Profound life moments.

I don't make threads often but I have been thinking about this a lot recently so here we are.

I am pretty sure everyone has experienced one or sometimes several of these moments. I'm curious if others have had something happen that altered the way you view life on a grander scheme? If you don't mind sharing, what was it and how did it impact you?

Thanks

I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not fight it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

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Posted by justagirl
I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not right it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

Astrology shouldn't be taken so literally. You're still human... you should only be worried if that didn't affect you.

It's sad that most families don't get along. Thats maybe why that man's life ended the way it did. This is why it's important to make close ties even if it's not with your blood relation.

That's super sad tho.

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Haha I was trying to be funny with the aqua comment. I deflect with humor.

Thank you, i appreciate your post and realize maybe the family thing might also be an underlying aspect for me. I'm not close to mine but am slowly working on stuff with my dad again.

Posted by nano
I have had many similar experiences with death. People very close to me dying of various causes, I have been present to see a stranger die, but its seemed to have the opposite effect to where I am numb to death. I don't fear dying, accept it when it happens with very limited emotion, and I don't fear dying alone. In fact, I think I would rather die alone. Like a cat goes away to die when it knows it will die, because it doesn't want to be with anyone. On any day, I feel unusually disconnected from other people, humanity in general. As if I don't belong here and have to try to make myself belong through a series of socially acceptable remarks and behaviors on a day to day basis.

So you are an alien as well? Welcome to the fold!

I feel super disconnected and it bothers me.

Posted by sierra_
I went on an outreach in this remote, impoverished area where they barely had electricity. We did the usual- distributing food, clothes, goods and some educating children and passing out books or some school supplies. This old man from the village was so thankful that he tried offering me some coal... which was basically his livelihood. I don't think I'd ever forget that. Most valuable stuff I was ever given.

Wow! Thank you for sharing.

Posted by The_Mad_Hatter
I come from a fairly wealthy family in a fairly small area, most people in this part of my state have known me since I was born. Played football, made straight As skipped a grade even, but in high school I strated to realize everyone had these huge expectations for me that didnt necessarily line up with my own. I was the QB who was expected to listen to Hootie and the Blowfish, marry the homecoming queen, become an accountant, and move into a 2 story home in the influential part of town. That wasn't me. So I distance myself from my friends (nit because I didn't like them, just because I knew where I was headed and didn't want to drag them down, I knew they would have followed). Started partying a little more, dancing with the devil until my 18th birthday and I overdosed and my heart stopped for almost 4 minutes. I woke up to my mom pounding on my chest screaming at me and crying. Luckily the girl I was with took me to the ER (she could have easily ditched me), and stayed with me the whole time.

I learned that nobody fits into a particular box. And putting expectations on yourself and others can do way more harm than good. But most of all, I learned we have one life, use it how you want to use it, and fuck the critics.

Thank you for sharing that. Did you find yourself drastically changed after the od? I've been in recovery a long time and have seen that darker side of drugs.

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Posted by justagirl
I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not fight it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

You don't know if said person felt the same. I'd rather die alone at home than in a hospital with strangers. But then I've been a loner all my life.

Emotions are something that keeps telling you you're alive still. They are not necessarily a bad thing.

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True, I don't know his feelings.

I was more trying to focus on the way folks look at life after a profound moment. Maybe I shouldn't have shared what happened as it wasn't my intent.

Posted by justagirl
I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not fight it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

😥😢

So sad. Reading stories like yours are heartbreaking. Try and allow yourself to be as vulnerable as you can and as you so wisely say, don't fight it

I will try and post some stuff later .... my life has been full of profound events...oh my....I could write a book of two

(((Hugs))) darling 💙

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Posted by justagirl
I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not fight it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

You don't know if said person felt the same. I'd rather die alone at home than in a hospital with strangers. But then I've been a loner all my life.

Emotions are something that keeps telling you you're alive still. They are not necessarily a bad thing.

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So true

A friend of mine tells me tears are a cleanser for the soul

Mine must be very clean

💙

Posted by vixen14
I’m thinking it may be a cultural aspect. You mentioned Aquas don’t have feelings but my heart has broken many times for the impoverished children and seniors in my parents home country. You realize how fortunate you are when you down to Mexico and you still see people living in mud houses, incapacitated people with no means to support themselves, seniors begging for lismosna, and children walking barefoot in the hot pavement. I was exposed to it very early on and having a father who grew up in extremely poor conditions, helped me empathize for the more unfortunate.

They always taught us to give and to never abandon the vulnerable. Latin culture is very different to American culture, where old seniors are sent to live in convalescent homes. Latin grandparents stay with us until death if they can’t fend for themselves. I feel so sad when I see an old Caucasian mane/woman who don’t have family around to look after them. Like my neighbor, who lives alone and who’s daughter lives up north and never comes an visits.

I wasn' t serious when I said that, as I already pointed out to GG.

If we sticking to Astro, I think aquas are super vulnerable and hide behind that bullshit like it's some type of shield lol I'm more emotional than cancer folks are labeled as being.

I do agree that older generations get toss aside and lost, at least here it seems to be the case.

Posted by nano
I have had many similar experiences with death. People very close to me dying of various causes, I have been present to see a stranger die, but its seemed to have the opposite effect to where I am numb to death. I don't fear dying, accept it when it happens with very limited emotion, and I don't fear dying alone. In fact, I think I would rather die alone. Like a cat goes away to die when it knows it will die, because it doesn't want to be with anyone. On any day, I feel unusually disconnected from other people, humanity in general. As if I don't belong here and have to try to make myself belong through a series of socially acceptable remarks and behaviors on a day to day basis.

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Posted by justagirl
I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not fight it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

😥😢

So sad. Reading stories like yours are heartbreaking. Try and allow yourself to be as vulnerable as you can and as you so wisely say, don't fight it

I will try and post some stuff later .... my life has been full of profound events...oh my....I could write a book of two

(((Hugs))) darling 💙

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Thank you Star! I look forward to hearing your stories!

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Posted by The_Mad_Hatter
I come from a fairly wealthy family in a fairly small area, most people in this part of my state have known me since I was born. Played football, made straight As skipped a grade even, but in high school I strated to realize everyone had these huge expectations for me that didnt necessarily line up with my own. I was the QB who was expected to listen to Hootie and the Blowfish, marry the homecoming queen, become an accountant, and move into a 2 story home in the influential part of town. That wasn't me. So I distance myself from my friends (nit because I didn't like them, just because I knew where I was headed and didn't want to drag them down, I knew they would have followed). Started partying a little more, dancing with the devil until my 18th birthday and I overdosed and my heart stopped for almost 4 minutes. I woke up to my mom pounding on my chest screaming at me and crying. Luckily the girl I was with took me to the ER (she could have easily ditched me), and stayed with me the whole time.

I learned that nobody fits into a particular box. And putting expectations on yourself and others can do way more harm than good. But most of all, I learned we have one life, use it how you want to use it, and fuck the critics.

Thank you for sharing that. Did you find yourself drastically changed after the od? I've been in recovery a long time and have seen that darker side of drugs.

I can honestly say I was never addicted. I wanted it. It was easier for people to see me.high and be disappointed than for me to do something disappointing. If that makes.any sense. It was a passive fuck you. After 2 years of use I literally never touched another thing after. Didn't bother me at all.

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You lucky man, some people it takes just once and they can never stop!

When I was reading an article the other day, a part in it stuck out to me so much and I had a moment of realization of truth. It basically said, "You can only know another person as deeply as you get to know yourself, and you can only love another person as much as you love yourself."

Giving birth to our son and dying for a short time after losing so much blood and then coming back for him....our lovely baby, I fought like hell to be there and be his mum and every day since, thanking God for saving me

Afterward I plunged into a dark place for a while...they had filled me with anasthetic and drugs and I was very sick, but fought again like hell to be a good mum....fed him with my breast milk for a year, loved him and nurtured him, held him, talked to him

And now, looking at him my heart is full .... we are both still here ... and I've never known love like it and never will again

Crying now but have more stories ..... back later

💙❤️

I am currently assisting a stranger whose mother just passed away from cancer and he has suicidal tendencies. He is an alcoholic.

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I come from a fairly wealthy family in a fairly small area, most people in this part of my state have known me since I was born. Played football, made straight As skipped a grade even, but in high school I strated to realize everyone had these huge expectations for me that didnt necessarily line up with my own. I was the QB who was expected to listen to Hootie and the Blowfish, marry the homecoming queen, become an accountant, and move into a 2 story home in the influential part of town. That wasn't me. So I distance myself from my friends (nit because I didn't like them, just because I knew where I was headed and didn't want to drag them down, I knew they would have followed). Started partying a little more, dancing with the devil until my 18th birthday and I overdosed and my heart stopped for almost 4 minutes. I woke up to my mom pounding on my chest screaming at me and crying. Luckily the girl I was with took me to the ER (she could have easily ditched me), and stayed with me the whole time.

I learned that nobody fits into a particular box. And putting expectations on yourself and others can do way more harm than good. But most of all, I learned we have one life, use it how you want to use it, and fuck the critics.

Thank you for sharing that. Did you find yourself drastically changed after the od? I've been in recovery a long time and have seen that darker side of drugs.

I can honestly say I was never addicted. I wanted it. It was easier for people to see me.high and be disappointed than for me to do something disappointing. If that makes.any sense. It was a passive fuck you. After 2 years of use I literally never touched another thing after. Didn't bother me at all.

You lucky man, some people it takes just once and they can never stop!

I know. Many of the people I ran with at that time did get hooked, a few did die.

After school I went on to be a police officer in the hopes I could catch kids early and get them back on track. It helps if you've been down their path, I think. But politics made me switch to firefighting which suited me a whole lot better, until injuries forced me out.

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Seems you enjoy serving/helping others! That's admirable. 🙂

Posted by themilkyway36
When I was reading an article the other day, a part in it stuck out to me so much and I had a moment of realization of truth. It basically said, "You can only know another person as deeply as you get to know yourself, and you can only love another person as much as you love yourself."

I love that. I'm a firm believer in needing a foundation and inner knowledge of yourself before involving another. Most of us hit our teens, along come raging hormones, sex, relationships etc and never learn who they truly are without it involving another person.

I have seen some of my friends hit mid to late 30's and have that moment of "who am i"

Posted by compy
I am currently assisting a stranger whose mother just passed away from cancer and he has suicidal tendencies. He is an alcoholic.

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Posted by Capmercury87
Shrooms have been the only thing that altered the way I saw life.

The first time I did them I cried for an hour or so out in the woods. It was all the pain and hurt I had put away in the back of my heart. I could touch trees and feel compassionate and connected to them, I walked around barterfair telling all the trees and plants that I was sorry that we didn't care for them more. So much pollution and distruction of nature it really hurt me. I hitch hiked home from a different state when I got home I could communicate with my cat using my energy. I fell inlove with my cat and threw all my food and cloths away. I went shopping and recreated myself. I ate better, went and bought fresh fruits and veggies. I remember sharing a bag of spinach with my cat and feeling great ful in my empty apartment.

I made love to my then bf like I had never before. I could feel him thinking and feeling. I found myself more silent, less broken.

I felt more connected to God.

I have done them alot since then but I always do them after I feel my character is broken because of negative events. I am going to be doing them again since my bfs sister wants to do them and has never done them.

I call it the soul slate cleaner. Me and my friends use it as a cleanse.

Even had any moments without drugs/sh-rooms involved? I know you just had a baby, did that change anything for you?

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Posted by themilkyway36
When I was reading an article the other day, a part in it stuck out to me so much and I had a moment of realization of truth. It basically said, "You can only know another person as deeply as you get to know yourself, and you can only love another person as much as you love yourself."

I love that. I'm a firm believer in needing a foundation and inner knowledge of yourself before involving another. Most of us hit our teens, along come raging hormones, sex, relationships etc and never learn who they truly are without it involving another person.

I have seen some of my friends hit mid to late 30's and have that moment of "who am i"

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It's something I believe everyone needs to learn. Perhaps there are some people who naturally do it better than others, while others need a lot of work on it. I know I'm personally part of the latter group. I'm constantly questioning who I am, it's part of my journey too.

Posted by MyStarsShine
Giving birth to our son and dying for a short time after losing so much blood and then coming back for him....our lovely baby, I fought like hell to be there and be his mum and every day since, thanking God for saving me

Afterward I plunged into a dark place for a while...they had filled me with anasthetic and drugs and I was very sick, but fought again like hell to be a good mum....fed him with my breast milk for a year, loved him and nurtured him, held him, talked to him

And now, looking at him my heart is full .... we are both still here ... and I've never known love like it and never will again

Crying now but have more stories ..... back later

💙❤️

❤️ Thank you for sharing that and sorry for the tears. Didn't mean for folks to be sad with my thread.

From what you share about your son he is an amazing lad and that is because of how you raised him! Blessings to you lady!

Posted by Magnolia
My perspective on life changed after I was diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder.

How so if I can ask or is that too intrusive? My dad is bipolar and went untreated for years.

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Posted by justagirl
I will share what triggered these thoughts. It is something that happened once before but I didn't have the type of emotional reaction/thought processes as I do now.

Maybe because I'm older, I'm Not exactly sure 🤔

I manage a senior place and we do lose folks from time to time, heck that actually happens any place. But at my type of Property, a tad more. This past week we found someone deceased in his apartment and it messed me up. Mainly because no one was looking for him and it had been a few weeks. That made me realize how cut off from each other we as humans, especially myself, can be. It's a Major fear of mine to end up like that guy and maybe that is a lesson in this for me, I don't know.

I am looking at life differently and realized last night, this isn't a small moment for me. I'm trying to embrace this for what it is and not right it I guess. These emotions man are messing with me tho, aquas don't have feels!

That incident would affect anyone, JAG. And seeing such things on a regular basis won't be easy I feel... It takes a different type of mental and emotional strength!

It is a very thought provoking and an emotional incident.

I know my Gran used to worry she would pass on and nobody would know about it for few days. She had three maids visiting her at different intervals in a day to ensure she had someone keeping an eye on her in case she were to die. And I used to visit her on weekends and when I couldn't she would panic. She used to talk about death more than anything else...

Living alone sucks... Life must be shared. Idk... I don't fear death but being alone? For all we know, we may have someone today and that may not last tomorrow. Or be alone now and find someone to be our companion till the end...

And you all want to pretend like you guys don't have feelings! 😡

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Posted by Squishy_Marshmallow
For me, one of the most profound moments was when my dad fell down, at the beach. It was a normal slip when the waves hit him hard. Idk why it registered in my mind. Seen so many things but that little moment made me see everything in a different light... It made me see my dad as a normal guy than a hero? That anything could happen to him kinda moment... Scared me so much!

Did he get hurt?? I hope not!

After 5 years of sacrificing my own happiness and growth to support my mother’s goals I broke down to her. It was the first time inverbalized my unhappiness in an emotional manner. Her response was excuses and more reasons for her need to continue on this party. It was a wakening moment for me because prior to that I thought If she only knew how unhappy I was it would

Change things. And after mustering all the courage to express that to her (being a cap you might understand how hard that is ) and get zero understanding back was a reality slap in the face.

That was a life altering moment where I decided that only I’m reapomsible for my happiness and even my own mother might not understand the deep despair I sometimes feel. It hurt a lot but it gave me the strength not to feel guilty for putting myself first and take responsibility for my choices that I had chosen to suffer those years when I didn’t have to. It was all up to me at the end and was never someone else’s decision.

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Posted by MyStarsShine
Giving birth to our son and dying for a short time after losing so much blood and then coming back for him....our lovely baby, I fought like hell to be there and be his mum and every day since, thanking God for saving me

Afterward I plunged into a dark place for a while...they had filled me with anasthetic and drugs and I was very sick, but fought again like hell to be a good mum....fed him with my breast milk for a year, loved him and nurtured him, held him, talked to him

And now, looking at him my heart is full .... we are both still here ... and I've never known love like it and never will again

Crying now but have more stories ..... back later

💙❤️

❤️ Thank you for sharing that and sorry for the tears. Didn't mean for folks to be sad with my thread.

From what you share about your son he is an amazing lad and that is because of how you raised him! Blessings to you lady!

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Thanks love ❤️

I think more "moved" than sad

When I was in labour I looked at my watch for the first and only time and it was exactly the time I was born ! We were both born at 20mins to the hour ... I remembered thinking I was being born again and that was shortly before the near death expirence

We both have Sun and Venus in Scorp

A Venus ruled Moon as I do

We both have earth mars

We both have Hebrew first names



...and more similarities

Amazing journey for sure 🎆

When you shit a brick and it hurts af, but when it's over you're secretly glad you're not gay and having to take all that in reverse.

Posted by Lioness18881
I've had a few. My last profound life moment was going with my parents to do our wills last year. My brother took his life in 2015 so there's just me now. My parents would leave everything to me and then I got asked who I would leave my estate to. I'm not married and have no babies so I felt like I was going to be that man you described.

Sorry to hear about your brother, that is so tragic 💙

Bless you and your family 😥