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Posted by GetMistedSometimes that happens to me, only its wondering how I got to work.
I sometimes wake up in the morning with all the lights on, contacts in, nexflix still playing.. and wonder how I got to my bed.




Posted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years

Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those yearsclick to expand

Posted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
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Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
click to expand

Posted by brianafayI had a friend who was raped at a party, she blacked out and could remember none of it but waking up in a strangers bed with vomit down her chest and no panties was a good indicator.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
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Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayI had a friend who was raped at a party, she blacked out and could remember none of it but waking up in a strangers bed with vomit down her chest and no panties was a good indicator.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
Took her to the hospital for a rape kit, filed charges, the whole 9 yards...didn't do any good. The police totally slut shamed her as well. It's such bullshit.click to expand

Posted by andswhoPosted by brianafayWhen I drank my Heineken the other day I forgot to lock my doorPosted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
Omg I could have been raped
I have 2 female neighbors next door
Close callclick to expand

Posted by -Roman-
I rarely ever have memory loss while drinking. A couple of months ago however it happened. I had a ton of shots that night and I normally don't allow myself to take shots, it inhibits my ability to control how much I drink etc however friends of mine who are Leo's are insanely insistent and bothersome.
Anyway I had some shots. Got wasted. Intentionally ran into an ex (my friends intended this to happen) went to a party and drank even more, got some food, went to my exes with my good friend and her side hoe and we all are and had more drinks and the sun was coming up and they slipped off to the office section of his hotel suit and we kinda had some shit go down.
Next day he was in the shower and I was up running around with a sheet on attempting to find the condom. ?
We talked about it afterwards and he said that he knows we used one but has no idea where it is. I jumped in the shower and checked lol and obviously not there but I had to and I was so freaked out because I know that he's capable of cumming even if he's drunk.
Anyway there's huge memory loss in there. I know the basics of what I did but barely anything in between. I have this thing where lol I send myself text messages to let myself know where I am and where I'm going and who I'm with etc when I go out drinking. I do it because if something happens or I'm lost or anything really I want my dad to track my timeline.
Once that huge memory loss happened that night. I sat in my bedroom later after a second shower and I felt tremendous guilt and humiliation. I shouldn't drink to that point and I should control how much I drink and not allow friends to influence that. It was at that moment that I really decided to not drink anymore. I'm happy I don't need alcohol in my life anymore to have fun.
Still never found out of we used a condom. He claims we did but I have a feeling we didn't. I got tested for stds and it's clear and I'm not pregnant so I guess that's good ?
Getting that drunk is risky for a woman. So many things can be done to you. It's a scary thought.

Posted by 5TwentyOneIt's ok everyone's laughed at a Bill Cosby jokePosted by brianafayThat's horrible. Now I feel completely disconnected from my good parts because of my crass Bill Cosby joke.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayI had a friend who was raped at a party, she blacked out and could remember none of it but waking up in a strangers bed with vomit down her chest and no panties was a good indicator.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
Took her to the hospital for a rape kit, filed charges, the whole 9 yards...didn't do any good. The police totally slut shamed her as well. It's such bullshit.
It's bad ?
Same with my friend - it was a guy she had just recently started seeing ...he was a very respected law student.
She woke up naked in bed the next day and when she texted him and tried to fish for what happened he said "don't worry, nothing you'd regret" with a fucking wink face!!!!
Still makes my blood boil thinking about it
She could have gotten seriously ill too because she was on her cycle and had a tampon in and it was pushed up inside her for 5 days before she figured it out - that was her solid confirmation of what happened and she still refused to go to the cops
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Posted by MaxPowerSorry, I tried... having technical difficulties.Posted by VenusAquariusCan we see your chart as well? Let's see if there is a pattern with this "black-out anger".
I started blacking out due to anger... but, fear of loosing the fight brought me back.
Then, liquor... woke up after a work function (on travel) leaning back on the very edge of my hotel bed w/toilet paper hanging out of my pants. I was in horror. Luckily, my girls had me... a Virgo (always) and a Sag.
It happens when I forget to eat first or during.
It's been a long time. I can see the curtains closing behind my eyes and I quickly exit stage left.
I am always in good company... fam and close friends.
That's why I love Elton John's "Someone Saved My Life Tonight." lolclick to expand

Posted by andswhoHow many male neighbors?Posted by brianafayWhen I drank my Heineken the other day I forgot to lock my doorPosted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
Omg I could have been raped
I have 2 female neighbors next door
Close callclick to expand

Posted by AfternoonDelights22LOL..
weak
Stick to soda pop

Posted by brianafayBlacking out is your brain's way of keeping you alive. It literally diverts all of its efforts from maintaining non vital tasks such as memory to keeping the rest of your body alive when you have too much alcohol in your system. It will maintain this until something is done to help stabilize/reduce the alcohol content in your body.
So I used to be super skeptical of people who claimed to "black out" while drinking and couldn't remember anything from the night before
(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home



Posted by GoateeguruPosted by brianafayI dont know if this was meant to be funny but i laughed the whole time i read it
So I used to be super skeptical of people who claimed to "black out" while drinking and couldn't remember anything from the night before
(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home
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Posted by ChuckcemThat's scary! That's what I was afraid ofPosted by brianafayBlacking out is your brain's way of keeping you alive. It literally diverts all of its efforts from maintaining non vital tasks such as memory to keeping the rest of your body alive when you have too much alcohol in your system. It will maintain this until something is done to help stabilize/reduce the alcohol content in your body.
So I used to be super skeptical of people who claimed to "black out" while drinking and couldn't remember anything from the night before
(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home
So basically blacking out is your brain's defense mechanism to keep you from killing yourself.click to expand

Posted by brianafayIf you're blacking out every time you drink, you're either drinking WAY too much, or your body has become drastically less resistant to the alcohol's affects (which is common more with age). This could also point to a weakened liver, since alcohol is still filtered through that organ. Give your body and break and allow yourself to recuperate.Posted by ChuckcemThat's scary! That's what I was afraid ofPosted by brianafayBlacking out is your brain's way of keeping you alive. It literally diverts all of its efforts from maintaining non vital tasks such as memory to keeping the rest of your body alive when you have too much alcohol in your system. It will maintain this until something is done to help stabilize/reduce the alcohol content in your body.
So I used to be super skeptical of people who claimed to "black out" while drinking and couldn't remember anything from the night before
(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home
So basically blacking out is your brain's defense mechanism to keep you from killing yourself.
I started having a sugar problem in the last couple years and have cut out almost all sugar besides natural sugar and I suspect that could be the cause
I swear I'm doneclick to expand

Posted by ChuckcemPosted by brianafayIf you're blacking out every time you drink, you're either drinking WAY too much, or your body has become drastically less resistant to the alcohol's affects (which is common more with age). This could also point to a weakened liver, since alcohol is still filtered through that organ. Give your body and break and allow yourself to recuperate.Posted by ChuckcemThat's scary! That's what I was afraid ofPosted by brianafayBlacking out is your brain's way of keeping you alive. It literally diverts all of its efforts from maintaining non vital tasks such as memory to keeping the rest of your body alive when you have too much alcohol in your system. It will maintain this until something is done to help stabilize/reduce the alcohol content in your body.
So I used to be super skeptical of people who claimed to "black out" while drinking and couldn't remember anything from the night before
(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home
So basically blacking out is your brain's defense mechanism to keep you from killing yourself.
I started having a sugar problem in the last couple years and have cut out almost all sugar besides natural sugar and I suspect that could be the cause
I swear I'm done
Also drinking Jack Daniels all day is a lot of alcohol for ANYONE. That's a feat I would pull in my 20s but definitely couldn't pull off now. Definitely pump your breaks on the alcohol and start taking milk thistle supplements to help maintain your liver's health. The last thing you want is to contract is cirrhosis.click to expand

Posted by andswhosumbody gonna get probed
Umm... blackouts mean alien abduction

Posted by brianafayI had a friend with a similar issue. She'd drink, then stop, then her body would continue to become more inebriated regardless of when she stopped drinking. It was pretty wild.Posted by ChuckcemPosted by brianafayIf you're blacking out every time you drink, you're either drinking WAY too much, or your body has become drastically less resistant to the alcohol's affects (which is common more with age). This could also point to a weakened liver, since alcohol is still filtered through that organ. Give your body and break and allow yourself to recuperate.Posted by ChuckcemThat's scary! That's what I was afraid ofPosted by brianafayBlacking out is your brain's way of keeping you alive. It literally diverts all of its efforts from maintaining non vital tasks such as memory to keeping the rest of your body alive when you have too much alcohol in your system. It will maintain this until something is done to help stabilize/reduce the alcohol content in your body.
So I used to be super skeptical of people who claimed to "black out" while drinking and couldn't remember anything from the night before
(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home
So basically blacking out is your brain's defense mechanism to keep you from killing yourself.
I started having a sugar problem in the last couple years and have cut out almost all sugar besides natural sugar and I suspect that could be the cause
I swear I'm done
Also drinking Jack Daniels all day is a lot of alcohol for ANYONE. That's a feat I would pull in my 20s but definitely couldn't pull off now. Definitely pump your breaks on the alcohol and start taking milk thistle supplements to help maintain your liver's health. The last thing you want is to contract is cirrhosis.
Oh I rarely drink now as it is but yeah lately it's been every other time pretty much so I think I'm just done
I was only 25 or 26 for the JD incident and that won't be happening again
Really the more I think about it it probably is linked to my sugar problem because even though I try to only drink clear liquor, like vodka and soda, that's still a lot of sugarclick to expand



Posted by LibraLovesHimGood to know!!
Google it. Alcohol toxins in the brain block the memory part. It is very real and very common.

Posted by Eddie_VanjoviI know my limit.. I've never been "THAT" girl.. Sloppy, falling all over the place, throwing up on everything and everyone.. NEVER ever.. I drink STRONG liquor too... But once I drank a whole 5th of henny during my friend's Bachelorette party and I didn't remember ANYTHING they said I did the next day.. It was hilarious but damn.. & I didn't throw up.. or anything like that.. I walked in my hotel room fine.. without help.. I just forgot shit.. lol
Why do people drink in excess and not know their limits? Someone doesn't force you to drink THAT much.

Posted by brianafay
But did I kill a part of my brain? because prior to the JD incident I never blacked out and I drank myself straight retarded quite a few times and weighed like 100 lbs back then
Now it happens like every time man
Am I just getting old ? ?

Posted by MaxPower
Just for the sake of making sure we're all on the same page, there's a difference between the body shutting your shit down and causing you to fall into a deep "black-out" type sleep from drinking too much. That's what happens to less experienced drinkers.
A true "black-out" is when you keep going. My friend's dad was arrested once for a busted taillight. The police didn't even suspect he was drunk until they caught wind of his breath. He passed the drunk test, but he blew a .4, which would kill many people. He didn't remember anything the next day.


Posted by Eddie_VanjoviI understand exactly where you are coming from which is why I insure when I drink like that, I am with friends or family that I can truly trust.. Because you are bound to make some eff'd up decisions under the influence of alcohol.. I always make sure at least someone that I'm with will say, "NO!" for me if I can't do so myself and will protect me if need be..Posted by poison_ivyTo me (not your situation), but these positions that people put themselves in always ends in trouble. It's like you know you're going to walk into a minefield when there is a safe, but longer passage around the minefield, but you decide to go threw and you hit a landmine.Posted by Eddie_VanjoviI know my limit.. I've never been "THAT" girl.. Sloppy, falling all over the place, throwing up on everything and everyone.. NEVER ever.. I drink STRONG liquor too... But once I drank a whole 5th of henny during my friend's Bachelorette party and I didn't remember ANYTHING they said I did the next day.. It was hilarious but damn.. & I didn't throw up.. or anything like that.. I walked in my hotel room fine.. without help.. I just forgot shit.. lol
Why do people drink in excess and not know their limits? Someone doesn't force you to drink THAT much.
These are situations that can easily be avoided. But what these people do, when they take advantage of you from your mistake, is absolutely sickening beyond words.
This is off topic, but it's like abortions. To me, I'm usually for it. Rape victims, if you can't support the child, etc., it seems logical to me to not bring a child in this world if you're going to only make their lives worse. But one argument my friend made was simple: "condoms". The resources for safe sex is there. Knowing the consequences, you chose to do something stupid and ended up having to take a rather big responsibility.
Again, I'm not "blaming" them for what happened to them. But I do find it stupid people would knowingly put themselves in these situations.click to expand


Posted by Eddie_VanjoviPosted by poison_ivyTo me (not your situation), but these positions that people put themselves in always ends in trouble. It's like you know you're going to walk into a minefield when there is a safe, but longer passage around the minefield, but you decide to go threw and you hit a landmine.Posted by Eddie_VanjoviI know my limit.. I've never been "THAT" girl.. Sloppy, falling all over the place, throwing up on everything and everyone.. NEVER ever.. I drink STRONG liquor too... But once I drank a whole 5th of henny during my friend's Bachelorette party and I didn't remember ANYTHING they said I did the next day.. It was hilarious but damn.. & I didn't throw up.. or anything like that.. I walked in my hotel room fine.. without help.. I just forgot shit.. lol
Why do people drink in excess and not know their limits? Someone doesn't force you to drink THAT much.
These are situations that can easily be avoided. But what these people do, when they take advantage of you from your mistake, is absolutely sickening beyond words.
This is off topic, but it's like abortions. To me, I'm usually for it. Rape victims, if you can't support the child, etc., it seems logical to me to not bring a child in this world if you're going to only make their lives worse. But one argument my friend made was simple: "condoms". The resources for safe sex is there. Knowing the consequences, you chose to do something stupid and ended up having to take a rather big responsibility.
Again, I'm not "blaming" them for what happened to them. But I do find it stupid people would knowingly put themselves in these situations.click to expand



Posted by AndalusiaI know how I got to work - I just don't know how I worked! ?Posted by GetMistedSometimes that happens to me, only its wondering how I got to work.
I sometimes wake up in the morning with all the lights on, contacts in, nexflix still playing.. and wonder how I got to my bed.click to expand

Posted by MagicMonaThat figures!
i dont black out from drinks. i black out due to dangerously high levels of anger. seriously.

Posted by LadyNeptuneEverything for you has to do with sex.Posted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
click to expand

Posted by andswhoNot with that face!Posted by brianafayWhen I drank my Heineken the other day I forgot to lock my doorPosted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
Omg I could have been raped
I have 2 female neighbors next door
Close callclick to expand

Posted by andswhoPlastic surgery! Never crossed your mind?Posted by Gemitati😭Posted by andswhoNot with that face!Posted by brianafayWhen I drank my Heineken the other day I forgot to lock my doorPosted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafayNot at all. Just pointing out how scary it is to black out and have no knowledge of your own actions or others towards you.Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by brianafaySo you get how important it is to not fuck someone who is intoxicated. Since someone could have fucked you without your consent or knowledge...
It is the most unsettling thing ever
I feel so bad doubting and judging people all those years
Why are you even asking me that though ?
Is this side shade meant for another DXPer?
It really is so unsettling
But yeah a friend of mine was date raped in college and she never pressed charges because she blamed herself
She said "I was so fucked up, I probably wanted to"
Smh
Omg I could have been raped
I have 2 female neighbors next door
Close callclick to expand
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(excluding people who were legit drugged)
I thought it was just an escape/cope tactic...like "oh I don't remember the embarrassing shit you said I did so it never happened"
Then it happened to me...after drinking Jack Daniels all day at the pool a few years ago.
I literally lost 15 hours of my life. I saw pictures later and I swear it was like the Hangover ....I couldn't remember even being alive that day.
My question is - does anyone know why this happens? I feel like I killed a part of my brain or something because now I black out pretty much every time I drink more than a few drinks
It's disturbing !
I won't even know how I got home