Maianm's Breakdown (Page 12)

no - I listen.

instant gratification is the worse kind because it never lasts, so stop waiting for instant gratification and enjoy the ride to satisfaction.

instant gratification has nothing to do with it.

All of Gods great people had to be alone, many times they needed it in order to hear from him and fulfil purpose, tho it isnt always fun alone time and lonliness serve a purpose. I know it doesnt feel fair, but remember karma and remember that everything has its pay off

....instant gratification has everything to do with it. This whole convo is centered around you not having what you want and deserve and how it makes you feel. Everyone gets what they deserve in life good or bad, so you can expect that you'll get it, but saying that isnt enough because you want it now.

we're gonna have to start Mai a new board

I'm not looking for instant gratification - I know you're trying to help me see the positive and have faith - but honestly there are things I just don't want to get into, I can't believe I've just sat here and poured my heart out over probably like thirty pages - but trust me, I've had more than my fair share.....

sorry but we'll have to continue some other time if you feel up to it. I must sleep.

you arent looking for instant gratification but you're tired of waiting? The only thing you wont have to wait for is instant gratification and...if you dont want that then you're saying you're willing to wait so...

I don't know what you mean by that notso - but that whole making yourself happy and you can't love someone else if you don't love yourself stuff is just a canned answer..... I love myself just fine - and I'm happy with myself - but I alone am not enough.

"no man is an island"

having a breaking point is not the same as instant gratification

I hope you feel better in the morning and stop thinking so hard and let things happen. they will and dont worry about the pages, most people wont even know they're there

a breaking point? is that like a deadline...because the closer you get to a deadline the more instant something is going to have to be to satisfy it.

I don't like getting all emotional and exposing my insecurities like this - sleep is a good idea.

i guess thats irrelevant tho, you'll get over this breaking point and set a new one and life goes on. Just keep going and the cycle begins again, maybe it wont reach this point next time before something shakes it up. Im off to bed

what exactly do you consider instant?

by that theory I could wait 50 years and you would still call it instant....

yeah - I need sleep.....but thanks for listening.

goodnight

so true.