Virgo Man.. Here we go again... :(

We meet on the 29th December 2016 and the last two months have been very intense. We spend all weekends together and one or two days of the week. He left my deo in his shared toilette with his flatmate and he left his pillow and coat at my place. I said I wanted to go slowly from the beginning and he said he was going to wait all the time I need. After month and a half, we were on a party and Im not sure how it happened but we were asking ourselves what are we? - and at the end we decided no to talk about that. Just wait more time.

On the other side, 2 to 3 times he said during the morning that we could do something during the evening after work, but later on he never said something - and I was expecting he to talk. But as he didnt I got offended. Two weeks ago I was very distant after this situation and we went out for dinner and he could feel me. Later on and after some drinks, I confessed myself. The conversation turned a bit serious and he asked me If we are going to take a step further in the relation. I said no, that better talk about that after april/may. (mum is now for one month on holidays with me and venus is retrograde - could you imagine what a way of starting a relationship?)

Last weekend, he did the same. He said early morning we should do something during the afternoon. During evenning he called me and he said he wanted to chill at home (he lives 5 blocks away from me) and I was so silly that I didnt said come to my place or why dont we do something? And I got mad and sent a silly mensage - please dont say we are going to do something and later on we dont do it. It is better to not say something! (aries mood)

He invited me to go to a party together on Saturday and he said he was very upset and then we went out on party and at the end he said he thinks our relationship is not going to be forever and I felt how he was breaking my heart 😭 after lot of conversation, he confessed he loves me and he has strong feelings. That his sexuality is only intense like it is just because of me because I turn him on like that. But then once again this stupid thing of "I dont think this is going to be forever". Who asks this kind of question after only 2 months of pure dating??!!

We sleep together and I was feeling so sad - i still feeling terrible hurted. I left his place and came back to left his pillow and coat at his front door. And that was it... It has been only two days and I have been ready so much information about virgos. But I dont know what shall I do. I feel I never confess myself properly and tell him properly that I also have strong feelings. But at the same time I am very scared to feel rejected again 😢

Please I really appreciate some advices