Sad Lioness vent session

I've finally broken it off with my married Capricorn lover. I vowed that I wouldn't go into 2017 still dealing with the ups and downs of being the "other woman"---7 years was far too long.

So, naturally I'm having all those down & out, depressed, helpless, sad feelings. Was it right to do it through text? I felt like that was the best way. In person I'm sure I would've melted and been right back in bed with him after listening to his sweet nothings. He hadn't called me in about 2 1/2 weeks. I knew he was having one of his TCB moments, or whatever. But a whole 2 1/2 weeks no contact? If anyone can remember from my previous thread, I was already needing the strength to let him be, and it was like during that time of him not checking in on me I was really able to reflect on our "relationship", what it really meant, where it would actually end up if we kept dealing with each other, etc., etc. It really put into perspective just how un-important I am to him. I mean, I don't doubt that he cares and has some feelings, but it just reminded me of how I'd always be #2 to everything he has going on in his life. Those days when I'm having moments and need someone to vent to or get affection from are days that he can't be there--even if he wanted to be. So, when he finally reached out to me after his hiatus I didn't respond. Four days of calls and I never responded. On day 5 of him calling I wanted to answer, but I knew I'd fall into the trap immediately. Instead I waited and thought about how I'd say everything I felt. When I did call him back an hour later he didn't answer. So, I sent a text. I kept it short and simple, letting him know why I hadn't been responding to him. I tried to be as cordial as possible, let him know that I'll always love him, but that the situation is not right, that I didn't feel good about any of it, and that I'd have to love him from a distance. I ended with a "take care". He didn't responded, didn't call back or text back either. That was almost 2 weeks ago.

I almost regret having given in to him back when we were introduced in 2010. You know how you think damn, if I had just made that ONE decision differently I wouldn't be in this predicament now? Yeah, that's how I feel. I wasn't really interested in him at first--I don't know why (he wasn't married then) I just wasn't, although he was charming and cute. But the more he pursued me after having met me, the more I liked him. So many things have happened over the years. We've grown a friendship that I hate to see go, but it is what it is. I can't continue to wake up everyday waiting/hoping for him to call, waiting for him to feed me crumbs of his time and affection. I can't live everyday knowing that I'm giving all of myself to someone else's husband. The agony eats away at my self-esteem. I hate to admit it but I didn't even want to let him go. One side of me assures that this is for the best for everyone involved (me, my son, him, his family), but the side of me that loves and yearns for him wants me to stay just to be able to hold on to those false feelings of love and crumbs of affection.

I'm taking it one day at a time. It's taking every ounce of strength in me not to break down and call him and let him know I miss him and need him. I won't do it though. I know it will start the cycle all over again. Pray for me people. I'm going to need it, I'm super vulnerable and sad right now. I just need this time to pass and these wounds to heal as quickly as possible. I hate feeling like this I swear.

Your gonna get a lot of hate rn. But I'd like to say that I respect the hell out of you for having the strength to recognize he wasn't good for you and then leaving. Each day will get better. Always prioritize yourself.

I'm sorry

Regardless of the situation, losing a love is painful. Keep your head up and stay strong. Time will heel all wounds.

Posted by LeoLady822
I almost regret having given in to him back when we were introduced in 2010. You know how you think damn, if I had just made that ONE decision differently I wouldn't be in this predicament now? Yeah, that's how I feel. I wasn't really interested in him at first--I don't know why (he wasn't married then) I just wasn't, although he was charming and cute. But the more he pursued me after having met me, the more I liked him.

#leolyfeisleolyfe

Jesus Christ 7 years ? I'm always thinking about the other woman In this situation .. u know, the WIFE .. I can't ..

You did the right thing

He cheated on his wife but probably would never have the balls to leave, they rarely do



Good luck to you and maybe stay away from men that are attached, it rarely ends well

Posted by aquarius_beauty
Sorry if I come off as judgmental but you didn't behave like a Lady. You reap what you sow and you got involved with a married man and now you are suffering for it. Hopefully you might have learned your lesson and not intervene in a marriage that, based on your request on prayer, is sacrament. You don't just involve yourself with someone who has made a vow to be with his wife till the end. Even if he was separated he's still married and in the eyes of God, a deadly sin. Seven years is a long time to have been involved with someone who was unavailable. Hope that this will only be your punishment and your future spouse/partner doesn't become involved with another woman, like you have become involved with another woman's man.

We all pay our debts sooner or later and better it be here on this earth than in the after life, because we ALL eventually pay our dues.

Wow... lol

ALL sins are deadly-- obviously.

Based on your own post (user account now

deleted), you or someone you love will reap the

hard-hearted lack of mercy you've sown, right

here, to the penitent.

-.-