Are we all in the dark in this?

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Posted by King_Tommy

I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

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I personally feel like as a kid, teenager and in my 20’s I had a sign on my forehead that read “please come to me and share all your wisdom”

Because I was always getting advice from my mother, maternal grandmother, friends of my moms, my dance teachers, my school teachers, my boyfriend’s moms, my co-worker friends and college friends that were 10+ years older than me.

It wasn’t in a degrading or patronizing way, it always in a very loving way. Like they saw potential in me and trusted that I was wise enough to listen to such advice.

I always liked it. I loved talking about relationships, growth, dreams, goals… so I was always all ears and it was a great way to connect, and express ideas.

I didn’t feel I was in the dark, I felt like I had a huge support group.

I also try to help/mentor - but only if asked or I see that they need guidance I’ll open the topic to see if they want to talk about it.

Being a woman - everyone has a different idea based on background, history, their soul purpose. I loved learning such diverse ideas and out of that, creating my version of what it was/is to be a woman.


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Myself and art.

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Yes and no. I don't think it wrong for people to exchange their views and ideas on this, but it should understood that THE man and THE woman don't really exist. In terms of traits that is. They are mutable concepts that constantly change.

This is why I think art, or story telling in general, are good way to engage with them.
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Posted by King_Tommy

I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is


Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

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Bro i've become like a King Spider.

It's like I'm chillin on my web and just waiting for some idiot to come by like "hello 🙂".

and I quickly wrap them around in web and they're like "HELP!!!...HELP!!!!" but no1's coming.

So I take my right fang, put it through the person's stomach.

Take my left fang and smash it through the person's forehead..skull CRACKs. and the person's like "ee-e-e-e-ehhhhh".

And start inserting my acid/poison into it's brain and stomach.

The person will fight back the best they can - but it's all pointless...they're fked.

all I'll hear is "Meeeeeh....mee-ee-e-e-eh"...in panic while they're trying to flee, which is stupid.

while all others just like sheep look at the victim like "...:O..." and they just look at their fallen comrade and mourn the comrade's fate.

but slowly, it'll shut up...when the poison kicks in..

I do not care about any "men" or "fathers" in general, brother...I am Satan and tbh, Man - if it wasn't for God, I would fking enslave people and just turn this place into the worst hell imaginable.

We would go back to the stone-ages (mentality) real quick.

Anyone who is stupid or weak would automatically be enslaved, because they're stupid or weak = so they're slaves.

And this is the reason God made me King, to ensure none of this would ever happen..

It's like "Congrats - you won the race...."........fuak...

what now. have 400 wifes and buy new cars and just have a good life for the rest of this fking existence?

Nah man, I can't be no fking KIng - fk being a king of anything = I wanna be reckless and do what i want, which I already do.

Nothing's really changed - except now I have an invisible crown and god damn attract females like crazy.

look at me and you bro having a conversation.

i am fking insane.

Nice talk brother
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.
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You view humanity because of one experience?
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.
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I do what I want. I don't need permission for anything.

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Nope. I end up googling stuff or watching stuff on YouTube. Strangers can help me out better then friends I know, they won't get offended when I still don't take their advice. 🙂

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What is this that you're typing on? It almost looks like a video game.

Is it a TTY/TDD Device?
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I do what I want. I don't need permission for anything.

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Nope. I end up googling stuff or watching stuff on YouTube. Strangers can help me out better then friends I know, they won't get offended when I still don't take their advice. 🙂

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I actually don't think it's a bad thing for others, but it's typical of me to rely on myself to solve my problems.

I've never wanted or needed much of a listening ear. Sometimes people don't tell the truth or can be biased, so I rather try and handle it on my own.

But there are others who like hearing from a person they trust. I've just never thought much of it.

I don't want to hear advice based on what someone thinks I should do. I need logical advice that is unbiased.
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.

You view humanity because of one experience?

Yes, nothing else - just this experience.

it's like i sit into a taxi and if I don't like the cab - I'm like "That's it = I don't like cars" and I never ever think about it again.

this is why I get on my knees and pray to my washing machine for luck and guidance & free vodka.

It never fails me - That is the only God there is to me.
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What about your fridge/freezer or dishwasher?
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Posted by King_Tommy

I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.

You view humanity because of one experience?

Yes, nothing else - just this experience.

it's like i sit into a taxi and if I don't like the cab - I'm like "That's it = I don't like cars" and I never ever think about it again.

this is why I get on my knees and pray to my washing machine for luck and guidance & free vodka.

It never fails me - That is the only God there is to me.

What about your fridge/freezer or dishwasher?

How stupid are you

None of those you listed is God - do not make me angry with your nonsense
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Damn

Washing machine it is then 👍
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I have no shame or hesitation in asking anyone about anything. I would rather ask people than look it up on google or read a book

Me too

I think maybe people are too proud to ask or reach out which is sad as it keeps us all connected. I’m too curious not to ask questions 😀

It's sad when people would rather try and find info using their phones than ask a person
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Screens -v- humanity 😬
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.

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I don't know why I don't get notifications when you reply to me but whatever.

There's way too much to explain but, I'll say it like this: Anything I know = You can know too.

And this is how I did it.

Take a pen and paper, calm your mind, be alone and write down your question and wait for the answer...instantly write down any answer you get, regardless if you think it doesn't make sense...it may be leading up to something.

It doesn't matter how stupid the question is, because - the broader the question = the more it shows that you don't know what you're talking about/i.e. asking...however, here's the good thing:

God/Universe/whatever you wanna call it: Will answer you.

It will answer you in the exact same way that mirrors your question, so if the question is broad, for example: "what is the meaning of life"....you can get an answer "to live"...ok...from that, you ask another question "what do you mean by live"...then you will get another answer...and it's basically throwing the ball back and forth..

It becomes easier as you will gain more knowledge+understanding=Wisdom.

Pretty soon you'll be connected to God 100% and know exactly the questions to ask and in what order to put the words to make the sentence, in order to get a crystal clear answer back.

It may be hard at first but trust me - it's worth it.

Not sure what else to say at this point.
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Remote writing yes I do that too or channeling
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In most cases I speak to myself. I cry to myself, and build myself up, or tear myself down. I'm like the worst pain, or best motivation to my own mental and even physical state. Sometimes I vent to people a bit, but realize the weight I carry is 100% going to burden them in ways. Even if it's subconsciously and they can't tell. Because of that I stay hidden with 90% 9f how I feel or what I'm going through. It is tough to swallow my feelings and pretend I'm better then I actually am, but rather feel that then watch the people at love suffer from my intense internal turmoil. I know I can't fix it, and don't expect others to fix it. Especially if I deeply love and respect them.
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In most cases I speak to myself. I cry to myself, and build myself up, or tear myself down. I'm like the worst pain, or best motivation to my own mental and even physical state. Sometimes I vent to people a bit, but realize the weight I carry is 100% going to burden them in ways. Even if it's subconsciously and they can't tell. Because of that I stay hidden with 90% 9f how I feel or what I'm going through. It is tough to swallow my feelings and pretend I'm better then I actually am, but rather feel that then watch the people at love suffer from my intense internal turmoil. I know I can't fix it, and don't expect others to fix it. Especially if I deeply love and respect them.


I can feel your ♏️🌝, Soul ...
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I do what I want. I don't need permission for anything.

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Nope. I end up googling stuff or watching stuff on YouTube. Strangers can help me out better then friends I know, they won't get offended when I still don't take their advice. 🙂

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What is this that you're typing on? It almost looks like a video game.

Is it a TTY/TDD Device?
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.

You view humanity because of one experience?

Yes, nothing else - just this experience.

it's like i sit into a taxi and if I don't like the cab - I'm like "That's it = I don't like cars" and I never ever think about it again.

this is why I get on my knees and pray to my washing machine for luck and guidance & free vodka.

It never fails me - That is the only God there is to me.

What about your fridge/freezer or dishwasher?

How stupid are you

None of those you listed is God - do not make me angry with your nonsense
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I don't talk to anyone about being a man, wtf kinda question is that.

about being a father --- who is there to ask about it, because at the end of the day = I am Me.

So even if I had kids, I wouldn't raise them how others would raise them, I'd raise them the way I'd raise them.

To be winners......Are there alot of winners in the world who I could ask? Not really.

Am I a winner and should know the answer to everything that confuses me? Yes.

Is there a contradiction or a problem? No, there never is a problem.

Am I dumb4ss? If I choose to engage with other people = Yes.

So it is what it is

Why does engaging with people make you a dumbass? I think it’s just being human ....

This will take way too long to explain, so I'll use an example, read between the lines if you can.

A while back I was walking around my city and getting drunk..and one candidate for some party, was trying to get elected - so he handed me his flier, with his face on it and his #..like candidate 161 or whatever...

I was a bit drunk, yet I was curious, so I asked him.."what are your visions for change?"..

He started telling me some sh1t about "well, first I'd consult our team and.." .....

I asked him again, "Fk all that - what are your visions..where are you going with this, what are you gonna change"..

The dude got lost and in 2 seconds I hear him say "...I don't understand..well thank you it was a nice meeting you"...

This pretty much sums up how I view humanity now...and this dude was trying to get into parlament.

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I don't know why I don't get notifications when you reply to me but whatever.

There's way too much to explain but, I'll say it like this: Anything I know = You can know too.

And this is how I did it.

Take a pen and paper, calm your mind, be alone and write down your question and wait for the answer...instantly write down any answer you get, regardless if you think it doesn't make sense...it may be leading up to something.

It doesn't matter how stupid the question is, because - the broader the question = the more it shows that you don't know what you're talking about/i.e. asking...however, here's the good thing:

God/Universe/whatever you wanna call it: Will answer you.

It will answer you in the exact same way that mirrors your question, so if the question is broad, for example: "what is the meaning of life"....you can get an answer "to live"...ok...from that, you ask another question "what do you mean by live"...then you will get another answer...and it's basically throwing the ball back and forth..

It becomes easier as you will gain more knowledge+understanding=Wisdom.

Pretty soon you'll be connected to God 100% and know exactly the questions to ask and in what order to put the words to make the sentence, in order to get a crystal clear answer back.

It may be hard at first but trust me - it's worth it.

Not sure what else to say at this point.
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I personally feel like as a kid, teenager and in my 20’s I had a sign on my forehead that read “please come to me and share all your wisdom”

Because I was always getting advice from my mother, maternal grandmother, friends of my moms, my dance teachers, my school teachers, my boyfriend’s moms, my co-worker friends and college friends that were 10+ years older than me.

It wasn’t in a degrading or patronizing way, it always in a very loving way. Like they saw potential in me and trusted that I was wise enough to listen to such advice.

I always liked it. I loved talking about relationships, growth, dreams, goals… so I was always all ears and it was a great way to connect, and express ideas.

I didn’t feel I was in the dark, I felt like I had a huge support group.

I also try to help/mentor - but only if asked or I see that they need guidance I’ll open the topic to see if they want to talk about it.

Being a woman - everyone has a different idea based on background, history, their soul purpose. I loved learning such diverse ideas and out of that, creating my version of what it was/is to be a woman.

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Aju, don’t be so hard on yourself. No, I don’t think there is any shame in searching for guidance. If anything, I find it courageous especially when you say, men tend to have an ego block from daring to ask…. I’m sure some women also have this issue as well. I know a lot of women that don’t like to admit they don’t know something.

I felt a huge darkness after my uncle/godfather past away. Actually, within the last 5 years I have lost people that I was really close to and felt like they guided me. It wasn’t about being a woman but being an adult and the detailed responsibilities that go with it. I felt like I lost a lot of the people I trusted for that. And now I am feeling the pressure to remember all that they taught me.

It feels safe to have older people guide you with their wisdom. I always search for that… wisdom. There comes a time where it’s time for you to be that person, too - step up.

But for you, I see nothing wrong with searching for a mentor. I find it necessary, actually.
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In most cases I speak to myself. I cry to myself, and build myself up, or tear myself down. I'm like the worst pain, or best motivation to my own mental and even physical state. Sometimes I vent to people a bit, but realize the weight I carry is 100% going to burden them in ways. Even if it's subconsciously and they can't tell. Because of that I stay hidden with 90% 9f how I feel or what I'm going through. It is tough to swallow my feelings and pretend I'm better then I actually am, but rather feel that then watch the people at love suffer from my intense internal turmoil. I know I can't fix it, and don't expect others to fix it. Especially if I deeply love and respect them.

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I'm at the point were I don't need advice most of the time. Rather another perspective to help me sort through my head and make the choices already there.

I would like someone to be 100% with and vis versa. Sometimes. A Rock needs thier own rock.

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Burden?

I'm the kind of person total strangers randomly tell me thier life story, emotional struggles, and worries. It can be inconvenient but never a burden. Because I do not internalize and take on their problems. I have no right nor been given a invitation.

Even then sometimes I need someone to help me sort things out when I become too emotional. To me that is the key to be more self reliant. Better understanding of yourself and emotions. As well as, what someone mentioned before, talking to yourself objectively. Journaling and remote writing works great.
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In most cases I speak to myself. I cry to myself, and build myself up, or tear myself down. I'm like the worst pain, or best motivation to my own mental and even physical state. Sometimes I vent to people a bit, but realize the weight I carry is 100% going to burden them in ways. Even if it's subconsciously and they can't tell. Because of that I stay hidden with 90% 9f how I feel or what I'm going through. It is tough to swallow my feelings and pretend I'm better then I actually am, but rather feel that then watch the people at love suffer from my intense internal turmoil. I know I can't fix it, and don't expect others to fix it. Especially if I deeply love and respect them.

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I do talk to my turantula, but not in the same way I talk to my dog. I absolutely love my dog, and she responds back to me with love and care. The turantula don't really know I exist, but they hold another aspect that relieves stress and anxiety. I find them misunderstood, and mostly they just want to be left alone. There is no aggressive turantula, only evasive and defensive. I can relate to them in ways, but also just feeding and maintaining/ being creative and setting up enclosures is a hobby by itself. It could be the worst day ever and the second I look into an enclosure and see my turantula thriving I'm left in awe. Also taking a spiderling the size of a fingernail and growing it up to a 5 to 10 inch turantula is amazing to me. So while my turantula aren't cuddly and aren't going to show the same type of affection like my dog, they do many other things that make me feel at ease.