole thing in my head. there must've been a mistake somewhere in the system.

you should stalk him on social media and take advantage of the retrograde, you know, what start in mercury retrograde stays in mercury retrograde LMAO.

what's the worst that could happen 👺

ahh shit i have a date with a scorpio sun/virgo moon but now maybe i have to re-think that

the thing is that friend suggestion is my only hope

unless he's in the yearbook and my friend can remember which girl i'm talking about that had that boyfriend

but we all went to the same university so i'm hoping that friend suggestion would pop up again

i'm so curious what his chart looks like to explain my.... insanity lol
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movie date? 😂 that way no one has to talk a lot hahaha

I have found people from years past, just take a little bit of scorpio energy hehe, like if you remember the name of one of his classmates, someone that got him on their friend list, anyone, is scorpio season, you're free to get freaky 🤣

you said he was older right? them he's probably not in your yearbook 😑
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well you saw him just being himself, so it can be any mars/venus combo or, the most obvious physical related aspect, his venus opposite your ascendant.... maybe the mars, cuz he's a guy, but anything hot aspecting your 7th house should melt you lmao.

he didn't look particularly special or anything. but i forgot that girl was even there and have completely disregarded her existence. he wasn't that much taller than me and he was very quiet. and yet, every little thing about him is fascinating to me.

whatever it was, may not have at all just been physical.

and i'm usually so picky and indecisive so that vibe when i first set foot on that rooftop, like the first 2 SECONDS wow.... strange feeling to be so SURE.

i KNEW how this affected me so much that i did everything i can to avoid this girl so i don't have to see HIM omg.

well I know that feeling, I have it with a guy and my venus conjunct his mars, and his venus oppose my mars, also our venus square each other.

he's not taller than me, nor particularly cute or attractive or anything really, and because our venus square, we behave super differently, hes a jock and I'm a geek, yet there was this mutual attraction, like a dumb teenage movie, why? not sure but I actually enjoy his jackassery

I know it is a venus/mars thing because I really want to touch him, like hugs and kisses, any excuse to be touching each other is good, you cant keep your arms out of each other (in the case of the double whammy) and it was instant, in our case it was very messy because of uranus but better that way.

I also know of neptune/venus aspects, they are kinda what you describe too, where you see someone in rose colored glasses for a good chunk of time, as a crazy ideal lover and yada yada, but never get to know them, is more of a fantasy than anything really, the word "dreamy" comes to mind.

would be interesting to see if he got any aspect with you.

aries venus men and i can't really leave each other alone

whatever that guy has calls to me

it was POWERFUL

found myself in this trance state, trying to get physically close to him as much as possible

but she's THERE yet i'm not even jealous coz i felt so SURE that the whole thing's a universal blunder. whoever's in charge of the paperwork for that messed up their job that i found myself in that predicament lol that's how i rationalized the whole thing in my head. there must've been a mistake somewhere in the system.

you should stalk him on social media and take advantage of the retrograde, you know, what start in mercury retrograde stays in mercury retrograde LMAO.

what's the worst that could happen 👺

ahh shit i have a date with a scorpio sun/virgo moon but now maybe i have to re-think that

the thing is that friend suggestion is my only hope

unless he's in the yearbook and my friend can remember which girl i'm talking about that had that boyfriend

but we all went to the same university so i'm hoping that friend suggestion would pop up again

i'm so curious what his chart looks like to explain my.... insanity lol

movie date? 😂 that way no one has to talk a lot hahaha

I have found people from years past, just take a little bit of scorpio energy hehe, like if you remember the name of one of his classmates, someone that got him on their friend list, anyone, is scorpio season, you're free to get freaky 🤣

you said he was older right? them he's probably not in your yearbook 😑
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he MIGHT be older but i will check soon

never even glimpsed my yearbook

my moon is in the 8th house 🤣🤣

and it's scorpio season

wow no wonder the pining is FULL ON
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when you don't intentionally covet or go for what someone else always wanted but these things end up becoming yours?

like say....

a.) there's a university she's always wanted to be accepted in. you don't have any concrete plans. but she suggests that you guys go for it together but you're the only one who got in. you've never wanted it but you got it. she decided to just get a job instead of an education. you graduate top of the class.

b.) you like to hop jobs and you can get anywhere you want. she can only stick to one type of job but she invites you over to her company and of course, you get the job. like you always do. she gets fired a couple of months into your new company together. this became your longest job, you stopped hopping.

c.) she invites you over to her new place with her new boyfriend. she hasn't had a great romantic history what with past abusive men so you're happy for her. and you haven't really felt settled in your attempts at maintaining romantic relationships lately. but as you look around at the small but immaculately clean and cozy apartment you think that maybe it's not so bad to 'try again.' and next thing you know, you're kissing a lovebomber on top of a ferris wheel. though you've never stolen her boyfriend, you've got exactly the kind of guy she's always wanted.

she floods your messenger about this guy, seemingly annoyed at your good fortune.

you accused her of being jealous, she blocks you.

almost as if your rise, coincides with her 'fall.'

you've never intentionally planned things out this way but almost as if her every invitation is a blessing to you but could only mean some type of period of 'dark age' for her.

what is that in synastry?
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so it's Talented Mr. Ripley, except Ripley is the rich one in this story.

Single White Female is worth a shout, too.

Lol not gonna lie, just done watching 'all about eve' before writing this down.

thing is I've said this to her once before right after i was conned by a pisces sun/Libra moon which I consider as one of my rock bottom moments.. that she seemed to be my 'lucky charm.' but I've never mentioned the bad luck that I seem to give her in return after her accidental blessings on me.

but I had an epiphany just now. Light always follows whenever I connect with her in my rock bottom moments. I feel like I've objectified her now in the sense that I feel her loss is like losing gold-egg laying hen.

what's going to happen to me now is what I think about.
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so it's Talented Mr. Ripley, except Ripley is the rich one in this story.

Single White Female is worth a shout, too.

Lol not gonna lie, just done watching 'all about eve' before writing this down.

thing is I've said this to her once before right after i was conned by a pisces sun/Libra moon which I consider as one of my rock bottom moments.. that she seemed to be my 'lucky charm.' but I've never mentioned the bad luck that I seem to give her in return after her accidental blessings on me.

but I had an epiphany just now. Light always follows whenever I connect with her in my rock bottom moments. I feel like I've objectified her now in the sense that I feel her loss is like losing gold-egg laying hen.

what's going to happen to me now is what I think about.

I haven't seen that film but it sounds good.

What i took from this is.... well you just said you find your best moments in her moments of weakness. That is parasitic to me, and now you're aware of it, it's not longer accidental.

Not a big deal though, as long as you own it then go make up with your friend, assuming you guys can start fresh. Like being able to pull your own weight and give back to her. Not giving her good fortune or anything, but just being there, good or bad moments regardless.
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hmm I've never thought of it that way but I've only recently realized every major positive milestone in my life all started with an 'invitation' from her.

she's my accidental fairy godmother.

maybe that's why she was so upset coz the last time we met (before she blocked me on messenger) was me telling her about her being my 'lady luck' and half-joking that she at this point, should just point out a good match for me.

in my desperate bum moments, her 'invitations' saved me. my passive, no ambition self survived coz of her. things i never knew I wanted or could have or could become... she is the marker of each event.

but I'm the omen of the next plague to her.

does crying work on geminis? Lol

it has to be the true luck bringer of the axis.
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so it's Talented Mr. Ripley, except Ripley is the rich one in this story.

Single White Female is worth a shout, too.

Lol not gonna lie, just done watching 'all about eve' before writing this down.

thing is I've said this to her once before right after i was conned by a pisces sun/Libra moon which I consider as one of my rock bottom moments.. that she seemed to be my 'lucky charm.' but I've never mentioned the bad luck that I seem to give her in return after her accidental blessings on me.

but I had an epiphany just now. Light always follows whenever I connect with her in my rock bottom moments. I feel like I've objectified her now in the sense that I feel her loss is like losing gold-egg laying hen.

what's going to happen to me now is what I think about.

I haven't seen that film but it sounds good.

What i took from this is.... well you just said you find your best moments in her moments of weakness. That is parasitic to me, and now you're aware of it, it's not longer accidental.

Not a big deal though, as long as you own it then go make up with your friend, assuming you guys can start fresh. Like being able to pull your own weight and give back to her. Not giving her good fortune or anything, but just being there, good or bad moments regardless.

hmm I've never thought of it that way but I've only recently realized every major positive milestone in my life all started with an 'invitation' from her.

she's my accidental fairy godmother.

maybe that's why she was so upset coz the last time we met (before she blocked me on messenger) was me telling her about her being my 'lady luck' and half-joking that she at this point, should just point out a good match for me.

in my desperate bum moments, her 'invitations' saved me. my passive, no ambition self survived coz of her. things i never knew I wanted or could have or could become... she is the marker of each event.

but I'm the omen of the next plague to her.

does crying work on geminis? Lol

it has to be the true luck bringer of the axis.

"my passive, no ambition self survived coz of her."

I had a similar kind of dynamic with my Pisces best friend when we were just out of our teens, though we were always supportive of each other.

But I just didn't have that kind of "face rejection and keep going" that he did, so I cruised in his slipstream and he let me. But we both knew each other's roles, both played the part until we grew out of them.

Good fortune with no foundation = easy come, easy go.

The friend has the heart to go for what they want. They fall short, but more they learn, the more they don't need fortune to feel settled, win or lose. Do you envy them that?
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that's an interesting question.. and you're probably on to something.

i accidentally got the things she wanted (things i later on realized i wanted for myself too) but yes she is so much stronger than me. she's much better with people that's for sure and the loss of these things (dreams) would probably devastate me but she seems to coast by these losses like the survivalist gemini that she is.

i'm wayyyy too sensitive about these things like i can imagine if i wanted these things the way she originally dreamt about them, their loss would really hurt me like i'd just be a depressed bum about it... i never knew where i wanted to study but i went for her dream school, never knew how to settle for a job until i got into her company and never really felt like trying romantically again until i saw her domestic situation.

for some reason that my mind can't really comprehend, she accidentally inspires me to try again.

maybe coz she's a mess or had been such a mess that her coasting along makes me wonder why i'm not doing anything.