I have been dealing with a Taurus man long distance for a while. It all started Feb 2013. I met him during an online game. I didn't realize we were fb friends until he asked me about someone who was in my profile picture with me. He's from my hometown. We didn't know each other but we went to the same highschool. He may have been popular based on his ex girlfriends. I wasnt. I'm in my thirties now. Right away I felt intrigued by him and it didn't take long for me to adore him. I still don't know to this day why I love him so much. My issue with him is he ignores me slot and when we do communicate he is a man of very few words. Me being a cancer I feel like I fell too quick and too hard and he thinks I'm crazy for it. I told him just a few months in I love him. When we first met he had a girlfriend and they have a child together. I asked him right away was he going to marry her and he said he may bring the topic up in a year because he doesn't think she is ready. Right away I felt like I needed to swing into action. I told him that gives me a year then to make him fall in love with me. I always tell him I love him. I even went as far as getting his name tattooed on my body. A gesture he says he likes but I think he secretly thinks I'm unstable for doing it. It could be me being paranoid. When we finally met in person June of 2013 we did have sex. (Yes, the tattoo came after we met in person a couple times) Anyway, I'm not easy and I don't think he thinks I am. I just felt like he is so far away and I love him, why not? He came in town again and we had sex again. I kept in touch with him and continued to express my love and confessed my loyalty for him. One day out of the blue he brought up referring someone to work for the company he works for. I jokingly said refer me. He asked me if I was serious since it meant I'd be relocating to a different state. I told him I was. He put the referral in. The job called months later but I wasn't ready to leave so I kept pushing it back. After about a year he put a transfer in to a different state. A state where I actually wanted to relocate to before I even met him. He told me he was transferring and that he wouldn't be in the original state he put the referral in for me anymore. I asked him if he could put one in for the state he was transferring to but he said they didn't have any referrals because that location was in high demand for transfers I told him it was no big deal and that he was going where I wanted to be all along. I kept in touch for years off and on. We had some falling outs because I would say things to make him jealous because I would get mad at him for not communicating or not being as affectionate as me. One time I said something so horrible he ignores me for almost a year. I apologized over and over until one day he opened the lines of communication back up again. I told him I still want to move closer to him. I eventually went to see him. We were intimate when I went. I didn't have a while lot to do while I was there and I was embarrassed about it so I made myself seem busy while I was there. He asked me if I was there to see another guy. Of course I told him no because I wasn't. I was there for him. I have family there so I hung with them to seem busy. The years continued to go by and I made sure to stay in touch every now and again. He came in town one year and because I gained weight I didn't want to see him so I avoided him. His girlfriend to me was just mediocre so I always wanted to be beautiful when I see him. Later I confessed that the last time he was in town I avoided him. He asked me why would I do that. I told him why. He blocked me right after and kept me blocked for like a year and a half. The longest ever. He reached out to me half way thru on my twins birthday and told me to tell them happy birthday...which shocked me...but immediately after he said it he disappeared again. He literally unblocked me just say that. I eventually stopped trying to reach him and decided I have to do my best to move on. Fast forward closer to recent times...one day I was on FB and he popped up in my people you may know. I was shocked. He unblocked me! I didn't say anything to him right away. I eventually messaged him after about 3 months of not being blocked anymore and just casually said hi and how are you. He responded and was warm. I immediately bought a plane ticket to visit. I told him I was going to be in town. I didn't put on I was really trying to come see him. He agreed to see me when I came up. I did the whole act busy thing again. I sometimes wonder if he really believes I would pick up my entire life and move closer. Yes, I've been saying I wasoving for years but still. Sometimes I wonder if he cares or is just handling me with care because he thinks I'm fragile. Sometime I wonder if he has any idea how much I love him and want to be with him and only him. He told me him and his girlfriend broke up 7 months ago. To think about it, this was around the time he unblocked me. I was shocked because I thought he would never break up with her. Needless to say I still want to move closer and I told him this. Until just recently, literally this past month I decided I'm moving once and for all and I finally had a plan to do so. I told him. He stopped ignoring me for a little bit. I asked him if I had questions about relocating would he be there. He said he would. He has no idea the true questions I have....but rather I ask him about us or not I'm moving to be closer and start over. Does this Taurus care about me or am I just his entertainment and ego stroker. I'm an attractive woman and very girly. I don't have any issues getting attention from men.... My issue is I'm hung up on getting this one. He told me he likes my girlie ways and he's been gentle about how emotional I get being far away from him. He's always gentle. Only time he's gotten rough is when I say something dramatic like I pray everyday asking God to help me get over you. I really do pray this sometimes. Can someone please share your thoughts.
