Now she won't text me back. Guess that was a bad move. I'm just so sick of these relationships where new people want go so fast out of fear of wasting time. It's impossible for me to develop the trust and respect required to actually commit. Most people don't understand this. It happens to me all the time. I have sex way to quick in the relationship, and they fall in love. Calling me big man, godly, and all this other stuff just makes me sick and want to run. I wish this was bragging and fake, but it's not. Sex has ruined every one of my relationships. It's a curse more the anything. The week went fine till she started asking me a bunch of questions about myself. Like she expected me to be some magical human perfect in every department. I'm just a normal person, and like normal things. My dates always blow my ego up to a point it's not even truly me anymore. She is an Aries with Taurus moon, I'm a Leo with Scorpio moon. I just want things to just happen over time, she wants things to instantly happen. I probably blew it by saying how I truly feel. Every human always wants to pry me for information, and when I finally crack they can't take what I have to say. I can't find a woman to put effort and time into, just ones who either give me absolutely nothing, or 100% of them. Idk what's worse a person that gives you nothing, or a person who bows down to you for the wrong reasons. Why can't there every be a middle in my life? There is no balance, just nothing or chaos.
