
Yeah no, please. NO.




Posted by ImpulsvMy dad is also a Cancer survivor. Got the green light for remission in February this year. We also have a family friend who has been battling bile duct cancer for the last 3 years. It has gotten to a point where he will now try anything to find a cure.Posted by Ram416ThanksPosted by ImpulsvSurviving cancer is, in itself, very big battle won.Posted by Ram416Posted by ImpulsvYou're a cancer survivor, yes?
For me I've lost my desire
Seriously I want nothing
They are testing for promotions at work , not interested
Become rich, not interest
Be in a relationship not interested
I'm perfectly fine with my simple life but in a world that makes u feel u must reach for the stars
I'm over it.
My simple life I'm content yet I feel " is that wrong? "
Yes why? I feel guilty that I'm not reaching for those stars
But I'm perfectly content.
Like I'm wasting a life
That's my internal battle
So you shouldn't feel guilty at all, really. Put more emphasis on you being content with what you have - the most important one being your health.
I will vent my most recent transformational experience.
Last Friday I spoke with a coworker n story came up about her 40 year old cousin who had breast cancer n was in remission for three years. It seemed it had returned n only she knew the had told her she'd die n chemo would only slow the death. After her third chemo she could not return to work n that evening she called her loved ones saying she would not make it n made her goodbye . She died that morning
Now since my illness I've heard many people dying from it but until I heard this story it hit me. I thought " here I've been given several chances n yet I'm wasted my time being hurt over a man!" I'm not sure what touched my heart maybe because she said her goodbyes to loved ones! But I sobbed realizing the gift n opportunity I've been given. This could have been my result but it wasn't. N here I've been for years depressed over a man who could not love me. How foolish of me to waste my time any longer in pain. So I chose to be happy from this point. I'm no longer in pain over that man. In the big scheme of things he is so minuscule. It's stupid that all these years I could not get it through my thick head how lucky I've been. Not going to say wasted years being depressed as I turned inward n did do a lot healing .
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Posted by ImpulsvTrue that. Feeling like your at the top feels so much better when you've come from complete hell.Posted by SoulWell on the positive u can slowly get urself together . Once rock bottom there is only way up
*Sips dink*
To start I woke up today fucking Nancy Grey from down the street. Except it was a dream and Nancy Grey was my left hand. When I first rolled out of my bed to the floor I laid there a bit and thought about how much closer the gun was then my motivation. My stomach hurt, likely from all the lies I've been forced to eat my whole life, on top of chest pains likely from all the times my heart has been utterly broken. Realistically its likely from all the pot I've smoked, liquor I've drank, and food I've eaten to escape this tainted hell hole. Then I realize what a piece of shit I am. Fuck me right? I quit smoking a year ago, but gained so much weight I have stretch marks worse then any human I've ever seen. Just a disgusting pos all the way around.The dishes have piled up, the trash has piled up, my clothes are all dirty, and my fucking shower is leaking. The worst part is my life is so shitty the only place I get to talk about shitty it is dxpnet. A real black hole of a place. Then the people say "Right there, right fucking there, that's the completely fucked we know and love." Then they applaud like our shitty existence did something right. This topic didn't make me feel better, in fact I feel 1000 times worse. Fuck you and this thread. Fuck dxpnet, and fuck all of you watching too. Not just a little, but royally. Like so many fuck all of you it could fill an average sized Walmart. Nothing more, just an average Walmart.
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Posted by breterpanWeenies can be whiny?? :O
I was gonna bitch but before I started typing, I reverted to my introverted self who suppresses everything to avoid coming off as a whiny weenie hahaha




Posted by Feral_doeNah sorry I don't.
You suck.





Posted by dolluxeTell them that it doesn't matter since it's Facebook.
I swear to God workplace drama is draining!!! The minute I sat down on my desk I've had three employees come up to me complaining about their co-workers. Thing is, ALL THEIR SHIT AREN'T EVEN WORK-RELATED!!! It's Facebook catfighting!!!
I need a drink.



Posted by SagsagsagsFeel better sag lady
Why cant this stomachache go away!!! I want to sleep —?

Posted by RosaknowsyaYou said this very nicely! Good advice I hope she sees her value.Posted by MysticalSoul
I'm sick of people who are inconsistent. I realllly fuckin hate hot and cold behavior. You're either one way or you're not.. This guy i've been speaking to for years is a pain in the ass. I hate falling for someone because I dislike feeling vulnerable. I hate letting my guard down and trusting in people only to get burned in the end. I feel like love weakens me. It makes me feel alive but it also makes me feel..exposed. Hate it. I'd rather be alone. People suck. This guy seems to not take love seriously. He toys with it..
Gotta learn your own worth!
He doesn't define you but your letting him. Can't let another person control your emotions especially when it makes you feel this way. You chose to allow this so ask yourself why? Celebrate yo self! You are worthy! ?
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Posted by dolluxeWhy what's wrong ?
I'm very close to dumping the current Scorp. I can't stand mind games and I've learned a lot of lessons from the ex Scorp. I'm really, really close to walking away. I've no time for the same bullshit with a different man.


Posted by dolluxeHow long have you been dating him ?Posted by Mike79Mind games.. All sorts of mind games.. Thank God I dealt with a Scorp before him.. I'm still observing and if his behavior doesn't after I talk to him I'm walking away.Posted by dolluxeWhy what's wrong ?
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Posted by dolluxeI see how this is causing frustration. My advice would be to just speak to him about it & if he's not willing to give you what you need right now then it's time to let him go.Posted by Mike79It's only been three months. He's being distant cause he's sulking. He was so paranoid when I was sick for a week. I barely replied to his messages but that's cause I was stuck in bed with a fever at 104 degrees for three days!Posted by dolluxeHow long have you been dating him ?Posted by Mike79Mind games.. All sorts of mind games.. Thank God I dealt with a Scorp before him.. I'm still observing and if his behavior doesn't after I talk to him I'm walking away.Posted by dolluxeWhy what's wrong ?
I'm very close to dumping the current Scorp. I can't stand mind games and I've learned a lot of lessons from the ex Scorp. I'm really, really close to walking away. I've no time for the same bullshit with a different man.
What are the main things that irritate you ?
He's also disappeared on me for a few days. I know he's not doing anything behind my back but I can't deal with the flip flopping behavior.
Lastly, I'm not heavily invested into whatever this is that we have. I'd be lying if I say I don't have feelings for my ex scorp anymore. I'm still hurting from that break up and the current scorp's actions aren't helping.
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Posted by Mike79You, the skunk, and that other relationship desperate Libra should start a support group.
You are just so beautiful! But a pain in the butt!!! I'll just breathe & sleep on it.. tomorrow is another day .

Posted by dolluxeThree months is the magic number. This is the real dude you're dating. You're right to want to run, tbh, especially if he keeps this up after you talk to him.Posted by Mike79It's only been three months. He's being distant cause he's sulking. He was so paranoid when I was sick for a week. I barely replied to his messages but that's cause I was stuck in bed with a fever at 104 degrees for three days!Posted by dolluxeHow long have you been dating him ?Posted by Mike79Mind games.. All sorts of mind games.. Thank God I dealt with a Scorp before him.. I'm still observing and if his behavior doesn't after I talk to him I'm walking away.Posted by dolluxeWhy what's wrong ?
I'm very close to dumping the current Scorp. I can't stand mind games and I've learned a lot of lessons from the ex Scorp. I'm really, really close to walking away. I've no time for the same bullshit with a different man.
What are the main things that irritate you ?
He's also disappeared on me for a few days. I know he's not doing anything behind my back but I can't deal with the flip flopping behavior.
Lastly, I'm not heavily invested into whatever this is that we have. I'd be lying if I say I don't have feelings for my ex scorp anymore. I'm still hurting from that break up and the current scorp's actions aren't helping.
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Posted by rockyroadicecreamI was speaking about my mother.Posted by Mike79You, the skunk, and that other relationship desperate Libra should start a support group.
You are just so beautiful! But a pain in the butt!!! I'll just breathe & sleep on it.. tomorrow is another day .
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Posted by Mike79What does that have to do with anything?Posted by rockyroadicecreamI was speaking about my mother.Posted by Mike79You, the skunk, and that other relationship desperate Libra should start a support group.
You are just so beautiful! But a pain in the butt!!! I'll just breathe & sleep on it.. tomorrow is another day .
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Posted by dolluxePosted by rockyroadicecreamYeah my patience is running short. There's no way in hell I'm chasing a flaky dude. I'll talk to him over the weekend and if he doesn't change in a few days, I'm out.Posted by dolluxeThree months is the magic number. This is the real dude you're dating. You're right to want to run, tbh, especially if he keeps this up after you talk to him.Posted by Mike79It's only been three months. He's being distant cause he's sulking. He was so paranoid when I was sick for a week. I barely replied to his messages but that's cause I was stuck in bed with a fever at 104 degrees for three days!Posted by dolluxeHow long have you been dating him ?Posted by Mike79Mind games.. All sorts of mind games.. Thank God I dealt with a Scorp before him.. I'm still observing and if his behavior doesn't after I talk to him I'm walking away.Posted by dolluxeWhy what's wrong ?
I'm very close to dumping the current Scorp. I can't stand mind games and I've learned a lot of lessons from the ex Scorp. I'm really, really close to walking away. I've no time for the same bullshit with a different man.
What are the main things that irritate you ?
He's also disappeared on me for a few days. I know he's not doing anything behind my back but I can't deal with the flip flopping behavior.
Lastly, I'm not heavily invested into whatever this is that we have. I'd be lying if I say I don't have feelings for my ex scorp anymore. I'm still hurting from that break up and the current scorp's actions aren't helping.
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Posted by Rosaknowsya
Ever go through phases at work where you think you understand your coworkers and then BAM. Like a nose dive into despising them again?
I alternate between this with all three co workers, and I'm beginning to think it's not them, it's me. It's my mindset. I expect too much from them and I don't have to anymore.
What good does it do me to care how horrible they are at their job?
Zero.

Posted by Feral_doeHaha exactly.Posted by clippityclopI'm sure if you go over this thread in a few weeks -provided that it stays active for that long - you'll see that people vent about similar issues.Posted by Rosaknowsya
Ever go through phases at work where you think you understand your coworkers and then BAM. Like a nose dive into despising them again?
I alternate between this with all three co workers, and I'm beginning to think it's not them, it's me. It's my mindset. I expect too much from them and I don't have to anymore.
What good does it do me to care how horrible they are at their job?
Zero.
It happens with everyone I think. It's not a you problem!
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Posted by Feral_doeHelp her then.Posted by dolluxeRub one out.
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Posted by Capri-sunWhat is your moon and such??Posted by clippityclop
I am so full. I have been eating my emotions well and truly for the past two days like a true cancerian lady. I think I'm going to not eat for like a month now.
Also, why have I never gotten along with Capricorn females? And I don't think they like me either. I thought opposing signs were supposed to like eachother.
Opposite signs can be hit or miss. It takes a while to tap through the outer shell of a cap.
My best friend literally made me talk to her every day in class. I'm shy & quiet so I didn't want to. She just kept talking to me everyday faithfully lol
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Posted by Feral_doeThat was the point 😈Posted by Ram416Nooooo!Posted by Feral_doeHelp her then.Posted by dolluxeRub one out.
I can't sleep. FUCK.
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Posted by -elle-That must've been quite a roll in the hay 😉
😭
I woke up to him on top of me with all three comforters and just an inch to the edge.

Posted by dolluxeI was teasing @Feral_doe about her suggestion to you. lolPosted by Ram416Huh 😕
@dolluxe
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Posted by justagirlYou just want the Sag life.
Adulting is hard.....
Some days i just want to go back in time and have no worries of bills, no worries of being responsible, no worries of the pressure of making things happen at work..
i just want to be a kid, at the park or playground, running around, laughing and just enjoying life.

Posted by Ram416Mayybeee...ironically even with all my Saggie bits, i don't travel or go exploring all that much maybe i need too!Posted by justagirlYou just want the Sag life.
Adulting is hard.....
Some days i just want to go back in time and have no worries of bills, no worries of being responsible, no worries of the pressure of making things happen at work..
i just want to be a kid, at the park or playground, running around, laughing and just enjoying life.
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Posted by justagirlJust 33 days before you experience the Sag life!Posted by Ram416Mayybeee...ironically even with all my Saggie bits, i don't travel or go exploring all that much maybe i need too!Posted by justagirlYou just want the Sag life.
Adulting is hard.....
Some days i just want to go back in time and have no worries of bills, no worries of being responsible, no worries of the pressure of making things happen at work..
i just want to be a kid, at the park or playground, running around, laughing and just enjoying life.
I just have had soo much going on since April. i need a break.
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Posted by Ram41632 but who's counting! 😆Posted by justagirlJust 33 days before you experience the Sag life!Posted by Ram416Mayybeee...ironically even with all my Saggie bits, i don't travel or go exploring all that much maybe i need too!Posted by justagirlYou just want the Sag life.
Adulting is hard.....
Some days i just want to go back in time and have no worries of bills, no worries of being responsible, no worries of the pressure of making things happen at work..
i just want to be a kid, at the park or playground, running around, laughing and just enjoying life.
I just have had soo much going on since April. i need a break.
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