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Interested to see if there are other aquas out there who are either suffering from depression or anxiety or bit of both as I'm very fascinated at how our belief systems are formed especially how rooted and environmental they can be even if it appears to be malleable.

1. What is your general outlook on life

2. How would you describe yourself in the eyes of a stranger

3. Do you have a theory in how your belief systems formed

Obviously this is a safe space just keep the details impersonal unless you're really up for sharing but if you're like me some details are just better left out. I've just started seeing a psychologist after ignoring it for the better part of almost two decades and it's equally as interesting to see it through the lens of astrology.

Astrology or not I'd definitely like to hear some stories big or small. I think I've similar thread somewhere here in the past but many new faces and many new opinions and as always I prefer to start fresh.

Other signs feel free to chime in or even just to say hi. Just know that I'll be personally more interested in Aquarius + pisces placements as it has been shown in the past their thought process mirrors mine more closely.
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Interested to see if there are other aquas out there who are either suffering from depression or anxiety or bit of both as I'm very fascinated at how our belief systems are formed especially how rooted and environmental they can be even if it appears to be malleable.

1. What is your general outlook on life

2. How would you describe yourself in the eyes of a stranger

3. Do you have a theory in how your belief systems formed

Obviously this is a safe space just keep the details impersonal unless you're really up for sharing but if you're like me some details are just better left out. I've just started seeing a psychologist after ignoring it for the better part of almost two decades and it's equally as interesting to see it through the lens of astrology.

Astrology or not I'd definitely like to hear some stories big or small. I think I've similar thread somewhere here in the past but many new faces and many new opinions and as always I prefer to start fresh.

Other signs feel free to chime in or even just to say hi. Just know that I'll be personally more interested in Aquarius + pisces placements as it has been shown in the past their thought process mirrors mine more closely.
Interested to see the responses. My aqua ex had depression which drove him to alcoholism. My aqua bf just developed anxiety 3 weeks ago and now just recovering. He gets dizzy when he has his attacks. I want to understand it better in aqua perspective as I want to know what I can do for him.
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I feel that anxiety manifests itself differently I can talk more in depth about how my anxiety spawns from depression and vice versa but not anxiety by itself. It's great he has a support system in the form of you.

One thing that really hits home though is loss of control. As you know when you dwell in the depths too much you lose grip on reality and when you're no longer in control if who you are or at least the image of who you are to others it makes me super nervous at dealing with everything even so much as picking up a phone call. My dizziness is due to not being able to breathe and what helps is truly just reminding myself to breath.

You could really just make a joke and buy me a respirator or something lol. breeaaaathe.
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Posted by Seleukos
Aqua with clinical depression here.

Regarding your three questions:

1. Optimistic nihilism

2. Cold and uncaring

3. Mostly formed through constant deprivation in all possible areas

The relationship with my depression is weird and according to what therapists have said to me so far somewhat uniqe. I deal with it in a very detached, uncaring way and when it hits in form of grief or a physical form of panic attack it mostly happens as something that doesn't feel like it's a part of me.
That's very similar to how I would describe mine. Which I guess is what my therapist is trying to work out because I don't have a very deep emotional response to grief and loss either. When I tried to describe it I couldn't either. It really forced me to dig up the past to which I think we arrived at the conclusion that I was never given the chance to experience after an attachment.

But I'm interested in your optimistic nihilism, what drives you to move forward, what part of it is the optimistic.
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Hi Aquasnoz....long time no see. We joined the same year...I was Starlover...good to see you back

Sorry to read about your depression. I hope you find ways to manage it. Keep making music and talking about it. I sense you and seleukos will get on well?

If I remember correctly, you are Pisces dominant?

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Hey hey 🙂 Nice to see some old faces! Art and music are definitely my outlet and slowly getting back into it! I'm definitely pisces dominant which I suppose I should be thankful for as it almost lifts a bit of that stubbornness away haha. But I do wonder as I tend to analyse other aquas and most of them appear to have their head screwed on better!
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Aqua with clinical depression here.

Regarding your three questions:

1. Optimistic nihilism

2. Cold and uncaring

3. Mostly formed through constant deprivation in all possible areas

The relationship with my depression is weird and according to what therapists have said to me so far somewhat uniqe. I deal with it in a very detached, uncaring way and when it hits in form of grief or a physical form of panic attack it mostly happens as something that doesn't feel like it's a part of me.
That's very similar to how I would describe mine. Which I guess is what my therapist is trying to work out because I don't have a very deep emotional response to grief and loss either. When I tried to describe it I couldn't either. It really forced me to dig up the past to which I think we arrived at the conclusion that I was never given the chance to experience after an attachment.

But I'm interested in your optimistic nihilism, what drives you to move forward, what part of it is the optimistic.
I accept nihilism as a fact that can't be denied. There is no purpose, reason or cause but instead of feeling despair over it I see it as something positive. It is mostly based on Nietzsches concepts.

My problem is that there isn't much that drives me forward anymore. The only times I keep pushing forward is when I'm annoyed and act on emotions and instinct. Other than that I don't really care about this world anymore but this is not due to the nihilism part and more because of my displeasure with how humans act and behave.

My personal experiences with human beings only added onto that.
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Thanks for sharing! I appreciate the honesty here as a lot of people loves to fluff it up. If you don't mind me asking because of your experience do you have an innate ability to make others feel good about themselves?

I think the cause in both our cases share similarities but I can't say for certain. Though I'm still trying to wade through the crap I'm pretty certain mine has to do with attachment issues and difficulty handling it when it's formed.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).
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I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
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Okay now that IS interesting because that's the one consistent thread I've been hearing not only from myself but others. I have ZERO idea where it comes from but it's like this nagging voice likes to tell me "come on, it can only get better".

My theory relating back to astrology is we're like jokesters that like to prove the impossible what's more funny than defying certain doom? by spitting in its face and say suck on that I'm super awesome and you can't bring me down!
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Aqua with clinical depression here.

Regarding your three questions:

1. Optimistic nihilism

2. Cold and uncaring

3. Mostly formed through constant deprivation in all possible areas

The relationship with my depression is weird and according to what therapists have said to me so far somewhat uniqe. I deal with it in a very detached, uncaring way and when it hits in form of grief or a physical form of panic attack it mostly happens as something that doesn't feel like it's a part of me.
That's very similar to how I would describe mine. Which I guess is what my therapist is trying to work out because I don't have a very deep emotional response to grief and loss either. When I tried to describe it I couldn't either. It really forced me to dig up the past to which I think we arrived at the conclusion that I was never given the chance to experience after an attachment.

But I'm interested in your optimistic nihilism, what drives you to move forward, what part of it is the optimistic.
I accept nihilism as a fact that can't be denied. There is no purpose, reason or cause but instead of feeling despair over it I see it as something positive. It is mostly based on Nietzsches concepts.

My problem is that there isn't much that drives me forward anymore. The only times I keep pushing forward is when I'm annoyed and act on emotions and instinct. Other than that I don't really care about this world anymore but this is not due to the nihilism part and more because of my displeasure with how humans act and behave.

My personal experiences with human beings only added onto that.
Thanks for sharing! I appreciate the honesty here as a lot of people loves to fluff it up. If you don't mind me asking because of your experience do you have an innate ability to make others feel good about themselves?

I think the cause in both our cases share similarities but I can't say for certain. Though I'm still trying to wade through the crap I'm pretty certain mine has to do with attachment issues and difficulty handling it when it's formed.
I'd say not but everything I know insists that I do. Maybe it's the Jupiter in Cancer conjuncting the MC.

Difficulties are also present in matters of intimacy etc., at least in the common sense.
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For me It's Jupiter in Cap but I do have Cancer in MC. But I guess I suppose the rigidity has never been there for me it becomes harder for me to decipher how I want to shape the future.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Okay now that IS interesting because that's the one consistent thread I've been hearing not only from myself but others. I have ZERO idea where it comes from but it's like this nagging voice likes to tell me "come on, it can only get better".

My theory relating back to astrology is we're like jokesters that like to prove the impossible what's more funny than defying certain doom? by spitting in its face and say suck on that I'm super awesome and you can't bring me down!
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Sometimes, you just have to have faith/belief and not question where it comes from. 100% agree with the last part lol Gotta PROVE that life won't get the better of me.
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My aqua friend in high school had really bad depression and anxiety, still does. We tried talking about it years ago and we came to the conclusion that he gets it from trying to make everyone around him happy. He felt like he has to lie to important people in his life and lying causes more lies and more lies then it gets out of hand then you have all this anxiety. It also comes from being so detached that you feel bad for not feeling bad. I think you guys are very deeply caring souls and i wish you guys happiness.
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My aqua friend in high school had really bad depression and anxiety, still does. We tried talking about it years ago and we came to the conclusion that he gets it from trying to make everyone around him happy. He felt like he has to lie to important people in his life and lying causes more lies and more lies then it gets out of hand then you have all this anxiety. It also comes from being so detached that you feel bad for not feeling bad. I think you guys are very deeply caring souls and i wish you guys happiness.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Okay now that IS interesting because that's the one consistent thread I've been hearing not only from myself but others. I have ZERO idea where it comes from but it's like this nagging voice likes to tell me "come on, it can only get better".

My theory relating back to astrology is we're like jokesters that like to prove the impossible what's more funny than defying certain doom? by spitting in its face and say suck on that I'm super awesome and you can't bring me down!

Sometimes, you just have to have faith/belief and not question where it comes from. 100% agree with the last part lol Gotta PROVE that life won't get the better of me.
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I need to fire up my jokester bits methinks. @MyStarsShine just reminded me that I'm majority pisces. I went back to look at my chart which I haven't visited in YEARS and everytime it surprises me like looking into the mirror after a big night out haha.

Top 3 in order of dominance: Pisces, Scorpio, Cancer.

Talk about a mess! sheesh. pass me those saggie bits please
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Okay now that IS interesting because that's the one consistent thread I've been hearing not only from myself but others. I have ZERO idea where it comes from but it's like this nagging voice likes to tell me "come on, it can only get better".

My theory relating back to astrology is we're like jokesters that like to prove the impossible what's more funny than defying certain doom? by spitting in its face and say suck on that I'm super awesome and you can't bring me down!

Sometimes, you just have to have faith/belief and not question where it comes from. 100% agree with the last part lol Gotta PROVE that life won't get the better of me.
I need to fire up my jokester bits methinks. @MyStarsShine just reminded me that I'm majority pisces. I went back to look at my chart which I haven't visited in YEARS and everytime it surprises me like looking into the mirror after a big night out haha.

Top 3 in order of dominance: Pisces, Scorpio, Cancer.

Talk about a mess! sheesh. pass me those saggie bits please
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okies, i will trade 2 for some water bits 😛 I get to pick which 2! LOLOLOL
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My aqua friend in high school had really bad depression and anxiety, still does. We tried talking about it years ago and we came to the conclusion that he gets it from trying to make everyone around him happy. He felt like he has to lie to important people in his life and lying causes more lies and more lies then it gets out of hand then you have all this anxiety. It also comes from being so detached that you feel bad for not feeling bad. I think you guys are very deeply caring souls and i wish you guys happiness.
Maybe it is the Aqua stereotype with detachment. It's definitely not one that I would've related to even just a few years back. I care for people purely for the fact it was never given to me and it's a real shame for others to end up like me. But thank you I do see common instances where happiness feels forced which then in itself becomes a catalyst of an opposite reaction.
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I stopped seeking

Accepted the mundane things in life n yes this is all there is in life

Since I’ve accepted my nightmares I’m just going about it day at a time

Maybe I mea t to be alone

So I am n thoroughly enjoying it.

I would get in to tail spin when things didn’t go as planned so now I expect nothing


I felt as if I was at that stage having gone through a cycle of trying to change, reverting back, trying to change to ignoring it and accepting. Part of me feels hollow without meaning even if it never really did the assumption was I could fill it. Personally I haven't found anyone but in some respects I don't feel I'm deserving of anyone due to the way I am. In most cases I end up hurting others more.

BUT /hug I like hugs and hugs always make things better.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Okay now that IS interesting because that's the one consistent thread I've been hearing not only from myself but others. I have ZERO idea where it comes from but it's like this nagging voice likes to tell me "come on, it can only get better".

My theory relating back to astrology is we're like jokesters that like to prove the impossible what's more funny than defying certain doom? by spitting in its face and say suck on that I'm super awesome and you can't bring me down!

Sometimes, you just have to have faith/belief and not question where it comes from. 100% agree with the last part lol Gotta PROVE that life won't get the better of me.
I need to fire up my jokester bits methinks. @MyStarsShine just reminded me that I'm majority pisces. I went back to look at my chart which I haven't visited in YEARS and everytime it surprises me like looking into the mirror after a big night out haha.

Top 3 in order of dominance: Pisces, Scorpio, Cancer.

Talk about a mess! sheesh. pass me those saggie bits please

okies, i will trade 2 for some water bits 😛 I get to pick which 2! LOLOLOL
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Okay you have a choice between pisces pisces, pisces, scorpio and cancer (psssst take pisces)
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Okay now that IS interesting because that's the one consistent thread I've been hearing not only from myself but others. I have ZERO idea where it comes from but it's like this nagging voice likes to tell me "come on, it can only get better".

My theory relating back to astrology is we're like jokesters that like to prove the impossible what's more funny than defying certain doom? by spitting in its face and say suck on that I'm super awesome and you can't bring me down!

Sometimes, you just have to have faith/belief and not question where it comes from. 100% agree with the last part lol Gotta PROVE that life won't get the better of me.
I need to fire up my jokester bits methinks. @MyStarsShine just reminded me that I'm majority pisces. I went back to look at my chart which I haven't visited in YEARS and everytime it surprises me like looking into the mirror after a big night out haha.

Top 3 in order of dominance: Pisces, Scorpio, Cancer.

Talk about a mess! sheesh. pass me those saggie bits please

okies, i will trade 2 for some water bits 😛 I get to pick which 2! LOLOLOL
Okay you have a choice between pisces pisces, pisces, scorpio and cancer (psssst take pisces)
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Hi Aquasnoz....long time no see. We joined the same year...I was Starlover...good to see you back

Sorry to read about your depression. I hope you find ways to manage it. Keep making music and talking about it. I sense you and seleukos will get on well?

If I remember correctly, you are Pisces dominant?

🙂
Hey hey 🙂 Nice to see some old faces! Art and music are definitely my outlet and slowly getting back into it! I'm definitely pisces dominant which I suppose I should be thankful for as it almost lifts a bit of that stubbornness away haha. But I do wonder as I tend to analyse other aquas and most of them appear to have their head screwed on better!
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I remember you being very creative and easy going

Don't we always think others are more together than we are, until we realise they're not lol

Are you planning a new project ?
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
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Sometimes is being alone in disguise. Any single happy Aquarians around? I guess no.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Sometimes is being alone in disguise. Any single happy Aquarians around? I guess no.
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what? not sure what you are saying tbh.
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Sometimes is being alone in disguise. Any single happy Aquarians around? I guess no.

what? not sure what you are saying tbh.

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are you single?
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Sometimes is being alone in disguise. Any single happy Aquarians around? I guess no.

what? not sure what you are saying tbh.



are you single?

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Currently, yes, and very happy with my life.
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Sometimes is being alone in disguise. Any single happy Aquarians around? I guess no.
I feel that may be true in some respect but not in the way most people view it. My Depression flared up the worst when it should have been the happiest in my life (been with the love of my life for 4 years). I almost feel responsible for half the threads created here asking 'wtf happened to this aqua'. So it's definitely not something that love can heal and although it patched up some rough spots here and there it definitely didn't 'fix' me.

Even now disregarding my outlook on 'life' I'd like to think I'm not miserable, wouldn't say happy per se but definitely optimistic being by myself rather than being with others.
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Where is your Chiron?
Gemini!

Hm, I guess the constant is the Cancer MC then.
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Yeah I'm not sure what it is as I honestly consider myself to be a cold person too but that might be might internal thoughts. I've been told many times that I have a very warm and comforting aura. I think I die a little everytime I hear that.
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My general outlook on life is that it’s good but there’s a lot of work I need to put into areas and I tend to use social media, food, booze and drugs as a distraction so I don’t deal with certain things. I need to learn to rip bandaids off and sit inside of the uncomfort zone and not cringe everytime I need to do shit.

I think people perceive me as tall, happy, stupid, genuine and eccentric.

My theory on my beliefs is easy to understand “nothing is good or bad thinking makes it so” I cultivate good thinking by opening myself to experiences that Spark my interest and puts me outside my comfort zone.

Two weeks ago I finished work and helped this Thai girl at my work finish counting money (no one talks to her because she doesn’t speak good English) so after work she asked me to talk her home which I thought was weird, we go to her place and then she takes me to a restaurant that’s open at 4 in the morning and we go in and it’s full of Korean kids and they’re all loud and having a great time and the atmosphere was awesome and my workmate and I sat down to a great meal and we drank illegal beer from a teapot and just sat in a really nice atmosphere (its was a dive) but I love dives and it was moments like that, that I cherish and I know that makes me happy so I’m very much open to experiences that expand my awareness especially in Sydney.
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I work with an aqua who is always anxious and depressed. He’s a really cool and nice guy and is often upbeat, but then he’ll come into work one day and you can just tell from his vibe that he’s not having a good day. We had a long discussion one day about how basically every guy in his immediate family has bipolar disorder— including him. There’s obviously a genetic factor there, but I think with aquarians there is just so much deep thinking and questioning that takes place just because of who you guys are... and unfortunately overthinking can transform into depression and anxiety. Makes sense really.
I don't think it's something we're aware. At least it's not something I'm fully aware of. I'm not sure how it manifests in Aquas which is why I'm interested because I've always been more keen to prevent slipping. It's also interesting that a lot of people mention 'thinkers' tend to think themselves into a corner but it just boggles my mind to think that no one else has come across the same thoughts.

Thanks for sharing! I really appreciate stories and experiences.
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My general outlook on life is that it’s good but there’s a lot of work I need to put into areas and I tend to use social media, food, booze and drugs as a distraction so I don’t deal with certain things. I need to learn to rip bandaids off and sit inside of the uncomfort zone and not cringe everytime I need to do shit.

I think people perceive me as tall, happy, stupid, genuine and eccentric.

My theory on my beliefs is easy to understand “nothing is good or bad thinking makes it so” I cultivate good thinking by opening myself to experiences that Spark my interest and puts me outside my comfort zone.

Two weeks ago I finished work and helped this Thai girl at my work finish counting money (no one talks to her because she doesn’t speak good English) so after work she asked me to talk her home which I thought was weird, we go to her place and then she takes me to a restaurant that’s open at 4 in the morning and we go in and it’s full of Korean kids and they’re all loud and having a great time and the atmosphere was awesome and my workmate and I sat down to a great meal and we drank illegal beer from a teapot and just sat in a really nice atmosphere (its was a dive) but I love dives and it was moments like that, that I cherish and I know that makes me happy so I’m very much open to experiences that expand my awareness especially in Sydney.
This is where I feel support systems are really important. This is also why working in Darlinghurst for me was both a distraction and fuel for my disorder. There's so many interesting and vibrant exciting things happening but there's also some bleak, gloomy, dark things you experience.

I guess this is where the brain works differently as I can't stand social media and the experiences (the bad ones) outlined above also paints a negative picture for me about drugs and alcohol even if I'm always surrounded by it. I just never liked losing control because suicide idealisation might just become actuation if I'm not careful.
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Interested to see if there are other aquas out there who are either suffering from depression or anxiety or bit of both as I'm very fascinated at how our belief systems are formed especially how rooted and environmental they can be even if it appears to be malleable.

1. What is your general outlook on life

2. How would you describe yourself in the eyes of a stranger

3. Do you have a theory in how your belief systems formed

Obviously this is a safe space just keep the details impersonal unless you're really up for sharing but if you're like me some details are just better left out. I've just started seeing a psychologist after ignoring it for the better part of almost two decades and it's equally as interesting to see it through the lens of astrology.

Astrology or not I'd definitely like to hear some stories big or small. I think I've similar thread somewhere here in the past but many new faces and many new opinions and as always I prefer to start fresh.

Other signs feel free to chime in or even just to say hi. Just know that I'll be personally more interested in Aquarius + pisces placements as it has been shown in the past their thought process mirrors mine more closely.
Interested to see the responses. My aqua ex had depression which drove him to alcoholism. My aqua bf just developed anxiety 3 weeks ago and now just recovering. He gets dizzy when he has his attacks. I want to understand it better in aqua perspective as I want to know what I can do for him.
I feel that anxiety manifests itself differently I can talk more in depth about how my anxiety spawns from depression and vice versa but not anxiety by itself. It's great he has a support system in the form of you.

One thing that really hits home though is loss of control. As you know when you dwell in the depths too much you lose grip on reality and when you're no longer in control if who you are or at least the image of who you are to others it makes me super nervous at dealing with everything even so much as picking up a phone call. My dizziness is due to not being able to breathe and what helps is truly just reminding myself to breath.

You could really just make a joke and buy me a respirator or something lol. breeaaaathe.

Hey @aquasnoz thank you! That is so true. My aqua said something about feeling the pressure to become successful and yet not being able to control the outcome of many things he is doing. He wants to keep pushing but at the same time, he feels tired to do sobecause he already did a lot. He was like that for a week and even saw a doctor because of too much dizziness from overthinking. He started playing video games to take his mind off of things. Recently hes been getting better because he already planned his trip to see me. I do wonder though, if his anxiety will come back after his trip is done... and also what other ways do you use to distract yourself from being anxious?
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I'm probably the least qualified person for an answer because I'm pretty new to anxiety myself. If he doesn't flake on you then just take it as a good sign it's not really creeping into other areas of his life. I have a session on thursday and just thinking about it keeps me awake even though I know full well there's nothing to be afraid of so *shrugs*.

But I truly hope he'll be okay.
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Posted by aquasnoz
Interested to see if there are other aquas out there who are either suffering from depression or anxiety or bit of both as I'm very fascinated at how our belief systems are formed especially how rooted and environmental they can be even if it appears to be malleable.

1. What is your general outlook on life

2. How would you describe yourself in the eyes of a stranger

3. Do you have a theory in how your belief systems formed

Obviously this is a safe space just keep the details impersonal unless you're really up for sharing but if you're like me some details are just better left out. I've just started seeing a psychologist after ignoring it for the better part of almost two decades and it's equally as interesting to see it through the lens of astrology.

Astrology or not I'd definitely like to hear some stories big or small. I think I've similar thread somewhere here in the past but many new faces and many new opinions and as always I prefer to start fresh.

Other signs feel free to chime in or even just to say hi. Just know that I'll be personally more interested in Aquarius + pisces placements as it has been shown in the past their thought process mirrors mine more closely.
Interested to see the responses. My aqua ex had depression which drove him to alcoholism. My aqua bf just developed anxiety 3 weeks ago and now just recovering. He gets dizzy when he has his attacks. I want to understand it better in aqua perspective as I want to know what I can do for him.
I feel that anxiety manifests itself differently I can talk more in depth about how my anxiety spawns from depression and vice versa but not anxiety by itself. It's great he has a support system in the form of you.

One thing that really hits home though is loss of control. As you know when you dwell in the depths too much you lose grip on reality and when you're no longer in control if who you are or at least the image of who you are to others it makes me super nervous at dealing with everything even so much as picking up a phone call. My dizziness is due to not being able to breathe and what helps is truly just reminding myself to breath.

You could really just make a joke and buy me a respirator or something lol. breeaaaathe.

Hey @aquasnoz thank you! That is so true. My aqua said something about feeling the pressure to become successful and yet not being able to control the outcome of many things he is doing. He wants to keep pushing but at the same time, he feels tired to do sobecause he already did a lot. He was like that for a week and even saw a doctor because of too much dizziness from overthinking. He started playing video games to take his mind off of things. Recently hes been getting better because he already planned his trip to see me. I do wonder though, if his anxiety will come back after his trip is done... and also what other ways do you use to distract yourself from being anxious?
I'm probably the least qualified person for an answer because I'm pretty new to anxiety myself. If he doesn't flake on you then just take it as a good sign it's not really creeping into other areas of his life. I have a session on thursday and just thinking about it keeps me awake even though I know full well there's nothing to be afraid of so *shrugs*.

But I truly hope he'll be okay.
Fortunately, he isnt flaking on me now. He did for 2 days. That was the first and last time. Hes been really clingy and needy lately though. Which i do hope is not due to him supressing his anxiety. Does your SO know about what youre going through? How does she support you?
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Not very well that's for sure. I'm not currently with anyone, nothing serious anyway. Lots of details with different partners but ultimately it never ends up well and it's hard to distinguish whether it's me or them at times.
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Eleventh
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My general outlook on life is that it’s good but there’s a lot of work I need to put into areas and I tend to use social media, food, booze and drugs as a distraction so I don’t deal with certain things. I need to learn to rip bandaids off and sit inside of the uncomfort zone and not cringe everytime I need to do shit.

I think people perceive me as tall, happy, stupid, genuine and eccentric.

My theory on my beliefs is easy to understand “nothing is good or bad thinking makes it so” I cultivate good thinking by opening myself to experiences that Spark my interest and puts me outside my comfort zone.

Two weeks ago I finished work and helped this Thai girl at my work finish counting money (no one talks to her because she doesn’t speak good English) so after work she asked me to talk her home which I thought was weird, we go to her place and then she takes me to a restaurant that’s open at 4 in the morning and we go in and it’s full of Korean kids and they’re all loud and having a great time and the atmosphere was awesome and my workmate and I sat down to a great meal and we drank illegal beer from a teapot and just sat in a really nice atmosphere (its was a dive) but I love dives and it was moments like that, that I cherish and I know that makes me happy so I’m very much open to experiences that expand my awareness especially in Sydney.
This is where I feel support systems are really important. This is also why working in Darlinghurst for me was both a distraction and fuel for my disorder. There's so many interesting and vibrant exciting things happening but there's also some bleak, gloomy, dark things you experience.

I guess this is where the brain works differently as I can't stand social media and the experiences (the bad ones) outlined above also paints a negative picture for me about drugs and alcohol even if I'm always surrounded by it. I just never liked losing control because suicide idealisation might just become actuation if I'm not careful.
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Hay well if you’re still in Darlinghurst let’s catch up for coffee sometime I’m working at one of the bars on oxford st.
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Mate I am not an Aqua and my closest dealings with an aqua was my ex which I spoke to you about.

I just want to say that I think you are a good person and I hope you resolve your issues. I may not be able to give you an aqua point of view or experience, but if you need to vent or just chat, message me!!!

You helped me out at a time where I was confused and at a low point, and if I can I would like to return the favour.

Best of luck!!
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👋 hai Snozie! Miss you around these parts.

Sorry you guys are dealing with depression. I've been pretty fortunate that I haven't dealt with much of it. I do get anxiety from time to time, which is usually brought on by being overwhelmed with emotions and loss of control. I just try to breath through it and get away if I'm in a crowd.


Hola mah fav twin! It's funny because I know a lot of saggies that deal with anxiety so I'll just gently pat your placements! Jokes aside though saggies are also super resilient and self preserving.

Plus I wouldn't worry too much, Depression is a thing that I've lived with for a long long time. Lucky enough to not be part of the statistic last year so I've been encouraging and participating in a lot of open discussions as I can only imagine the amount of people so closed up like I was about everything (and probably still am).

🤗

I think I dealt with many of those demons (what I call them) when I was younger. I survived a suicide attempt and it changed me. When I have bad moments I just chant to myself- it will get better. Glad you are seeking help and talking about it.
Sometimes is being alone in disguise. Any single happy Aquarians around? I guess no.
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i'm happiest when im in a relationship (sometimes i think i got a stellium in Libra) but i have no libra

and i have attracted aries dominant men in my life, (aries venus in particularly) so ....that gives me the indication that they feel i am Libra their opposite...but it never works out anyway cause we love differently...the 1st two were crap relationships anyway, the last one was a good guy and i would have stayed forever but there's something in me that was not happy, like i want to be loved very very deeply. more like, accept me and not try to change me. aries venus likes an independent woman. and i'm very co-dependent.



it might be because im Taurus dominant and my last ex was dating two tauruses....

and venus/mars is in play. my last ex is virgo /pisces/aries dominant. that's why....

that's the indication of venus/mars. and aries likes the air. So the tauruses may have gemini in them. lol

for air/fire .



my husband too, likes aqua/taurus energy, kind of like jessica alba, but not too much aqua, he never liked too much aqua (I observe) lol and alba has alot of taurus, stellium.
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I work with an aqua who is always anxious and depressed. He’s a really cool and nice guy and is often upbeat, but then he’ll come into work one day and you can just tell from his vibe that he’s not having a good day. We had a long discussion one day about how basically every guy in his immediate family has bipolar disorder— including him. There’s obviously a genetic factor there, but I think with aquarians there is just so much deep thinking and questioning that takes place just because of who you guys are... and unfortunately overthinking can transform into depression and anxiety. Makes sense really.
this reminds me of Smokey Robinson, Aquarius sun/Cancer moon

his lyrics.

Now if there's a smile on my face

It's only there trying to fool the public

But when it comes down to fooling you

Now honey, that's quite a different subject

But don't let my glad expression

Give you the wrong impression

Really, I'm sad

Oh, I'm sadder than sad

You're gone and I'm hurtin' so bad

Like a clown I pretend to be glad

Now there's some sad things known to man

But ain't too much sadder than

The tears of a clown

When there's no one around



Now if I appear to be carefree

It's only to camouflage my sadness

In order to shield my pride I've tried

To cover this hurt with a show of gladness

But don't let my show convince you

That I've been happy since you

Decided to go

Oh, I need you so

I'm hurt and I want you to know

But for others I put on a show

Oh, there's some sad things known to man

But there ain't too much sadder than

The tears of a clown



https://www.astrotheme.com/astrology/Smokey_Robinson
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@The_eleventh_sign_11 - When I'm around for sure! My last episode left me with crippling anxiety which I found strange as I've never been anxious of social interaction - I mean I bartend and work cafes for god sake.

@MrR78 - Thankyou! I really appreciate it. I know there's a lot of people wanting to help me through this but so far I can't even get my own head around what's wrong hence the therapy but surely making some progress into finding causes and finding solutions.

@lisabethur8 - Definitely! It's not the first time I've tried tackling this but I feel like I'm on the losing end of this battle and this is definitely what I would consider myself a really prolonged bout. I'm not unhappy at all with anything that's happened recently and I think a lot of the misconception stems from a stereotypical view of depression.
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My fiancé is an Aquarian (with Mars in Pisces), and I've been working with him on overcoming his anxiety and depression (I used to suffer with it myself, but I'm a Cancerian). He struggles with negative, catastrophic thinking, thanks to the anxiety. When things aren't going his way, he gets tunnel vision and focuses solely on that one problem and blows it up into this tragic event, which creates a snowball effect if anything else goes wrong, resulting in him sinking into depression. Despite this, his outlook on life remains refreshingly positive. He always looks to the future with great optimism and looks forward to the limitless possibilities ahead. It seems to have started in his youth, like with most of us. His father left when he was a teenager, and that was followed by a string of shitty ex-girlfriends who made him feel like he was either not enough of this or too much of that. He always knew he was different from most people (as you beautiful Aquarians are), but as that feeling grew, so did the anxiety, and with that the depression. Most of the time he thrives on his individuality. It's just when people he cares about have a problem with it that it affects him so negatively. I praise him for it daily, though, and have made great strides in undoing the damage of those past relationships (though we still have a lot of work to do).
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@Keres - thanks for sharing I truly appreciate it especially with some similar circumstances does he ever explain his optimism? I have it too but I honestly have no idea where it comes from. If your tag line is right I'm assuming he's also around my age group be interesting to hear a bit more about him.

@GC05 - I live off coffee haha. I think one more session, there's a few things I need to determine with my shrink but it can be bipolar I and she said that would explain why the medication never worked for me all those years ago.
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@Keres - thanks for sharing I truly appreciate it especially with some similar circumstances does he ever explain his optimism? I have it too but I honestly have no idea where it comes from. If your tag line is right I'm assuming he's also around my age group be interesting to hear a bit more about him.

@GC05 - I live off coffee haha. I think one more session, there's a few things I need to determine with my shrink but it can be bipolar I and she said that would explain why the medication never worked for me all those years ago.
I will say that even when he battles the self-doubt anxiety causes, he still never loses sight of his promising future. He's one who sincerely believes the sky is the limit, and he never stops trying to progress. Even when he has those moments where he feels stuck, he knows it's temporary. He trusts with all his heart he will be a great success. I think that's how he remains optimistic. Even when the present is trying, he sees the light at the end of the tunnel, because he's confident in his abilities. ☺

I hope that answers your question
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Posted by Aquaman4848
So this depression problem goes for most aquas...
I thought I was the only one!!!
This happens coz of too much overthinking multiple things at same time...even though we don't want it...it just keeps revolving around head...
Sometimes I wish to die, so everything could just stop..my questioning would stop...and I can have a one complete clear breathe for one last time 😊


aw really?



i dont have that problem to be honest.



but i didnt realize so many of u have it.

mine is more like, i get anxiety from "out there" lol

so i work mostly at home and work part time and need alot of my alone time.

it is terrible it seems but i can't deal with it otherwise.
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Posted by Aquaman4848
So this depression problem goes for most aquas...
I thought I was the only one!!!
This happens coz of too much overthinking multiple things at same time...even though we don't want it...it just keeps revolving around head...
Sometimes I wish to die, so everything could just stop..my questioning would stop...and I can have a one complete clear breathe for one last time 😊
Well I think that might be a bit of an overstatement. I would've thought Aquarius are more resilient to depression to some extent. Or maybe we just all never talk about those yucky things called emotions.