Snapping Back - Here’s to 2019

I really haven’t been on since I had that devastating hard Neptune-infused mess (not a relationship- a mess) from April-June. I want to be back though and talk astrology. I’ve missed this.

An update for those who are still here and know me, I actually moved out west shortly after Thanksgiving. Phoenix actually. Well, I wanted it to be a new beginning. Which things are better now, but at first it was a complete shit show. I moved out here for a new job. Then the company closed. Got a new boyfriend who I’ve known for 3 years... Turned out he had serious addiction issues. He’s now 21 days clean, and I am officially employed back at my old retail store. I have more interviews that are actually degree-related, so hopefully those work out. Honestly it’s been a rough ride, but I’m making it and not complaining. At first I had a moment where I was like “well this is just my luck,” but I refuse to ever give up so here I am.

As for the new boyfriend. He is lovely. He’s one of my best friend’s cousin. She (my best friend) took me as her plus one at his sister’s wedding in 2015. I remember noticing him and couldn’t look at him directly. I played with my phone to avoid being tempted to look at him, but his presence stood out to me. He had brought a date too, so I wanted to remain respectful. He dated that girl on and off for 13 years. She’s actually a Scorpio too ironically enough. Anyways, he had found me on Facebook after the wedding. I wasn’t sure how considering he didn’t know my name, but there he was. I kept things cordial and platonic, but I could feel his interest radiating through text. He wasn’t discrete. His girlfriend found me too and added me (just Scorpio things), and I accepted. I liked her. She seemed nice. I always kept him and her as friends though. Kept any weird “forward” comments from him at bay by just either playing dumb or avoiding it and starting a separate convo altogether.

So fast forward. Once I got to Phoenix I remembered that he lived here. Turns out I hurt his feelings by visiting my Aries best friend who lived here first and didn’t message him. To be quite honest, i didn’t think of it. Plus it was a weekend trip and my friend and I randomly decided to go to San Diego and Mexico so it wouldn’t have worked anyways. He told me that after the wedding in 2015, he called his uncle (my best friend’s dad) to get my first and last name. He even asked his uncle to spell it for him (lol). So cute. He told me when he first saw me, he felt drawn to me and could tell I was going to be important in his life. He has a lot of Neptune influence. He said he only had that feeling once before when he started dating his ex.

It’s a cute story. Then I found out about his addiction issues... it’s been a battle. Horrifying, draining, painful... I supported him through withdrawal. Luckily I wasn’t working at the time, so I could watch him. But watching was hard. Kept him hydrated and I just laid with him for the initial 3-4 days when it was at its worst. Then he was more active but still in pain. The first 3 days consisted of him punching walls occasionally. Just... really sad stuff, but he’s strong. He’s going to make it. My Aries best friend was irate with me at first, but she’s gotten to know him and though she never has gotten along with Gemini’s, she likes him for me. She says she can tell he is genuine with his feelings for me and would never intentionally hurt me and definitely wouldn’t cheat on me. Haha she’s my little psychoanalyst. They definitely have different philosophical views though, so they get along sometimes and then bicker other times.

I gave away his Sun sign already, but here’s the rest of his placements:

Libra moon

Gemini Mercury/Jupiter

Cancer Venus/Mars

Capricorn Saturn/Uranus/Neptune

Scorpio Pluto

Virgo ascendant

He’s actually about to hit his official Saturn return. I don’t think it’s an accident that I entered his life right around the time he needed to get his act together before it karmically ruled or ended his life in the next 29.5 years. I have A LOT of Saturn aspects in my own chart, so I am pretty Saturnian in nature even though I’m also Venus dominant. His sister and I have been working with him through this, and she said she went to a psychic awhile back and the psychic said that her brother would either die before 2018 was over or someone would enter his life and he would turn away from the dark path he was on. My ego would love to say that was me since we did start detox right after Christmas, but only time will tell. He’s determined though. I’m very proud of him.

Our relationship has some deep Neptune vibes to it too. Kind of like floating romanticism. Not too idealistic since both of our Saturns are aspected to both of our personal planets, but it’s very... lovely. My moon is right on his ascendant also. His moon is 8 degrees from mine so I don’t think it counts, but we both have told each other that when we’re together it feels like home. It’s a nice feeling to have. He can be a bit irascible though. It might mostly be from the detoxing, but he’s a bit impatient randomly. He’ll be fine most of the time, but occasionally he will be sassy af. His mind works much faster than mine though since he has all that Gemini (especially the Mercury) and the Virgo ascendant. So at the same time, I don’t blame him. But sometimes it’s hard for me to put things into verbal words. Probably from my Mercury retrograde natally and Neptune in the 3rd. Luckily Uranus is there also, so sometimes I can feel pretty quick mentally too. I’ve been going through a lot of Neptune transits lately though, so I’m pretty clouded overall. Hard to verbalize anything these days. I’m lucky I’ve even written this much lol.

BACK TO WRITING DXP NOVELS. I have high hopes for 2019.