devastated

i just lost my baby today. They did the ultraound and said my baby died a week ago. I was supposede to have it in january. I want to crawl into a ball and not get out of bed.

Oh dear..I am so sorry to hear that. Our wishes are with you..Do take care of yourself..and be strong and hang in there.😢

thank you for saying something. Im extremely hurt. Im drinking alot ob bud light tonight. Havent had any alcohol in two weeks. my obgyn said I had a blighted ovum. I was 10 weeks 2 days today. I have to have a d and c on wednesday morning. my heart is absolutley broken.

srry i meant two months. I even switched from coke to caffeien free. I guess god is the pupeteer and i am just the puppet. I hope he will bring me a healthy one soon that is all i have ever wanted im so sad. sorry

thx it is so painful.im sorry you had to be in these shoes too. Im afraid to try again. I invested my heart in this.

I'm sorry. I'm crying. I'm so sorry about your baby.

I've never been in a situation like yours, but I'm truly sorry to hear of your loss. I've worked with children of all ages in a hospital and have seen the heartache parents go through when they lose a child. Whether the child be 10 years old or even a newborn, it is never easy. I know your hurting right now but now just wasn't the time. The right time will come with patience. In the meantime, myself and others are here for you if you need someone to talk to. My prayers and wishes go out to you and your family.

My dear, I know that it is tooo hard to bear. But trust in God, pray hard and try to regain your mental strength....Shall pray for you dear......

I can't even fathom to know what this is like. I'm sorry you're going through this, deva.

Thank you so much for the all the kind words. Unfortunatley I did not make it to my d & c which was scheduled for tommorow morning. Last night I was in the ER my fiance took me in the middle of the night. I really thought I was bleeding to death and was going to go into shock. If anyone has ever experienced a natural miscarriage it is the most painful thing it felt like my insides in my pelvis were breaking apart. I ended up passing the tiny fetus into the toilet. They say now it is not a blighted ovum, that i have a tilted uterus, but that it must of died sometime last week. I am now grieving but im glad this horrible nightmare is over. I just wonder why we these things happen but i guess i will never know. Now I have to take a lortab every six hours to heal the physical pain. But the what could have been will never leave me.

I find it odd as shit that your doctor would allow you to go home with a dead fetus in your womb ... certainly, s/he would know that your body would naturally attempt to repel it, which could ultimately lead you to hemorrage.

Strange ...... maybe God made him do it.

Or maybe you're lying.

Seriously, a doctor just wouldn't send a woman home with a dead baby in her .... he would instead, admit you IMMEDIATELY into OP surgery, rather than risk you dying, which would be a huge risk to him and his license for practicing medicine.

People are so desperate for attention .. it's sick.

Posted by Rooster4u
yes i like to troll? and i also like roosters and yes i am bored

I got molluscum contagiosum when i was 16 ever since then i make people wear the lower torso condom for saftey measure at all times.

Here we go.

Where are you going?

LOL P. Nowhere.

If this god creates everything, a liar, a cheat, a theif, a man-slut ..... are all part of everything .... then this means that these things are in his approval of existence.

I find it odd that people pray to a god, in which exposes them to the very things in which he will then use to punish them.

Sounds like Hitler.

Ok, back to topic .........

Actually I'm going to get some popcorn, 3D glasses, and grab a front row seat.
Could get hairy.... or not.... but maybe.

Who knows ..... just seems odd to me.

Here we have a person who has only posted about 20 times in entirity .... according to posting history, the only reason for past threads was to talk about things like: Capricorns Stink and Scorpios have most STD's. No evidence of any kind of intimate relations with people in here, nor anything even remotely resembling close enough friendships with people ... and then come in here to announce something this sensitive?

People are so fucked up, seriously.

Who in the hell goes into a room full of strangers and talks about their dead fetus they are walking around with inside of them? Not even a room full of friends .. just strangers, random people.

You want to impress me?

Gouge your eyeballs out and drive within the yellow lines.

A person devastated wouldn't be on dxp, talking about it so non-chalantly.

The very tone is in contridiction with the title.

A person in devastation would behave as such.

Maybe this is part of her support system. I would not bring up a topic like this, but that doesn't mean it's not something that's right for her and will ultimately help.
How could you judge how a person acts in devastation? Each one of us behaves and grieves differently.

Posted by ramfishtwins
Maybe this is part of her support system. I would not bring up a topic like this, but that doesn't mean it's not something that's right for her and will ultimately help.
How could you judge how a person acts in devastation? Each one of us behaves and grieves differently.

Don't be an idiot .. if a person came in here and said something like, "It must feel aweful, I'll bet you need a hug" ... is still a judgement, even if it's pleasant.

Gullible people are funnier than watching the bullshitter dump.

Again, a devastated person, espically one so devasted that they put heart into, as said ... "I invested my heart in this" ..... isn't going to behave so casual .. and they espcially aren't going to say something like ... "im glad this horrible nightmare is over" so non-chalantly as if she were referring to a broken finger nail.

Seriously, she said she just lost the baby today, 10 days ago.

think about rationalizing that one ^^^^^

So, she just ..... just ..... and immediately makes sure she reports this to dxp, where she's only posted like 15 times, and every one of those posts were in place to start shit ..

Like: Capricorns are stinky, why do all you guys smell so bad.

If you can't see the whole forest, and are only capable of recognizing each individual tree you happen upon, then you're in the right place, your mind should find enthrallment here ... in the meantime, I will understand that not all people can see the whole picture, and it's not a choice ... for people can only do what they are capable of.

yes i did post all that a while back. Yes I was bored. But I suppose i needed to share this to acknowledge what has happened to me as the reality so i can deal with it. When people are grief stricken they do strange things. I dont know what compelled me to put it on here no reason really.

Most people that miscarry have the threat of hemmorage and could go into shock, depending on how far along they are. I was a little over ten weeks. My doctor was trying to prevent me to go through this as I was planned to have it this morning but my body progressed and expelled it on its clock. I am just saying that it was a nightmare. I just needed to talk about it. It doesnt matter what you think p-angel it absolutely did happen.

and btw i never said this happened a week ago. I miscarried Tuesday nite . The doctor gave me a choice as to whether I wanted a D& C or to do a natural miscarriage due to my 'state' of 10w2d. I had that choice because i was so early on. D& C cost around 5-6k I do have insurance so I was hoping i would make it to the scheduled surgery but I didnt and it was the most horrible pain ever. It felt like my insides were torn out of me.

Posted by Rooster4u
i just lost my baby today. They did the ultraound and said my baby died a week ago. I was supposede to have it in january. I want to crawl into a ball and not get out of bed.

whoa .... whoa ... oh my god. I am so sorry rooster, we don't communicate much but thats okay. oh my god, whoa. I don't even know what something like that could feel like. Thats terrible, and I hope you are okay. You really need to call someone, talk to someone. Yes, thats what you need to do.

Posted by ramfishtwins
Maybe this is part of her support system. I would not bring up a topic like this, but that doesn't mean it's not something that's right for her and will ultimately help.
How could you judge how a person acts in devastation? Each one of us behaves and grieves differently.

Exactly. I come here to vent about certain things. If I'm online at the time, why not? Just because a person is silly at times doesn't mean that they shouldn't be taken seriously.

P-Demon,

shut the fuck up you stupid old piece of shit.

Go stick a cock in your mouth.

I'll spit in your face...garbage.

lol, seriously ..... maybe we should offer to run them a bath?

Hot water, nudity, sexy capricorns, all bubbly, maybe a glass of wine, lights low 😄

this seems odd to me too...p-angel you are too funny....i just love your honesty...you dont cut any corners...you tell it like it is...reminds me of my mother...

So sorry to hear that.... and thanks for sharing with us, its good therapy. I too lost a fetus, I had an etopic pregnancy and lost one of my tubes before I had my daughter, so with one tube it proves hope is always with us. Grieving took a long while as I had been wanting a child for many years with my husband. It helps if you give the 'fetus' a name instead of an 'it' grieve and move forward, just know he/she was part of you for a short while and there are reasons this happpens....the time was not right. Trust me, trust your soul. Soon you will have the opportunity to deliver a baby you have so wanted.I DID and she was a true blessing, think positive thoughts and wishes..good luck....

thx to capsweeite and the other nice posters

Soulful eyes.. yes I did the intelligender test early on at 8 weeks and it said girl so my gut instinct told me from the git go it was a girl, my fiance and I did have a name so we at lest now have some closure. I just felt blindsided my HCG's doubled almost perfectly from the very beginning and I had them done on 3 different series so this was a hard fast blow. I think what might have been part of the problem is that I had the mirena taken out end of feburary and got pregnant almost immediatley, at around beginning of april so I dont think my hormones were ready to have this baby. Just going to heal and wait for 3 months and hope for the best next time. My fiance and I are not in our twenties we are established and have wanted a baby for a long time. It just hurt so badly because our family was so proud and happy for us now they are all grieving along with us. Guess if its meant to be then it will.

Next time i just will know not to share our news until after the trimester 😢

ist trimester

Posted by scorpio rising
you truly have to be the most stupid person that hides behind a computer

Are you refering to P-Angel? or the Original Poster?

Names would be good here.

Posted by Astrological Aftermath
i have to admit when i read this i knew it was a load of bollocks

That's because your stupid and like to wear fucked up things on your head.

Posted by P-Angel
If this god creates everything, a liar, a cheat, a theif, a man-slut ..... are all part of everything .... then this means that these things are in his approval of existence.

I find it odd that people pray to a god, in which exposes them to the very things in which he will then use to punish them.

Sounds like Hitler.

Ok, back to topic .........

Sound like hitler? Okay there Rosie O Donald. Honestly what in your daff brain gives you the insight to know when people are lying on the internet? Really P-Angel the only troll looking for attention here is your rat ass. It is true that any fool can have an opinion and the bigger the opinion the bigger the fool. In your case, HUGE.