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E. M. Henderson
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I wanna throw up when I see a man all boo'd up on his girl.. I wanna fuckin scream when I see a guy put a woman on the biggest pedistal. I hate when I'm kickin it with my uncle and he rather ignore a conversation with me during this smoke session to talk to "his baby". I say man, get off the phone, tell her you'll call her back.. He tells me "nah, this my baby right here. I can't tell her I'll call her back".. And just says it in the cheesiest fuckin voice. Blowing kisses, sending pictures.. Man.. She also was clearly trynna get off the phone.. I ain't never wanna slap somebody so bad.

It repulses to see people say I love you.. I don't know exactly why, it's just words that I fuckin HATE.. I really hate those words, it's to a point of disgust. I don't even like seeing couples... It makes me wanna yell out "she flirts with her co worker, bruh".. Or "you're only still with him because he cheats on you and you wanna be good enough.."

It's just sick to me. I'm not on some "I'll never love again" shit, cuz if I do end up falling for somebody, I'ma make sure good and well that she's way into it and can't see herself with anyone else.

I also dislike marriage, I hate when people flirt with me, I hate fake proposals to show attraction for me.. I've got fake proposals before, and I play along to show I'm not dead inside, but whole time.. I just wanna go "please stop".. I hate it. I think marriage is an obvious scam. Divorce rates has been higher than ever. I believe as soon as you tell a woman "let's get married", she knows she has you in the palm of her hands, and she's already plotting how she's gonna leave your ass.. And get the money.

I ain't saying there is no such thing as love, but even the seemingly happiest couple are just trynna ride it out.

I'm affectionate, but not lovey dovey.. I don't know how to make love, I don't even know what the fuck that shit even means.. When I envision it, I imagine missionary.. And right then, I'm already done with the idea of that.

I think these guys need help out here, I find most women devilish bitches but so attractive. I just think the player life for me, I'm not very good as a parent.. I've always been too available or not available enough. I'm better off establishing plates and casual encounters..

Now, if one of my how's fall for me, I will do my best to love her back but no.. I can't commit. She would really have to prove herself worthy if being my main chick.

Ask me why he hasn't committed to you? Something along the lines of not trusting you.



Also, I'm realizing.. Having a girlfriend is a process.

You have to groom her, train her, keep boundaries, make her submit to keylogger on ALL her devices.. And remember, she can't be left to her own devices.

So it's definitely a process and can turn into a chore... Trynna keep a woman, trynna be "in love".
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I agree with you, marriage for the most part doesn't work anymore-- but i think ppl are now finding their own definition of marriage. It sounds like you view a relationship as a chore, but maybe it would help to not "keep" a woman, but rather simply be with a woman.
"Being" with her is the quickest way to lose her.. But "keeping" her is keeping her loyal, keeping her happy, keeping up some game. "Keeping" is a calculation of what to do and what not to do. Women definitely have to handled.. One wrong move can lead to irreversible turn offs.
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I agree with you, marriage for the most part doesn't work anymore-- but i think ppl are now finding their own definition of marriage. It sounds like you view a relationship as a chore, but maybe it would help to not "keep" a woman, but rather simply be with a woman.
"Being" with her is the quickest way to lose her.. But "keeping" her is keeping her loyal, keeping her happy, keeping up some game. "Keeping" is a calculation of what to do and what not to do. Women definitely have to handled.. One wrong move can lead to irreversible turn offs.
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Let me ask you, do you approach your friendships with the same kind of calculation? It just seems to me we know how to be friends, then sex and romance is added to the equation and we end up making gordian knots...
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This is exactly what makes me throw up
What about it makes you throw up?

Methinks you haven't watched this dark tale.
Well, I couldn't finish it.. I think it was the cheese.
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I listened to this song multiple times without really listening to it. I always thought it was some sultry romantic shit until I spaced out and just sort of found myself drifting in and seeing. The video does not do justice what you can do in your imagination.



Anyways, just thought I would feed your angst so you can get this shit out of your system. It doesn't do you good to let it fester, but you definitely should allow yourself to go through all the crazy emotions first, relish the rage and pain, so you can eventually lay it to rest.
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This is exactly what makes me throw up
What about it makes you throw up?

Methinks you haven't watched this dark tale.
Well, I couldn't finish it.. I think it was the cheese.
I listened to this song multiple times without really listening to it. I always thought it was some sultry romantic shit until I spaced out and just sort of found myself drifting in and seeing. The video does not do justice what you can do in your imagination.



Anyways, just thought I would feed your angst so you can get this shit out of your system. It doesn't do you good to let it fester, but you definitely should allow yourself to go through all the crazy emotions first, relish the rage and pain, so you can my lay it to rest.
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Look, baby. I'ma muddafuckin thug.

"As soon as I saw her, I knew she was "the one".

You gotta stop trollin me. "The one" is a fuckin myth..

Any guy that says that is just on some bullshit.. it's no helping. I cut it off right there.. won't be returning, and I don't see how this helps me.. Don't really need it either.
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Here you go.


This is exactly what makes me throw up
What about it makes you throw up?

Methinks you haven't watched this dark tale.
Well, I couldn't finish it.. I think it was the cheese.
I listened to this song multiple times without really listening to it. I always thought it was some sultry romantic shit until I spaced out and just sort of found myself drifting in and seeing. The video does not do justice what you can do in your imagination.



Anyways, just thought I would feed your angst so you can get this shit out of your system. It doesn't do you good to let it fester, but you definitely should allow yourself to go through all the crazy emotions first, relish the rage and pain, so you can my lay it to rest.
Look, baby. I'ma muddafuckin thug.

"As soon as I saw her, I knew she was "the one".

You gotta stop trollin me. "The one" is a fuckin myth..

Any guy that says that is just on some bullshit.. it's no helping. I cut it off right there.. won't be returning, and I don't see how this helps me.. Don't really need it either.
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LOL

Okay this is why I kept thinking it was a love song, too. I was wrong, though.

This is a song about murder.
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E. M. Henderson
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Here you go.


This is exactly what makes me throw up
What about it makes you throw up?

Methinks you haven't watched this dark tale.
Well, I couldn't finish it.. I think it was the cheese.
I listened to this song multiple times without really listening to it. I always thought it was some sultry romantic shit until I spaced out and just sort of found myself drifting in and seeing. The video does not do justice what you can do in your imagination.



Anyways, just thought I would feed your angst so you can get this shit out of your system. It doesn't do you good to let it fester, but you definitely should allow yourself to go through all the crazy emotions first, relish the rage and pain, so you can my lay it to rest.
Look, baby. I'ma muddafuckin thug.

"As soon as I saw her, I knew she was "the one".

You gotta stop trollin me. "The one" is a fuckin myth..

Any guy that says that is just on some bullshit.. it's no helping. I cut it off right there.. won't be returning, and I don't see how this helps me.. Don't really need it either.
LOL

Okay this is why I kept thinking it was a love song, too. I was wrong, though.

This is a song about murder.
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Damn.
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I agree with you, marriage for the most part doesn't work anymore-- but i think ppl are now finding their own definition of marriage. It sounds like you view a relationship as a chore, but maybe it would help to not "keep" a woman, but rather simply be with a woman.
"Being" with her is the quickest way to lose her.. But "keeping" her is keeping her loyal, keeping her happy, keeping up some game. "Keeping" is a calculation of what to do and what not to do. Women definitely have to handled.. One wrong move can lead to irreversible turn offs.
Let me ask you, do you approach your friendships with the same kind of calculation? It just seems to me we know how to be friends, then sex and romance is added to the equation and we end up making gordian knots...

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I strongly believe in gaming friends so SKKRRRR.
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Here you go.


This is exactly what makes me throw up
What about it makes you throw up?

Methinks you haven't watched this dark tale.
Well, I couldn't finish it.. I think it was the cheese.
I listened to this song multiple times without really listening to it. I always thought it was some sultry romantic shit until I spaced out and just sort of found myself drifting in and seeing. The video does not do justice what you can do in your imagination.



Anyways, just thought I would feed your angst so you can get this shit out of your system. It doesn't do you good to let it fester, but you definitely should allow yourself to go through all the crazy emotions first, relish the rage and pain, so you can my lay it to rest.
Look, baby. I'ma muddafuckin thug.

"As soon as I saw her, I knew she was "the one".

You gotta stop trollin me. "The one" is a fuckin myth..

Any guy that says that is just on some bullshit.. it's no helping. I cut it off right there.. won't be returning, and I don't see how this helps me.. Don't really need it either.
LOL

Okay this is why I kept thinking it was a love song, too. I was wrong, though.

This is a song about murder.
Damn.

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On the third day he took me to the river

He showed me the roses and we kissed

And the last thing I heard was a muttered word

As he stood smiling above me with a rock in his fist
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Were you not loved as a child? Is that why you hate the words I love you and why you dislike seeing affection? Why are you so preoccupied with what strangers do regarding their romantic life? No one is making you subscribe to the ideals of marriage, you are free to pursue any type of relationship that you want the way you want. I agree with @hydorah, the way you write this out makes it sound like you think your shit don’t stink. And what’s that nonsense about having a girlfriend is a process because you have to groom her? Do you have to train your women like some kind of dog? Man oh man you are some work.
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Were you not loved as a child? Is that why you hate the words I love you and why you dislike seeing affection? Why are you so preoccupied with what strangers do regarding their romantic life? No one is making you subscribe to the ideals of marriage, you are free to pursue any type of relationship that you want the way you want. I agree with @hydorah, the way you write this out makes it sound like you think your shit don’t stink. And what’s that nonsense about having a girlfriend is a process because you have to groom her? Do you have to train your women like some kind of dog? Man oh man you are some work.
Yup. Train a woman like a dog.. Not ashamed to say that, and it works. I don't care what strangers do, I just fuckin hate seeing it.. And that's okay, I can be grossed out by whatever I want. It's not my choice what makes me puke, same as being repulsed by anything else.. Not your choice.

Just like nobody is making me "subscribe to ideals of marriage", nobody is making you "subscribe" to my ideals either.. So live and let live. Not trynna hear that bullshit. That's the way I see things and you can either join me or ignore me.
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Were you not loved as a child? Is that why you hate the words I love you and why you dislike seeing affection? Why are you so preoccupied with what strangers do regarding their romantic life? No one is making you subscribe to the ideals of marriage, you are free to pursue any type of relationship that you want the way you want. I agree with @hydorah, the way you write this out makes it sound like you think your shit don’t stink. And what’s that nonsense about having a girlfriend is a process because you have to groom her? Do you have to train your women like some kind of dog? Man oh man you are some work.
Yup. Train a woman like a dog.. Not ashamed to say that, and it works. I don't care what strangers do, I just fuckin hate seeing it.. And that's okay, I can be grossed out by whatever I want. It's not my choice what makes me puke, same as being repulsed by anything else.. Not your choice.

Just like nobody is making me "subscribe to ideals of marriage", nobody is making you "subscribe" to my ideals either.. So live and let live. Not trynna hear that bullshit. That's the way I see things and you can either join me or ignore me.
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Alright I wasn’t trying to challenge your ideals like I said do what works for you and honestly I wasn’t going to say anything but I had something to say, so why not? I was just trying to figure out if there was some underlying cause for why you are repulsed by I love yous and affection but I guess you just are and you’re right, that is okay. I am not trying to subscribe to your ideals however that doesn’t mean I can’t disagree with them. I think it’s just sad how you view women as some sub human species that you have to put your collar around to show ownership. If you didn’t want to hear my bullshit then you should have specified what kind of responses you do and don’t want and I would’ve been on my merry way out of here.
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Here you go.


This is exactly what makes me throw up
What about it makes you throw up?

Methinks you haven't watched this dark tale.
Well, I couldn't finish it.. I think it was the cheese.
I listened to this song multiple times without really listening to it. I always thought it was some sultry romantic shit until I spaced out and just sort of found myself drifting in and seeing. The video does not do justice what you can do in your imagination.



Anyways, just thought I would feed your angst so you can get this shit out of your system. It doesn't do you good to let it fester, but you definitely should allow yourself to go through all the crazy emotions first, relish the rage and pain, so you can my lay it to rest.
Look, baby. I'ma muddafuckin thug.

"As soon as I saw her, I knew she was "the one".

You gotta stop trollin me. "The one" is a fuckin myth..

Any guy that says that is just on some bullshit.. it's no helping. I cut it off right there.. won't be returning, and I don't see how this helps me.. Don't really need it either.
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My dad said this about my Mum when he was 15....he knew she was "the one"

They were together over 40 years and he was always deeply in love with her

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It seems like you're very controlling, Your just gonna have to find a girl that feels safe with that type of treatment and then that will probably make you feel safe as well.

But your also your worst enemy because you seem to have too many negative thoughts of past situation that influence your current situations.

You seem to have a hatred of women a little too. Did you not have a mom when you were younger?

I lost my mom at 4, she died of a drug overdose. -Don't mind me, I'm just listing out my thoughts of what I read.

Anyways. Here is a song that I love listening to. It always makes me cry though lol Kehani- Letter. You can google her issues with her mom, if you want, I don't want to list it all here.

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But your also your worst enemy because you seem to have too many negative thoughts of past situation that influence your current situations.

You seem to have a hatred of women a little too. Did you not have a mom when you were younger?


You know, this is true. At 21(if the age in his handle is true) I saw relationships through my parent's experience.
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E. M. Henderson
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Lolz @ make her submit to keylogger on ALL her devices
seems perfectly normal to meeee.

i also make her wear a chastity belt whenever we're not around each other.

and also check the miles on her car daily.

that's normal... right?
Her panties should also be sniffed every time she leaves the house too...even if she's just checking the mail or taking out the trash.

i never even thought about that. great idea!

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Y'all are fuckin lame...

It's not applied to every girl I meet, just one that is ready for a relationship, if I'm even ready myself.

The conversation should go "you know what, if this is what I have to do to gain your trust and be your girl, then I'll do it because I'm ready."

No one is pointing a gun to her damn head.. That's her decision if she think she's ready.
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About your uncle... you should know he’s gonna drop whatever he’s doing for the person sucking his dick.
That's the thing.. She don't suck shit that belong to him.. I can see this man just prying at her, and even I feel her pushing away so I know he can too.

She don't even come alone when she spends the night, he be trynna get some ass and the bitch brings her damn 5 y/o daughter with her to lay in the bed with them..

I know what I be talking about. He's way too into her.
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Posted by saggurl88
It seems like you're very controlling, Your just gonna have to find a girl that feels safe with that type of treatment and then that will probably make you feel safe as well.

But your also your worst enemy because you seem to have too many negative thoughts of past situation that influence your current situations.

You seem to have a hatred of women a little too. Did you not have a mom when you were younger?

I lost my mom at 4, she died of a drug overdose. -Don't mind me, I'm just listing out my thoughts of what I read.

Anyways. Here is a song that I love listening to. It always makes me cry though lol Kehani- Letter. You can google her issues with her mom, if you want, I don't want to list it all here.


I'm not controlling, I could give a fuck less what these bitches do.. They ain't my fuckin woman and that is surely a good thing.

But if a woman steps to me talkin about she wanna be my girl, there are just a few steps she gotta take.. I'm not desperate.. I don't need no chick.. So how bad do you want it? You wanna gain my trust? My girlfriend can't do whatever the fuck she wants, and if the girl is okay with that just to be with me.. Then it's not so bad.

Sorry to hear about ya mom.

No I don't hate women but they are getting out of "control", in their own way.. And I'm not falling for their bullshit like everyone else.. Somebody gotta keep a foot on a bitch neck and I'll happily be that person.. Some women NEED this and prefer this, they prolly would never say it out loud but maybe we wouldn't have so much drama.

I had my momma growing up.. I just was a middle child and you know how that goes.
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It seems like you're very controlling, Your just gonna have to find a girl that feels safe with that type of treatment and then that will probably make you feel safe as well.

But your also your worst enemy because you seem to have too many negative thoughts of past situation that influence your current situations.

You seem to have a hatred of women a little too. Did you not have a mom when you were younger?

I lost my mom at 4, she died of a drug overdose. -Don't mind me, I'm just listing out my thoughts of what I read.

Anyways. Here is a song that I love listening to. It always makes me cry though lol Kehani- Letter. You can google her issues with her mom, if you want, I don't want to list it all here.


I'm not controlling, I could give a fuck less what these bitches do.. They ain't my fuckin woman and that is surely a good thing.

But if a woman steps to me talkin about she wanna be my girl, there are just a few steps she gotta take.. I'm not desperate.. I don't need no chick.. So how bad do you want it? You wanna gain my trust? My girlfriend can't do whatever the fuck she wants, and if the girl is okay with that just to be with me.. Then it's not so bad.

Sorry to hear about ya mom.

No I don't hate women but they are getting out of "control", in their own way.. And I'm not falling for their bullshit like everyone else.. Somebody gotta keep a foot on a bitch neck and I'll happily be that person.. Some women NEED this and prefer this, they prolly would never say it out loud but maybe we wouldn't have so much drama.

I had my momma growing up.. I just was a middle child and you know how that goes.
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lol You treat women this way and have no real childhood issues? lol

I'm with you on people doing what the fuck they want. Show me exactly what I need to see and be true to yourself. Then I will decide whether you are worthy of me or not lol

People are so surprised when I cut their ass off for playing games. I tried to warn them! 😆
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About your uncle... you should know he’s gonna drop whatever he’s doing for the person sucking his dick.
That's the thing.. She don't suck shit that belong to him.. I can see this man just prying at her, and even I feel her pushing away so I know he can too.

She don't even come alone when she spends the night, he be trynna get some ass and the bitch brings her damn 5 y/o daughter with her to lay in the bed with them..

I know what I be talking about. He's way too into her.
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Oh ok, I see. He's into her cause she's not putting out. Once she does he'll prolly loose interest. Either way, what does it cost you to be happy for him?