OK.. something freaky is going on.. I posted some stuff yesterday that is now gone.. unless I put it under a different thread and am trippin.. which could very well be.
First of all HP.. I apologize for that last comment.. I forgot you were adopted and that was very insensitive of me.. I was trying to make a joke and it back fired in my face.. sorry 😢
Second thing... Me and my libra had our first official date last night.. it was soooooo great!! We had a movie date over the phone.. watched, Wild Orchid.. strange choice but he liked it.. Said he was definitely planning to come up on 1/31(he brought it up).. said he wants to go out with me and my friends and will stay the night. He said he is really looking forward to coming and he kept bringing it up.. how he can't wait to do this.. or that.. with me on the 31st.. *brat is all smiles.. but with a very nervous stomache* my stomache is hurting I am so afraid right now.. afraid he will walk away and I won't be able to find him. It's funny, when it appears we are getting what we want, we get scared and want to RUN... I may want to but I can't.
Have you discussed what this new level of intimacy will mean for your relationship? Will this mean you are dating? Exclusively? What do you are your expectations? What are his?
Oh I know...I'm not ashamed, just out of character for me. I turned him down tonight because we're expected either snow or sleet tonight and I dn't want to drive in it.
I dunno what is going to happen with my libra and me. We are taking one day at a time. We have discussed sex, but not at great lengths. I can not commit to a relationship just yet as I am still married (which he brought up). I told him after May I would be available to date, i.e. the divorce will be in process... so he said okay to that.
I forgot to mention, after we got off the phone from our "date" last night he called me back after about 15 minutes and said, "Thank you for all our years together and Thank you for your laugh", I said, "oh how sweet.. Thank you for all the years of making me laugh.. ILY", he said "ILY too" and I said "let me go so I can dream about you", he chuckled a bit and said "Good Night".
OMG I am dying today.. straight on Cloud 9!! 🙂 Permanent smile all day long!
"that was so out of character for me, i still can't believe i did that."
Oh how we love hearing that.
Aqua, Keep in mind his biggest fear is likely the same as yours. Between when you see each other and your actually able to date your feelings will change. So your both afraid of the same thing likely, if you guys feel the same about each other. Remind yourself of this if he seems like he is being indecisive from here on out. Also, we seem to attract girls on the rebound, I have had a lot of hot steamy flings with girls who are just out of a relationship and need a good "clear my mind" lay, I think Libra guys in general attract this. So, having a real interrest in someone comming out of a marriage will make him a little timid as well. Keep that in mind too.
Thank you Nic.. I will keep this in mind.. You always give advice that is "off the beaten path" or unconventional.. something I would never have thought of.. that is what I need, thank you.
Hey still same place as I was last time I wrote....we exchanged a text on Monday but hmmmmm since the "Im not ready for a relationship at the moment" saga I've seen him once but that's nothing new.....I dunno what he's thinking right now....he's probably trying to stay reasonably quiet and out of my way LOL....but having said that, he replies to texts and emails pretty much straight away (with lightening speed actually) so yeah I dunno....I think pain is heading my way but we'll be good friends....he's just obviously not ready and/or into me as I am into him *sigh*
That's life and hey, its only been 3 months so I can't expect too much....all the signs were there but perhaps I read too much into them.....hoping to see him on Sunday night but we'll see - could be he's moved onto somebody else - who knows.....Ive fallen from cloud 9 as you can see LOL.....only he can pop me back up and no doubt he will in the next few days....I hate these quiet times in between.
Otherwise? all is going well...Im on holidays for a week - wooohoooo and getting loads done at home to my house.....lots of hard work though and the heat has been unbearable.....but bit cooler today.
That's about it....trying to not think about him - tis hard though - grrrrrrrr
Ok, so apparently Thursday was a superb day for Libra. So you know that I turned down Mr. Libra for dinner earlier today, but he calls me at work around 4:30 and pretty much pleads that I have dinner with him so I say yes. I told him to meet at specific restaurant at 7pm and he agrees to it.
Surprise, surprise...he texts me to say that he "just found out" that it was his neice's birthday and the family was coming over to his house to celebrate.
LOL Scott is doing great...I think he's in Dallas until Friday...weather is icey here in Texas so he might be stranded in Dallas. Last I heard he wanted to hang out on Friday, but I told him I would only if he keeps his pants on!!
HP/LS.. oh and I forgot to tell you ladies.. I am the one who chose Wild Orchid..(*smiles deviantly*) I can't help if Mickey Rourke acts like a libra on that movie and that is dang attractive.. all aloof, distant, yet charming and sensual.. I mean com'mon, who calls someone's mom on the first date to see what she likes to eat? Right ... and the "being in a tropical paradise" thing does not hurt either.. Can't a woman have a fantasy every once in a while?? ..Hey ya'll I'm trying to do the "in-between the lines" thing by suggestive hinting..😉 He wrote me yesterday and thanked me for our date and said he throught the movie was interesting and had some great scenes😉 He hates writing emails, so this is a big deal..
aaww! Thanks guys for the encouragement. I need it. 🙂 Have not heard from him today but that is okay.. we have had a lot going on lately, so we both need a breather.
I will keep you posted..
Hey, HP.. saw ya boy Scott on Everwood today.. lookin' good! I love that quirky little show. Just caught it today by accident and it was really cute.
Yes!! and he looks exactly the same as he looked on Party of Five.. That was a great show too.. ahh the old days.. anyway, Everwood reruns come on everyday, I think.. like about 6pm or something. Not sure but I caught it yesterday and it was cute! Just like Party of Five, thirtysomething and My So Called Life. Have a slight obsession with "My So Called Life" reruns, they come on at 5AM and there is not ONE day that I miss it. Seen all episodes at least 10 times and am still not bored. Can even recite lines with the actors.. YUP! still not tired of watching it. Angela (Claire Danes) was me in high school and sometimes now.. very introverted.
Libra and I spoke this morning for the first time since our "date". It was a good convo.. very good. He is getting better at diving right into the deep stuff, instead of beating around the bushes for hours then getting deep at the end. While we were talking at 4AM he says.. ?I am going to get online and find you?.. I said ?What!?.. He said, ?I am going to find you bc I am intrigued?..(now he knows I am on an online message board somewhere but I don't think he has found me here yet but when he said that my heart dropped in my butt) I said.. ?uhh I don't want to be found!? So he proceeded to google my name and told me everything that came up.. he said "you are right, you don't want to be found". I said ?I am real private like that?. He said, ?I like that, that means I have to discover you?. He said a bunch of other stuff that had my mind going.. This dude is not going to give up until he finds me.. I know. I have a very distinct feeling. When he comes here to visit I am going to ask that he respect my privacy, cuz I would die if he found me.. seriously!!!!!!!
OK.. something freaky is going on.. I posted some stuff yesterday that is now gone.. unless I put it under a different thread and am trippin.. which could very well be.
First of all HP.. I apologize for that last comment.. I forgot you were adopted and that was very insensitive of me.. I was trying to make a joke and it back fired in my face.. sorry 😢
Second thing...
Me and my libra had our first official date last night.. it was soooooo great!! We had a movie date over the phone.. watched, Wild Orchid.. strange choice but he liked it.. Said he was definitely planning to come up on 1/31(he brought it up).. said he wants to go out with me and my friends and will stay the night. He said he is really looking forward to coming and he kept bringing it up.. how he can't wait to do this.. or that.. with me on the 31st.. *brat is all smiles.. but with a very nervous stomache* my stomache is hurting I am so afraid right now.. afraid he will walk away and I won't be able to find him. It's funny, when it appears we are getting what we want, we get scared and want to RUN... I may want to but I can't.